DarkHorizon
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I feel like I've had enough of life. Im done with everything and seen everything now. I think checking out is a great option. Sadly I'm too much of a coward to do it, ive stood on top of a 10 story parking deck once but couldn't jump. I want to set myself on fire and just run through the streets and make a huge scene. I hate this world. I refuse to be a part of this modern day and age. I refuse to participate in 2020s lifestyle, I'm not compatible with it, id like to be transported 50 years into the past. I refuse to live into the future which Is guaranteed to be a dark, nasty, depressing, and hateful transgender filled tech dystopia. I refuse to just accept that you cannot choose what era you are born into and you just have to accept what you get. I think it's smart to end it all now but like i said i just don't have the guts. I've gotten close before but never gone all the way. I hate myself alot too. i hate my personality, my appearance, my brain. Id love to just throw my life away into a trash bin and start all over again as someone else. Id love to switch lives with someone else. And to be honest I've hated myself since an early age, like since second grade. I chose this path. I chose it at a young age and I always thought "meh ill get my act together later" but "later" never came.
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