vanillaicecream
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Humans are evil.
I walked past a group of girls and they were asking strangers who walked by a question about what we thought a girl's hair colour was, ginger or brown and they called me over and said "Oh, nevermind, he's ugly" and I was in a particular depressed mood that day and had just been through an anxiety episode that morning, so I decided to confront them and I said "Define ugly?" and they said "You. Your face" and I said "I've never smoked, never drank, never had zits, never been out of shape, don't eat fast food, pay 400+ water bill from showering so much, never seen a drug, so how could I be ugly?" and they said "We didn't ask"
and I said "I haven't done any bad lifestyle choices to make myself look bad, so how can I improve, if you consider me ugly? You've given me a piece of negative feedback about something I have no control over, so I'm asking for advice to fix the situation" they then responded "Kill yourself" and then I had an Autistic melt down and started shouting at them "What can I do to improve? I practically starve myself. I waste money on skin care products. I don't party. I don't do substances. I don't eat greasy food. I don't womanize, I have clear skin. What more do you people want me to do?"
and they laughed at my crackiling sad filled angry voice and repeated to me to kill myself. I then humiliated myself in front of the whole street by losing my temper. I'd spent 3 decades of being called unnatractive, 3 decades of being single, 3 decades of being gas lit that it is all in my head and that particular day I'd had enough. I stormed away as they probably went back to scrolling through TikToks of attractive model guys on their phones.
I don't understand what I'm suppose to do with the feedback of being called ugly? They need to counteract that by giving me tips on how to not be ugly. But they couldn't, just straight up tell me to kill myself. And all my family and people around me start to distance themselves from me because of how negative and bitter I am. They think now that I'm a bitter person. I was a happy kid, smile on my face, loved nature, loved life but now because of all this negative comments and treatment towards me, it has made me quite bitter and now I'm losing people close to me. But how can someone be positive, when they are experiencing this?
I walked past a group of girls and they were asking strangers who walked by a question about what we thought a girl's hair colour was, ginger or brown and they called me over and said "Oh, nevermind, he's ugly" and I was in a particular depressed mood that day and had just been through an anxiety episode that morning, so I decided to confront them and I said "Define ugly?" and they said "You. Your face" and I said "I've never smoked, never drank, never had zits, never been out of shape, don't eat fast food, pay 400+ water bill from showering so much, never seen a drug, so how could I be ugly?" and they said "We didn't ask"
and I said "I haven't done any bad lifestyle choices to make myself look bad, so how can I improve, if you consider me ugly? You've given me a piece of negative feedback about something I have no control over, so I'm asking for advice to fix the situation" they then responded "Kill yourself" and then I had an Autistic melt down and started shouting at them "What can I do to improve? I practically starve myself. I waste money on skin care products. I don't party. I don't do substances. I don't eat greasy food. I don't womanize, I have clear skin. What more do you people want me to do?"
and they laughed at my crackiling sad filled angry voice and repeated to me to kill myself. I then humiliated myself in front of the whole street by losing my temper. I'd spent 3 decades of being called unnatractive, 3 decades of being single, 3 decades of being gas lit that it is all in my head and that particular day I'd had enough. I stormed away as they probably went back to scrolling through TikToks of attractive model guys on their phones.
I don't understand what I'm suppose to do with the feedback of being called ugly? They need to counteract that by giving me tips on how to not be ugly. But they couldn't, just straight up tell me to kill myself. And all my family and people around me start to distance themselves from me because of how negative and bitter I am. They think now that I'm a bitter person. I was a happy kid, smile on my face, loved nature, loved life but now because of all this negative comments and treatment towards me, it has made me quite bitter and now I'm losing people close to me. But how can someone be positive, when they are experiencing this?
