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shaz0
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I cant lie, life is good, shit goes good, but my asymmetry eats me up, wants me to rope.
I have no idea if I look good or not, even if others say so, my asymmetry doesn't make me believe in it. Life is good from other perspectives, i am earning on my own, living a lavish life at 17, but i cant think about my face without thinking about the asymmetry.
I try to find the cause everyday, masetters? i dont know, bloating on one side? idk, the fat? i dont know. if i even knew the cause, even if it was fat, i would be willing to do a buccal fat removal, problem is, i have no idea what it is.
Today i was at my evening classes, i do eviscerate everyone there, height, color, in any aspect, i mog. i stand out from everyone there, thats a + point. would always make me feel better about myself as i would get privleges there n all.
So today a new student came, genuinely sub human, even the teachers pointed it out, he smelled like shit too. at the end of the classes, we were just standing there talking, and he says to the other boy while pointing to me: "This guy has nicotine pouches in at the right side right?", i genuinely started stuttering, all came flashing back. i was like no what why i just got my teeth extracted its js swelling. COPE. I was dying out of shame. I cant get it out of my mind.
Everytime i am about to forget it, i get reminded of it again, and it gets me badly. I cant find out the reason, makes me want to rope. i have tried to improve everything, but here, i feel as if i am failing. i cant ever feel good about myself with this asymmetry of mine.
Picture attached shows my asymmetry.
I have no idea if I look good or not, even if others say so, my asymmetry doesn't make me believe in it. Life is good from other perspectives, i am earning on my own, living a lavish life at 17, but i cant think about my face without thinking about the asymmetry.
I try to find the cause everyday, masetters? i dont know, bloating on one side? idk, the fat? i dont know. if i even knew the cause, even if it was fat, i would be willing to do a buccal fat removal, problem is, i have no idea what it is.
Today i was at my evening classes, i do eviscerate everyone there, height, color, in any aspect, i mog. i stand out from everyone there, thats a + point. would always make me feel better about myself as i would get privleges there n all.
So today a new student came, genuinely sub human, even the teachers pointed it out, he smelled like shit too. at the end of the classes, we were just standing there talking, and he says to the other boy while pointing to me: "This guy has nicotine pouches in at the right side right?", i genuinely started stuttering, all came flashing back. i was like no what why i just got my teeth extracted its js swelling. COPE. I was dying out of shame. I cant get it out of my mind.
Everytime i am about to forget it, i get reminded of it again, and it gets me badly. I cant find out the reason, makes me want to rope. i have tried to improve everything, but here, i feel as if i am failing. i cant ever feel good about myself with this asymmetry of mine.
Picture attached shows my asymmetry.
