I've discovered looksmaxxing in early 2022 and I've been obsessed with it ever since, but i never actually tried to lock in and do something about my looks and I've been LDAR for 4 years now. Im 18 and a manlet (5'6) and a borderline LTN (sub5 in another word) and im a loser in every way possible and got no job, friends, and no personality. And all of this made me lose faith in my religion and blaming God for how fucked up my genetics. and I've considered roping multiple times before. because i believed that looks are truly about genetics and there's nothing you can do about it. I wanna at least try even if it's just cope. If nothing ever changes by the end of the year I'll just rope and end it all, and before i end it all i wanna know that i at least tried my best. If anything nit gonna go according to the plan I'll just make sure to DNR and die alone because passing i would never want this curse to happen even to my worst enemy.