i want to be admitted to a mental hospital but don’t wanna disappoint anyone

[sexist]

i don’t wanna tell anyone i need help because i don’t wanna disappoint them, i don’t want my dad to think i’m a mentally ill failure of a son, i don’t want anyone to worry about me etc

but it’s came to a point that i don’t even feel safe around myself , i feel like my unpredictability lies beyond my control and i’m constantly on edge of just doing something life ruining

i notice it’s 100x worse when i’m off my medication but even on it it’s still there

 

[sexist]

dnr

 

[Absurdist]

i don’t wanna tell anyone i need help because i don’t wanna disappoint them, i don’t want my dad to think i’m a mentally ill failure of a son, i don’t want anyone to worry about me etc

but it’s came to a point that i don’t even feel safe around myself , i feel like my unpredictability lies beyond my control and i’m constantly on edge of just doing something life ruining

i notice it’s 100x worse when i’m off my medication but even on it it’s still there

what do you have? im a fellow mentalcel.