I was delusional back then

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Back in 2021 when I first discovered the blackpill at age 15 I was very delusional about my looks

I believed myself to be an attractive male who just so happened to discover blackpill early, but I would be met with a brutal reality.

In 2022 (near the end of sophomore hs year), I developed a liking for someone I knew since 8th grade, and this caused me to ask her out in June..

But once I gave her my number, I noticed something strange, she never texted or called me back on her number so I thought huh that's pretty strange, I hope the blackpill doesn't apply to me. Oh it fucking did apply to me, because after that she never talked to me again aside from a few greetings..

The biggest factor that makes me believe I am unattractive is how I get treated in male friendships.. I know it sounds gay but I wouldn't have a reason to believe otherwise unless it's my quiet demeanor.

It's almost like I'm the butt of the joke or my "friends" find me unbearable to be around, even when I'm not doing shit.. it's just the hailo effect I attract for no reason and this makes me believe I am unattractive..

Also I am 20 years old and I still haven't had a single girlfriend yet, I looked on dating sites but they were all short lived or some girl was using me for validation.

 

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And I forgot to mention the story of how these two annoying fat girls kept approaching me with a stupid camera and laughing..

They approached everyone normally but when they approached me they both started laughing

Then they did that shit again in the cafeteria and then one of them called me "ugly as shit" which I didn't know how to react to but I was nice enough to respond anyway..