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I am in computer science and math right now and I always wondered why I lack the motivation to do anything related to it in my free time.

I understand the answer now

It’s because coding is entirely meaningless in the large sphere of things, you’re in class writing shitty ass code that servers no purpose to anything or anyone at all. All just for an artificial grade and number (money.)

I wish I can do something of meaning with my life, something that makes me feel valued in a community but the truth is nothing like that truly exists anymore. If it does exist, it usually doesn’t pay nearly enough for a sustainable good living.

I feel so motivated when it comes to doing something for others, even if it’s just a stranger I oddly feel almost obliged mentally to go help them if they need and ask for it.

I want to be able to help people, I want to be seen as kind of a saviour or a hero by people as cringe as that sounds.

The idea of dying whilst living a totally average life (let’s exclude family as a variable completely even though I understand thats a big cofactor for happiness and purpose) where you worked as a coder for your life is daunting.

I would rather die now but die knowing I did something meaningful like save a group of innocent people and sacrificed my own instead.

This post is going to get trolled but eh as cringe as it may be this is truly what I long for in life. I just want a family and I want to provide for that family by doing something meaningful for the society near me.
 
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Bump, journaling actually helps so much
 
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normalize adding a tldr at the end
 
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dnr lol
 
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You sound like you should go into aged care.
 
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I am in computer science and math right now and I always wondered why I lack the motivation to do anything related to it in my free time.

I understand the answer now

It’s because coding is entirely meaningless in the large sphere of things, you’re in class writing shitty ass code that servers no purpose to anything or anyone at all. All just for an artificial grade and number (money.)

I wish I can do something of meaning with my life, something that makes me feel valued in a community but the truth is nothing like that truly exists anymore. If it does exist, it usually doesn’t pay nearly enough for a sustainable good living.

I feel so motivated when it comes to doing something for others, even if it’s just a stranger I oddly feel almost obliged mentally to go help them if they need and ask for it.

I want to be able to help people, I want to be seen as kind of a saviour or a hero by people as cringe as that sounds.

The idea of dying whilst living a totally average life (let’s exclude family as a variable completely even though I understand thats a big cofactor for happiness and purpose) where you worked as a coder for your life is daunting.

I would rather die now but die knowing I did something meaningful like save a group of innocent people and sacrificed my own instead.

This post is going to get trolled but eh as cringe as it may be this is truly what I long for in life. I just want a family and I want to provide for that family by doing something meaningful for the society near me.
Be in the healthcare industry
Even something like a pharmacist is still a of meaningful job

Doctors and surgeons and engineers mog
Actually doctors and surgeons should be in different categories thsn engineers they mog engineers
 
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I feel the exact same, except I'm only 15
 
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Be in the healthcare industry
Even something like a pharmacist is still a of meaningful job

Doctors and surgeons and engineers mog
Actually doctors and surgeons should be in different categories thsn engineers
The problem with the medical field is that it’s just too many years of schooling, with comp sci I will be getting a 6 figure job at 21 then I can ascend my looks by 22

I don’t really wanna work as a pharmacist or anything because they don’t get paid a lot.

Surgeons and doctors are the only ones I would be interested in but again just too much schooling.
 
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I am in computer science and math right now and I always wondered why I lack the motivation to do anything related to it in my free time.

I understand the answer now

It’s because coding is entirely meaningless in the large sphere of things, you’re in class writing shitty ass code that servers no purpose to anything or anyone at all. All just for an artificial grade and number (money.)

I wish I can do something of meaning with my life, something that makes me feel valued in a community but the truth is nothing like that truly exists anymore. If it does exist, it usually doesn’t pay nearly enough for a sustainable good living.

I feel so motivated when it comes to doing something for others, even if it’s just a stranger I oddly feel almost obliged mentally to go help them if they need and ask for it.

I want to be able to help people, I want to be seen as kind of a saviour or a hero by people as cringe as that sounds.

The idea of dying whilst living a totally average life (let’s exclude family as a variable completely even though I understand thats a big cofactor for happiness and purpose) where you worked as a coder for your life is daunting.

I would rather die now but die knowing I did something meaningful like save a group of innocent people and sacrificed my own instead.

This post is going to get trolled but eh as cringe as it may be this is truly what I long for in life. I just want a family and I want to provide for that family by doing something meaningful for the society near me.
Me and you have the same brain bruh deadass
There is nothing meaningful that I do in life .

Working out, improving my looks it’s for others .
Studying to get a job .

And other hobbies that I like including gaming or watching anime is again nice and entertaining but just meaningless at the end .

I don’t know what to do :feelsuhh::feelsuhh:
 
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The problem with the medical field is that it’s just too many years of schooling, with comp sci I will be getting a 6 figure job at 21 then I can ascend my looks by 22

I don’t really wanna work as a pharmacist or anything because they don’t get paid a lot.

Surgeons and doctors are the only ones I would be interested in but again just too much schooling.
Where I live pharmacist get paid 130-190k which is pretty good

But yeah I get it schooling is a big problem and the insane debt
 
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Because it's what you described. You can wipe their asses and be their hero. Most of them are sick of women talking to them like little children. Women love abusing any power that society gives them over another and talking down to the person as though they're a child. They're so evil. My brother was a drug addict who became a christcuck and now works as some sort of aged carer thing where he goes around to old peoples houses and mows their lawns, do their gardening, shopping, etc. Does he like it? Fucked if I know.
 
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Me and you have the same brain bruh deadass
There is nothing meaningful that I do in life .

Working out, improving my looks it’s for others .
Studying to get a job .

And other hobbies that I like including gaming or watching anime is again nice and entertaining but just meaningless at the end .

I don’t know what to do :feelsuhh::feelsuhh:
Yeah I just rot in bed all day tbh or gymcel/looksmax

When im back in my university city, I just hang out with friends and do goofy shit, that I find really fulfilling even though I’m not doing anything of “value” per se
 
Because it's what you described. You can wipe their asses and be their hero. Most of them are sick of women talking to them like little children. Women love abusing any power that society gives them over another and talking down to the person as though they're a child. They're so evil. My brother was a drug addict who became a christcuck and now works as some sort of aged carer thing where he goes around to old peoples houses and mows their lawns, do their gardening, shopping, etc. Does he like it? Fucked if I know.
Well yeah but another point in my post was that it’s not necessarily the lack of work there is that’s fulfilling in that sense, it’s the fact they pay like shit.

If I work in a residence home, sure that may be more fulfilling than coding but I’ll be living pay check by pay check, I don’t want that.
 
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Well yeah but another point in my post was that it’s not necessarily the lack of work there is that’s fulfilling in that sense, it’s the fact they pay like shit.

If I work in a residence home, sure that may be more fulfilling than coding but I’ll be living pay check by pay check, I don’t want that.

Like a foid trying to pick a Chad.
 
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Like a foid trying to pick a Chad.
Dude what are you even talking about? How do you guys manage to make everything about foids bruh

That’s why I hate coming on at night, all the fucking Indians are on at this time
 
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Dude what are you even talking about? How do you guys manage to make everything about foids bruh

That’s why I hate coming on at night, all the fucking Indians are on at this time

Well you're being a picky little faggot. 'I don't want this I want that, no not that Chad, that Chad doesn't make enough money for me, I want a rich Chad, but not that rich Chad, a rich Chad which makes me feel complete, but not that one, I want one that's at least 6'6'
 
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Well you're being a picky little faggot. 'I don't want this I want that, no not that Chad, that Chad doesn't make enough money for me, I want a rich Chad, but not that rich Chad, a rich Chad which makes me feel complete, but not that one, I want one that's at least 6'6'
Are you actually 35?
 
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I am in computer science and math right now and I always wondered why I lack the motivation to do anything related to it in my free time.

I understand the answer now

It’s because coding is entirely meaningless in the large sphere of things, you’re in class writing shitty ass code that servers no purpose to anything or anyone at all. All just for an artificial grade and number (money.)

I wish I can do something of meaning with my life, something that makes me feel valued in a community but the truth is nothing like that truly exists anymore. If it does exist, it usually doesn’t pay nearly enough for a sustainable good living.

I feel so motivated when it comes to doing something for others, even if it’s just a stranger I oddly feel almost obliged mentally to go help them if they need and ask for it.

I want to be able to help people, I want to be seen as kind of a saviour or a hero by people as cringe as that sounds.

The idea of dying whilst living a totally average life (let’s exclude family as a variable completely even though I understand thats a big cofactor for happiness and purpose) where you worked as a coder for your life is daunting.

I would rather die now but die knowing I did something meaningful like save a group of innocent people and sacrificed my own instead.

This post is going to get trolled but eh as cringe as it may be this is truly what I long for in life. I just want a family and I want to provide for that family by doing something meaningful for the society near me.
Have you considered working with old people that shit is really fulfilling
 

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