I will never become a public figure for this reason

[FiendFiend]

I used to be horrendously ugly from 15-17, had a lot of photos taken then. I know if I become a public figure, these will be dangled over my head. I have 0 intent to go ER or any political attack or do anything like that , but let's say I did, I would never ever do it because I had super ugly photos.

This is another reason why looksmaxxing is sort of fake: who you are sort of leaves of a piss and shit trail behind you. Even if in front of the person you are very good-looking, tall, good frame, etc., people will always see that trail of piss and shit behind you and can always dig it up.

Lets say I did start making content on tiktok in this sphere, not only would it just be a retarded decision because it stays on the internet forever, your kids, your future partner can dig it up, I would still, regardless, have to show my past. Otherwise, I am nothing impressive; I'm just a normie.

Rehab talked about this; lost years aren't found again. I am a lot happier than I was before, in terms of self confidence, being able to do shit in public. But do habits really ever change? No. Does your location really change? No.

This is the brutal reality for most humans: most humans stay where they are, in the same places and towns, doing similar shit to their parents. This is why I yearn to travel. Even if it is buying a nice home in the mountains of India, I'd prefer it to be stuck in the same fucking place over and over. This is why I used to autistically consume Conor McGregor and motivational videos. Being stuck in the same place is painful. Especially if you're not socially outgoing as it is, and not from a rich family. Then, man, it's basically over for you; you will not have much novelty in your life. This is why chuds yearn for a third world war. They want novelty.

 

[Surfsup]

You are addicted to being a loser

 

[Vincent Freeman]

There is no such a thing as ascension

 

[FiendFiend]

You are addicted to being a loser

I don't think so. I'm being open-minded about whether I am. But I do proactively take measures to improve my life. I don't have a good gut feeling of sitting around doing nothing, but then I go to work, and especially without any benzos or anything, and God I fucking hate it even more.

Maybe my dopamine system is fried beyond belief; I'm not sure. I do jerk off every day, consume caffeine, I am lean, but I do spend most my calories on pizzas, and food I enjoy a lot. What makes you think I'm addicted to being a loser? I'm not saying you're wrong you could be right I just want some reasoning

 

[greylurker]

There is no such a thing as ascension

yes there is, you can improve a lot

 

[greylurker]

I don't think so. I'm being open-minded about whether I am. But I do proactively take measures to improve my life. I don't have a good gut feeling of sitting around doing nothing, but then I go to work, and especially without any benzos or anything, and God I fucking hate it even more.

Maybe my dopamine system is fried beyond belief; I'm not sure. I do jerk off every day, consume caffeine, I am lean, but I do spend most my calories on pizzas, and food I enjoy a lot. What makes you think I'm addicted to being a loser? I'm not saying you're wrong you could be right I just want some reasoning

you dont seem like a loser, rather you seem like you actively think about your position in society, which most normie losers do not do and just conform

 

[FiendFiend]

There is no such a thing as ascension

yup I was an acnecel, fat, short too, puberty, as well as just getting good health indicators and a haircut is most the game. I am getting fat dissolvers, I got filler the other week, I do take proactive measures to try ascend more but I am only ever slightly looking better, its better than nothing, but genuinely once you got lean, got a good haircut, don't have acne, its all you have.

 

[Lefty Rankin]

I used to be horrendously ugly from 15-17, had a lot of photos taken then. I know if I become a public figure, these will be dangled over my head. I have 0 intent to go ER or any political attack or do anything like that , but let's say I did, I would never ever do it because I had super ugly photos.

This is another reason why looksmaxxing is sort of fake: who you are sort of leaves of a piss and shit trail behind you. Even if in front of the person you are very good-looking, tall, good frame, etc., people will always see that trail of piss and shit behind you and can always dig it up.

Lets say I did start making content on tiktok in this sphere, not only would it just be a retarded decision because it stays on the internet forever, your kids, your future partner can dig it up, I would still, regardless, have to show my past. Otherwise, I am nothing impressive; I'm just a normie.

Rehab talked about this; lost years aren't found again. I am a lot happier than I was before, in terms of self confidence, being able to do shit in public. But do habits really ever change? No. Does your location really change? No.

This is the brutal reality for most humans: most humans stay where they are, in the same places and towns, doing similar shit to their parents. This is why I yearn to travel. Even if it is buying a nice home in the mountains of India, I'd prefer it to be stuck in the same fucking place over and over. This is why I used to autistically consume Conor McGregor and motivational videos. Being stuck in the same place is painful. Especially if you're not socially outgoing as it is, and not from a rich family. Then, man, it's basically over for you; you will not have much novelty in your life. This is why chuds yearn for a third world war. They want novelty.

So you intend to be a cuck if you get into an ltr? Only a cuck-a-loo would feel scared of their future wife knowing things about them from their past.

 

[FiendFiend]

you dont seem like a loser, rather you seem like you actively think about your position in society, which most normie losers do not do and just conform

Maybe, I could, in theory, just say fuck you to all normies and keep grifting welfare maybe I've just been baited by my parents and soyciety to slave away.

The issue is, what's the alternative? The only feasible thing I can do realistically is just work for 3-4 months of the year, then travel, then keep rinsing and repeating. But I won't ever own a home, so no family in the Western world. But you may be right, I shouldn't be hard on myself. I actively do the work to make my dream life; only I know what's best for me. I fucking despise wage-slavery; it is horrible.

Maybe after these couple of fat-dissolving appointments, I will become even more confident, then go on a nice geomaxxing trip and find myself and enjoy. My friend whos user was JBWinThailand done that and he seems a lot more happier.

 

[IndecentEyes]

nobody will care how you looked before

 

[FiendFiend]

So you intend to be a cuck if you get into an ltr? Only a cuck-a-loo would feel scared of their future wife knowing things about them from their past.

your past matters, it strains relationships, my dad slayed a lot and it basically led in my parents divorce, was never able to settle down, my mom was always on edge around him cheating, be jealous. People think making women jealous or them knowing ur past is some good thing, it really isn't. Its more canon fodder to hate you. Your wife shouldn't know much about you or have much shit to fire about you.

 

[Prøphet]

damn

 

[FiendFiend]

nobody will care how you looked before

Maybe I overthink it lol.

 

[FiendFiend]

you dont seem like a loser, rather you seem like you actively think about your position in society, which most normie losers do not do and just conform

Maybe its society changed, or maybe I do live in london which is a super anti social city. But in the movies ,in popular media you feel like if you move somewhere or you do something it will be very welcoming. Or maybe the time has changed and everyones glued to their phones, antisocial.

But then you enter something you are interested in, let's say college, let's say you travel around Europe. It is super fucking underwhelming. You are just another face in the crowd; no one gives a fuck about you anywhere, I feel like.

I feel like no one really gives a fuck about getting to know you like they did in school unless you are exceptional, like you are very tall, handsome, maybe if your overseas and you're a foreigner. It really is a big gamble, I just don't want to go move to a new place, like move to America on a work visa, and then I fucking hate it a lot, the people are even colder than here.

Maybe I just experienced horrible dog shit tier luck. But who knows

 

[eology]

There is no such a thing as ascension

speak for yourself

 

[greylurker]

Maybe its society changed, or maybe I do live in london which is a super anti social city. But in the movies ,in popular media you feel like if you move somewhere or you do something it will be very welcoming. Or maybe the time has changed and everyones glued to their phones, antisocial.

But then you enter something you are interested in, let's say college, let's say you travel around Europe. It is super fucking underwhelming. You are just another face in the crowd; no one gives a fuck about you anywhere, I feel like.

I feel like no one really gives a fuck about getting to know you like they did in school unless you are exceptional, like you are very tall, handsome, maybe if your overseas and you're a foreigner. It really is a big gamble, I just don't want to go move to a new place, like move to America on a work visa, and then I fucking hate it a lot, the people are even colder than here.

Maybe I just experienced horrible dog shit tier luck. But who knows

did you voluntarily move to the uk? i live here and its a shithole. if youre a woman people will care and try to get to know you, but we arent so

 

[eology]

OP is too self conscious it hurts
it doesnt matter

 

[Lefty Rankin]

your past matters, it strains relationships, my dad slayed a lot and it basically led in my parents divorce, was never able to settle down, my mom was always on edge around him cheating, be jealous. People think making women jealous or them knowing ur past is some good thing, it really isn't. Its more canon fodder to hate you. Your wife shouldn't know much about you or have much shit to fire about you.

My wife knows about how I used to use whores.


When she was the manager at the place where I worked and we both met I also groped a married co worker while I kissed her on the neck from behind. Bitch had been flirting too much but wouldn't let me take shit further. One day when I'd had enough I waited till she was standing at a tall desk in a corner doing paperwork. It was out of view of the cameras. I put my hand in the girl's hip and gave her an extremely invasive kiss on her neck right below her earlobe. She immediately freaked out and wanted me to apologize, but I told her I wasn't sorry. After it had gotten around what I had done the boss lady held a meeting about it with all the girls in the office. She told them about what I had done if they've not heard yet, saying they had permission to slap any man in the company who tried doing what I had done to Vicky. Nothing was ever said to me about it though. I only know about that meeting and what was said in it because my wife, who I began dating shortly after and ended up marrying, was 2nd in command of everyone at the at company except for the marketing team and the accountant. She was the one who conducted most of it.

The reason your parents are divorced isn't because of what your dad did. Its because of your mother's insecurity and unrulyness.

My wife has never given me problems because of my past. She understands men and women aren't equal when it comes to sex.

 

[FiendFiend]

did you voluntarily move to the uk? i live here and its a shithole. if youre a woman people will care and try to get to know you, but we arent so

No im from estonia my parents moved me here when I was like 3/4