i want to kill myself so bad

[Bryce]

i mean yea it is a defence mechanism but you could argue the same for capsaicin or caffeine
i dont really see an argument for abstaining from either of those just because its a defence mechanism either

Both capsaicin and caffeine are negative, lol. Caffeine can obviously kill you, not so much with capsaicin, but capsaicin can cause you to choke or vomit. Very spicy things are unpleasant overall. And those things are drastically different than hallucinogens, let's be real. All in all, there's nothing weird or controversial in saying that developing brains shouldn't be expected to withstand strong altering substances. Animals have teeth and claws, bugs have stingers or deadly venomous bites, and plants have hallucinogens and poisons. I think that says enough. Whether or not you see it that way, I don't think you should suggest/encourage someone who's clearly mentally unstable to take a substance which effectively makes you more unstable.

 

[birthdefect]

Both capsaicin and caffeine are negative, lol. Caffeine can obviously kill you, not so much with capsaicin, but capsaicin can cause you to choke or vomit. Very spicy things are unpleasant overall. And those things are drastically different than hallucinogens, let's be real. All in all, there's nothing weird or controversial in saying that developing brains shouldn't be expected to withstand strong altering substances. Animals have teeth and claws, bugs have stingers or deadly venomous bites, and plants have hallucinogens and poisons. I think that says enough. Whether or not you see it that way, I don't think you should suggest/encourage someone who's clearly mentally unstable to take a substance which effectively makes you more unstable.

i do understand your perspective, and yea you're right therapy is probably the best option for this nigga over tripping on a mega dose of acid. afaik capsaicin can also kill you at some point, and we do use it as a weapon (or other compounds related to capsaicin). i wouldnt say they're that different from hallucinogens, specifically caffeine.

 

[Meteor21]

Pls don't, you so sexy

 

[Deleted member 262735]

You joined 2 months ago

Yeah idk what changed this forum used to be more genuine. I guess it got filled with cynical outcasts from other parts of the internet, dark triad was such a poison to losers online istg.

Nobody has time for lazy 2020cels who cry and do nothing. Just kys if u want to kys

 

[superchud90000]

2020cels

what does this mean

 

[Deleted member 291098]

Do it you worthless faggot. No one will miss you

 

[superchud90000]

Do it you worthless faggot. No one will miss you

thanks

 

[o_Owtf]

is this a method to kill myself or a way to cope

how do i find LSD im only 15 i havent interacted with drugs before

Don't do acid seriously. I did it when I was 17 and it was so unsettling with how it bent my perception that it stills impacts me today 5 years later. If you're in a bad place chances are LSD is going to make it an even worse place lol.

But like you can outline what your problems are really well, you seem to have great insight into what behaviours you are doing that are making you sad. Why can't you just stop jestering? If you understand that you take the negative things people tell you way too seriously, why can't you just let it go and stop caring that much if you know it's unimportant? Why can't you just stop doing the things that hurt you? It's literally less effort to forgo doing them.

 

[superchud90000]

Why can't you just stop jestering? If you understand that you take the negative things people tell you way too seriously, why can't you just let it go and stop caring that much if you know it's unimportant?

I've always tried my best not to care about certain things and what people say about me and to let them go and it works but only to an extent (ex : the replies clowning me for this post) but for some odd reason i just take it so deep to heart despite me knowing it doesn't matter

I honestly cant understand why I take everything to heart though

 

[superchud90000]

Why can't you just stop doing the things that hurt you? It's literally less effort to forgo doing them.

if this refers to self harm it was a way for me to cope and honestly some form of self punishment

good chance I'm addicted now but we'll see

 

[superchud90000]

Don't do acid seriously. I did it when I was 17 and it was so unsettling with how it bent my perception that it stills impacts me today 5 years later. If you're in a bad place chances are LSD is going to make it an even worse place lol.

alr i wont thank you

 

[SilvioMoltisantiDan]

my life on the outside is honestly pretty normal which makes this worse considering ive felt like this for half a decade now, and i feel selfish for feeling like this even though it could be a million times worse. anytime something gets better for me i just end up digging myself into a deeper hole, or someone does that for me. i hate that no one can truly understand me and why i do the things i do.

the problem is, i literally just cannot be happy. im a sensitive piece of shit who doesnt know how to shut up and that offends or annoys people around me, which leads to them getting upset or just saying shit about me which i take to heart 10x more than others oddly enough.

because of that and me being a jester without being able to control it, no one really takes me or my feelings seriously.

my academics have been getting worse and even though i actually dont have crazy bad grades right now i slave away like a zombie at midnight and get 2 hours of sleep every school night which results in my growth being fucked so im probably gonna be 5'9 forever and it also sucks living off adhd meds every day instead of just being able to sleep

in september i started harming myself as a way to cope and all that did was make me have to change in a separate locker room before practice so no one sees and i get sent to some mental hospital.

knowing my luck, its just gonna get worse as an adult. i know no one is coming to save me, and honestly, id rather try to help others than have people check on me.

and no therapy didnt work i was in it for like 2 years and just quit because it was $90 per session and my mom was struggling with money

i dont want to grow up either, i just dont want to live anymore. i want to dissapear. eventually everyone will forget about me, or ill be a faint memory they'll look back on.

this isnt even half of why i feel the way i do but i just needed to get this off my chest and write it somewhere

im truly sorry, hope you get better bhai

 

[trump]

nga please

 

[Eduardo DOV]

You may have bipolar disorder or some other serious mental health problem. you need help.

 

[rape]

i laugh so hard when i see u niggers post 17 paragraphs about being suicidal as if u think we r gonna try to talk u out of it. nobody is going to encourage you to stay because we all accepted its over too. stop being a bitch and get it over with

 

[superchud90000]

You may have bipolar disorder or some other serious mental health problem. you need help.

fs

just don't want to get sent to the mental hospital lol

 

[superchud90000]

i laugh so hard when i see u niggers post 17 paragraphs about being suicidal as if u think we r gonna try to talk u out of it. nobody is going to encourage you to stay because we all accepted its over too. stop being a bitch and get it over with

i dont expect anyone to talk me out of anything
especially on this website

the final sentence says I needed to get it off my chest, that's all

 

[Eduardo DOV]

fs

just don't want to get sent to the mental hospital lol

why would you

 

[JimmyDreamsOfZygos]

Nobody has time for lazy 2020cels who cry and do nothing. Just kys if u want to kys

I’ve ascended more greys than Mike Mew, you probably totally sealed off your emotions just because nobody wanted to sit with you at lunch

 

[superchud90000]

why would you

my mom used threaten me wit sending me whenever i spoke about my feelings

 

[Natural.love]

i wont try to make you NOT kill yourself but we are all gonna die anyway, if you are young, you still have alot to live for. Gaming and nature stopped everything since i was 9 tbh, i just ldar but its fun

 

[Uehdbwidbfngj]

How

my life on the outside is honestly pretty normal which makes this worse considering ive felt like this for half a decade now, and i feel selfish for feeling like this even though it could be a million times worse. anytime something gets better for me i just end up digging myself into a deeper hole, or someone does that for me. i hate that no one can truly understand me and why i do the things i do.

the problem is, i literally just cannot be happy. im a sensitive piece of shit who doesnt know how to shut up and that offends or annoys people around me, which leads to them getting upset or just saying shit about me which i take to heart 10x more than others oddly enough.

because of that and me being a jester without being able to control it, no one really takes me or my feelings seriously.

my academics have been getting worse and even though i actually dont have crazy bad grades right now i slave away like a zombie at midnight and get 2 hours of sleep every school night which results in my growth being fucked so im probably gonna be 5'9 forever and it also sucks living off adhd meds every day instead of just being able to sleep

in september i started harming myself as a way to cope and all that did was make me have to change in a separate locker room before practice so no one sees and i get sent to some mental hospital.

knowing my luck, its just gonna get worse as an adult. i know no one is coming to save me, and honestly, id rather try to help others than have people check on me.

and no therapy didnt work i was in it for like 2 years and just quit because it was $90 per session and my mom was struggling with money

i dont want to grow up either, i just dont want to live anymore. i want to dissapear. eventually everyone will forget about me, or ill be a faint memory they'll look back on.

this isnt even half of why i feel the way i do but i just needed to get this off my chest and write it somewhere

How old are you

 

[superchud90000]

How

How old are you

15

 

[sensitu2]

my life on the outside is honestly pretty normal which makes this worse considering ive felt like this for half a decade now, and i feel selfish for feeling like this even though it could be a million times worse. anytime something gets better for me i just end up digging myself into a deeper hole, or someone does that for me. i hate that no one can truly understand me and why i do the things i do.

the problem is, i literally just cannot be happy. im a sensitive piece of shit who doesnt know how to shut up and that offends or annoys people around me, which leads to them getting upset or just saying shit about me which i take to heart 10x more than others oddly enough.

because of that and me being a jester without being able to control it, no one really takes me or my feelings seriously.

my academics have been getting worse and even though i actually dont have crazy bad grades right now i slave away like a zombie at midnight and get 2 hours of sleep every school night which results in my growth being fucked so im probably gonna be 5'9 forever and it also sucks living off adhd meds every day instead of just being able to sleep

in september i started harming myself as a way to cope and all that did was make me have to change in a separate locker room before practice so no one sees and i get sent to some mental hospital.

knowing my luck, its just gonna get worse as an adult. i know no one is coming to save me, and honestly, id rather try to help others than have people check on me.

and no therapy didnt work i was in it for like 2 years and just quit because it was $90 per session and my mom was struggling with money

i dont want to grow up either, i just dont want to live anymore. i want to dissapear. eventually everyone will forget about me, or ill be a faint memory they'll look back on.

this isnt even half of why i feel the way i do but i just needed to get this off my chest and write it somewhere

dont do it man,i know that everyone is saying the same but im telling you that it WILL get better,just please dont kill your self man,just wait for good if you dont have anything to lose.

 

[quadruplejaw]

my life on the outside is honestly pretty normal which makes this worse considering ive felt like this for half a decade now, and i feel selfish for feeling like this even though it could be a million times worse. anytime something gets better for me i just end up digging myself into a deeper hole, or someone does that for me. i hate that no one can truly understand me and why i do the things i do.

the problem is, i literally just cannot be happy. im a sensitive piece of shit who doesnt know how to shut up and that offends or annoys people around me, which leads to them getting upset or just saying shit about me which i take to heart 10x more than others oddly enough.

because of that and me being a jester without being able to control it, no one really takes me or my feelings seriously.

my academics have been getting worse and even though i actually dont have crazy bad grades right now i slave away like a zombie at midnight and get 2 hours of sleep every school night which results in my growth being fucked so im probably gonna be 5'9 forever and it also sucks living off adhd meds every day instead of just being able to sleep

in september i started harming myself as a way to cope and all that did was make me have to change in a separate locker room before practice so no one sees and i get sent to some mental hospital.

knowing my luck, its just gonna get worse as an adult. i know no one is coming to save me, and honestly, id rather try to help others than have people check on me.

and no therapy didnt work i was in it for like 2 years and just quit because it was $90 per session and my mom was struggling with money

i dont want to grow up either, i just dont want to live anymore. i want to dissapear. eventually everyone will forget about me, or ill be a faint memory they'll look back on.

this isnt even half of why i feel the way i do but i just needed to get this off my chest and write it somewhere

Even though it could be a milion times worse doesn’t mean its not a valid reason to be sad over your problems.

If you jester a lot try to catch yourself doing stuff you don’t want to do if you can’t control it.

I beat a few addictions by developing a second “inside voice” [not schizomaxxed] that also catches me when I’m NDmaxxed, I scored the highest by far out of my friends on an nd test and they said it checks out, luckily they don’t mind so I have ~2 years to fix my ND’ing before I get out of this school.

5’9 is a fine height depends on your location, sure its suboptimal and the heighpill is real but you can fraud a bit and as long as you’re around avarage its not a reason to rope.

I reccomend you start running 5km’s every few days for your mental health, it did wonders for me, I always feel great after I run (it also improves your sleep etc…)

If you annoy people around you and can’t get a new social circle just play along whatever conversation is up, its a great way to practice being social and beating the .org rot

 

[superchud90000]

Even though it could be a milion times worse doesn’t mean its not a valid reason to be sad over your problems.

If you jester a lot try to catch yourself doing stuff you don’t want to do if you can’t control it.

I beat a few addictions by developing a second “inside voice” [not schizomaxxed] that also catches me when I’m NDmaxxed, I scored the highest by far out of my friends on an nd test and they said it checks out, luckily they don’t mind so I have ~2 years to fix my ND’ing before I get out of this school.

5’9 is a fine height depends on your location, sure its suboptimal and the heighpill is real but you can fraud a bit and as long as you’re around avarage its not a reason to rope.

I reccomend you start running 5km’s every few days for your mental health, it did wonders for me, I always feel great after I run (it also improves your sleep etc…)

If you annoy people around you and can’t get a new social circle just play along whatever conversation is up, its a great way to practice being social and beating the .org rot

thank you

i run 5k every tuesday and thursday for practice anyway

thanks a lot tho man

 

[Dontgetcaughtlarpin]

just jump

get on with it

no one’s stopping you lmao

shut the fuck up loser

 

[Joby123]

my life on the outside is honestly pretty normal which makes this worse considering ive felt like this for half a decade now, and i feel selfish for feeling like this even though it could be a million times worse. anytime something gets better for me i just end up digging myself into a deeper hole, or someone does that for me. i hate that no one can truly understand me and why i do the things i do.

the problem is, i literally just cannot be happy. im a sensitive piece of shit who doesnt know how to shut up and that offends or annoys people around me, which leads to them getting upset or just saying shit about me which i take to heart 10x more than others oddly enough.

because of that and me being a jester without being able to control it, no one really takes me or my feelings seriously.

my academics have been getting worse and even though i actually dont have crazy bad grades right now i slave away like a zombie at midnight and get 2 hours of sleep every school night which results in my growth being fucked so im probably gonna be 5'9 forever and it also sucks living off adhd meds every day instead of just being able to sleep

in september i started harming myself as a way to cope and all that did was make me have to change in a separate locker room before practice so no one sees and i get sent to some mental hospital.

knowing my luck, its just gonna get worse as an adult. i know no one is coming to save me, and honestly, id rather try to help others than have people check on me.

and no therapy didnt work i was in it for like 2 years and just quit because it was $90 per session and my mom was struggling with money

i dont want to grow up either, i just dont want to live anymore. i want to dissapear. eventually everyone will forget about me, or ill be a faint memory they'll look back on.

this isnt even half of why i feel the way i do but i just needed to get this off my chest and write it somewhere

the sensitive jester is a forgotten archetype

 

[chocolate milk]

get 2 hours of sleep every school night

this is the main reason you are depressed, sleep more retard

 

[superchud90000]

this is the main reason you are depressed, sleep more retard

working on it brother thank you

 

[superchud90000]

the sensitive jester is a forgotten archetype

didnt even know they had a name for this

 

[Joby123]

didnt even know they had a name for this

well I just made ts up but it's lowk true dude ngl, I kinda relate to it alot man I just fuck up alot of human interactions by overasserting boundaries with foids by jestering too hard. Idek dude but people never understand the jester's have feelings too

 

[tfsxythe]

my life on the outside is honestly pretty normal which makes this worse considering ive felt like this for half a decade now, and i feel selfish for feeling like this even though it could be a million times worse. anytime something gets better for me i just end up digging myself into a deeper hole, or someone does that for me. i hate that no one can truly understand me and why i do the things i do.

the problem is, i literally just cannot be happy. im a sensitive piece of shit who doesnt know how to shut up and that offends or annoys people around me, which leads to them getting upset or just saying shit about me which i take to heart 10x more than others oddly enough.

because of that and me being a jester without being able to control it, no one really takes me or my feelings seriously.

my academics have been getting worse and even though i actually dont have crazy bad grades right now i slave away like a zombie at midnight and get 2 hours of sleep every school night which results in my growth being fucked so im probably gonna be 5'9 forever and it also sucks living off adhd meds every day instead of just being able to sleep

in september i started harming myself as a way to cope and all that did was make me have to change in a separate locker room before practice so no one sees and i get sent to some mental hospital.

knowing my luck, its just gonna get worse as an adult. i know no one is coming to save me, and honestly, id rather try to help others than have people check on me.

and no therapy didnt work i was in it for like 2 years and just quit because it was $90 per session and my mom was struggling with money

i dont want to grow up either, i just dont want to live anymore. i want to dissapear. eventually everyone will forget about me, or ill be a faint memory they'll look back on.

this isnt even half of why i feel the way i do but i just needed to get this off my chest and write it somewhere

dnr do it

 

[superchud90000]

well I just made ts up but it's lowk true dude ngl, I kinda relate to it alot man I just fuck up alot of human interactions by overasserting boundaries with foids by jestering too hard. Idek dude but people never understand the jester's have feelings too

ahh shit man

 

[GenZ]

three letters + jfl

 

[artyom strugatsky]

Who doesn't

 

[IcyBiney]

my life on the outside is honestly pretty normal which makes this worse considering ive felt like this for half a decade now, and i feel selfish for feeling like this even though it could be a million times worse. anytime something gets better for me i just end up digging myself into a deeper hole, or someone does that for me. i hate that no one can truly understand me and why i do the things i do.

the problem is, i literally just cannot be happy. im a sensitive piece of shit who doesnt know how to shut up and that offends or annoys people around me, which leads to them getting upset or just saying shit about me which i take to heart 10x more than others oddly enough.

because of that and me being a jester without being able to control it, no one really takes me or my feelings seriously.

my academics have been getting worse and even though i actually dont have crazy bad grades right now i slave away like a zombie at midnight and get 2 hours of sleep every school night which results in my growth being fucked so im probably gonna be 5'9 forever and it also sucks living off adhd meds every day instead of just being able to sleep

in september i started harming myself as a way to cope and all that did was make me have to change in a separate locker room before practice so no one sees and i get sent to some mental hospital.

knowing my luck, its just gonna get worse as an adult. i know no one is coming to save me, and honestly, id rather try to help others than have people check on me.

and no therapy didnt work i was in it for like 2 years and just quit because it was $90 per session and my mom was struggling with money

i dont want to grow up either, i just dont want to live anymore. i want to dissapear. eventually everyone will forget about me, or ill be a faint memory they'll look back on.

this isnt even half of why i feel the way i do but i just needed to get this off my chest and write it somewhere

dont rope fn

 

[kiing_ronk]

Punch random ladies or start groping random ladies (joke lol)

 

[Joby123]

ahh shit man

yea but don't kys and don't try to be more nt so you can appeal to society, maybe just realize that normative human interaction isn't for you so don't put yourself in those compromising situations of jestering.

 

[superchud90000]

yea but don't kys and don't try to be more nt so you can appeal to society, maybe just realize that normative human interaction isn't for you so don't put yourself in those compromising situations of jestering.

society is built around being nt which is why i want to die

living with my brain is miserable i only want to fit in so people dont treat me the way they do

im aware normal human interaction isnt for me
it just sucks being like this yk

 

[Joby123]

well you could cope and take drugs to lower inhib but if i were you I would just radically embrace jester. That doesn't mean abusing it but just recognizing that is who u r bro. But it doesn't matter if you mog if your jester is eviscerating all human interactions, so i think you just gotta find passion in other things mogging is only one facet of human experience. Go study philosophy or something

 

[popeyesniggle]

just jump

get on with it

no one’s stopping you lmao

You’re fucked in the head
Dude don’t listen to this guy try to find hobbies and other things you enjoy. Watch some videos on how to be more social, charisma is law. Try to make more friends and stop taking meds for a bit and get your sleep

 

[skullroot]

my life on the outside is honestly pretty normal which makes this worse considering ive felt like this for half a decade now, and i feel selfish for feeling like this even though it could be a million times worse. anytime something gets better for me i just end up digging myself into a deeper hole, or someone does that for me. i hate that no one can truly understand me and why i do the things i do.

the problem is, i literally just cannot be happy. im a sensitive piece of shit who doesnt know how to shut up and that offends or annoys people around me, which leads to them getting upset or just saying shit about me which i take to heart 10x more than others oddly enough.

because of that and me being a jester without being able to control it, no one really takes me or my feelings seriously.

my academics have been getting worse and even though i actually dont have crazy bad grades right now i slave away like a zombie at midnight and get 2 hours of sleep every school night which results in my growth being fucked so im probably gonna be 5'9 forever and it also sucks living off adhd meds every day instead of just being able to sleep

in september i started harming myself as a way to cope and all that did was make me have to change in a separate locker room before practice so no one sees and i get sent to some mental hospital.

knowing my luck, its just gonna get worse as an adult. i know no one is coming to save me, and honestly, id rather try to help others than have people check on me.

and no therapy didnt work i was in it for like 2 years and just quit because it was $90 per session and my mom was struggling with money

i dont want to grow up either, i just dont want to live anymore. i want to dissapear. eventually everyone will forget about me, or ill be a faint memory they'll look back on.

this isnt even half of why i feel the way i do but i just needed to get this off my chest and write it somewhere

dnr

 

[DNRDniggerking]

dnrd