
HundredManSlayer
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i will never live a normal or happy life because im 5'4. even if for some miracle height didn't matter, the scars in my mind are too deep to ever love a girl without feeling deathly insecure. my entire life i have been the shortest. i used to be the scrawniest kid ever. barely 4'10 and 80 lbs, despite building a good physique and bulking up 40 lbs, the short stature still remains. i have probably thought about my height every day since i could consciously remember. i remember back in kindergarten i was so confused to why i was smaller than everyone else. elementary school and middle school i got bullied because of my height and how frail i was. my high school life has been hellish. no one says anything. but i know immediately what they're thinking. in class people would treat me like how i was an htn. good face, especially eye area, body halo, knew how to dress well and speak well. but when i stood up every ounce of hard work i put into my physique, everything. it all just fucking dissipates into nothing the second i stand up and they see me for who i am.
the shit that sent me over the edge today was a meeting for my new job, room full of mtbs. it was just fucking comical. my manager is a jester discord mod. i mogged everyone there, besides in one key area. walked in, grabbed a chair and sat down. could already see some girl next to me was into me. everything looked fucking mogger on me. except when we all had to stand up. shortest one there. everyone there height mogged me, any attraction to me disappeared into fucking mist. everything on me felt like overcompensation, the all black fit showing off the physique, my hair, nothing felt natural. felt so emasculated, so childlike, so distraught. we had to move chairs and shit around but i couldn't stand another fucking second of this torture without shoe lifts on. i literally left an hour before the meeting was over, walked home and just wanted a car to run me over. im so insecure i even fraud to 5'4 on this fucking website when in actuality im probably closer to 5'3. my only hope is to spam hgh, but even then im broke as hell. i need hundreds per month, my time is running up. my life is on nightmare mode.
the shit that sent me over the edge today was a meeting for my new job, room full of mtbs. it was just fucking comical. my manager is a jester discord mod. i mogged everyone there, besides in one key area. walked in, grabbed a chair and sat down. could already see some girl next to me was into me. everything looked fucking mogger on me. except when we all had to stand up. shortest one there. everyone there height mogged me, any attraction to me disappeared into fucking mist. everything on me felt like overcompensation, the all black fit showing off the physique, my hair, nothing felt natural. felt so emasculated, so childlike, so distraught. we had to move chairs and shit around but i couldn't stand another fucking second of this torture without shoe lifts on. i literally left an hour before the meeting was over, walked home and just wanted a car to run me over. im so insecure i even fraud to 5'4 on this fucking website when in actuality im probably closer to 5'3. my only hope is to spam hgh, but even then im broke as hell. i need hundreds per month, my time is running up. my life is on nightmare mode.