CFKgator
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I sometimes get an overwhelming urge to have sex basically horniness, making me fantasize about the girls at my school although when I catch myself I find disgusting. I want to have sex but at the same time, I want it to be with someone I care about icl I not sure I can wait until marriage but I want to make the effort to wait in a relationship building it until I feel ready. Even I doubt myself I'll be able to hold myself if the opportunity presents itself but I like to think I will. With all the girls that have been in my life(3). Two of them when I was younger although i only really liked the older one I guess i can give her credit to have developed my preference in women around same height, shoulder length hair, fit, etc. And recently with this girl who known as a thot, she had an interest in me but the feeling wasn't mutual my friend put me on her. side note i have never asked a girl out they normally first show interest in me ig it's not over. But my friend told me it could be experience so I took it she told me we could take it slow not like i was taking it seriously it was going well we would hang out after school hours and she would buy cigs near a shop in front of the school... shit turned me off actually before that she had pulled a vape the day before i was just done but I couldn't end it I loved the feeling of being loved she gave not her necessarily anyways after a mid term break she would end things because she needed to 'lock in' next thing you know the same friend who talks to her told me she found someone else, I wasn't surprised to say the least. It's always the ones I don't want that like me when will I find my true love...
