I wish I had a normal thinking process

[Deleted member 20631]

Over for my retarded autistic thinking process. I can infer information and see patterns where an average person wouldn’t but I have FUCKING ADHD so I can’t even use it for useful fucking things.

So fucking over parents were top 15 in the country for math and physics and I turn out like this.

So over for autistic retards

 

[Shrek2OnDvD]

People say curses and witchcraft isn’t real. So why tf does autism exist?

 

[Deleted member 20631]

People say curses and witchcraft isn’t real. So why tf does autism exist?

Tbh my case isn’t that bad at all, but I’ve had to suffer and struggle way more then a normal person would.

 

[Deleted member 20631]

@8PSLcel how bad is your autism? I know you’re socially crippled because you were about to kill yourself over being unable to interact with others.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

@8PSLcel how bad is your autism? I know you’re socially crippled because you were about to kill yourself over being unable to interact with others.

I can interact but it's not very deep and I feel very lonely not being able to associate properly.

It's like a cultural barrier.

 

[Deleted member 20631]

I can interact but it's not very deep and I feel very lonely not being able to associate properly.

It's like a cultural barrier.

I understand that as well, I feel like I’m playing a character when interacting with others

I’ve found only 2 people who I can interact with on a deep level both of whom are my best friends I’ve known for 6+ years, it’s hard to find people who will understand you.

I had a good friend group other then my best friends that I could freely interact in because we shared a similar sense of humour and interests I still talk to them but ever since moving for Uni it’s become harder to interact with them so I’m forced to play a character again for the people I know at Uni.

Best part of my life was when I could just hang out with my close friends with no worries and just talk about random shit tell jokes and go do stupid shit with no consequence.
You’re 140 IQ right, atleast my midwit 125 let’s me relate to an average person to some degree

I can’t imagine how lonely you feel, if I knew you irl I’d be your friend man. You’re one of the funniest and smartest users on this site and to see you suffer in silence is heartbreaking.
Things can get better for you socially and you can fit in better but I can’t promise you’ll ever meet a person who will genuinely understand you

 

[Deleted member 23286]

Question: Why do women fetishize mental disability? Do they think it'll make them special?

 

[Deleted member 20631]

Question: Why do women fetishize mental disability? Do they think it'll make them special?

They want to be unique and different, they just want to feel special

 

[Deleted member 23286]

They want to be unique and different, they just want to feel special

And how is it being Neurodivergent? How often is your internal monologue "on"?
I've got it "on" 85% of the time.

 

[Deleted member 17791]

I understand that as well, I feel like I’m playing a character when interacting with others

I’ve found only 2 people who I can interact with on a deep level both of whom are my best friends I’ve known for 6+ years, it’s hard to find people who will understand you.

I had a good friend group other then my best friends that I could freely interact in because we shared a similar sense of humour and interests I still talk to them but ever since moving for Uni it’s become harder to interact with them so I’m forced to play a character again for the people I know at Uni.

Best part of my life was when I could just hang out with my close friends with no worries and just talk about random shit tell jokes and go do stupid shit with no consequence.
You’re 140 IQ right, atleast my midwit 125 let’s me relate to an average person to some degree

I can’t imagine how lonely you feel, if I knew you irl I’d be your friend man. You’re one of the funniest and smartest users on this site and to see you suffer in silence is heartbreaking.
Things can get better for you socially and you can fit in better but I can’t promise you’ll ever meet a person who will genuinely understand you

Yeah, I do have to play a character a lot. Lots of the time I say something or start acting more myself and people just get weirded out or ignore me. It's made worse because I only realise until it's too late.

Tbh, I relate with low IQ people more than average people. I don't really need to constantly police my behaviour.

Thanks, you seem like a cool person to talk to.

 

[Deleted member 20631]

And how is it being Neurodivergent? How often is your internal monologue "on"?
I've got it "on" 85% of the time.

My internal monologue is permanently on I can’t stop myself from thinking at all, I’ve read it has something to do with Low Latent inhibition.
I’m extremely distractable and unless something is very stimulating to me I struggle to put in any effort, this leads to me obsessing and hyper focusing over new things (was very talented for a beginner piano player but one day lost all motivation to continue pursuing it).

It happened a lot in school as well my overall grades were average and nothing to write home about but when we would have state wide exams and I felt stimulated during the exam I would just brute-force the exam and score very high with only the residual knowledge I picked up in class. Tbh this sucked complete ass because it made my parents have very high expectations of me when I only wanted to do the bare minimum, though I understand where they’re coming from since they were both overachievers in school

 

[Deleted member 17791]

My internal monologue is permanently on I can’t stop myself from thinking at all, I’ve read it has something to do with Low Latent inhibition.
I’m extremely distractable and unless something is very stimulating to me I struggle to put in any effort, this leads to me obsessing and hyper focusing over new things (was very talented for a beginner piano player but one day lost all motivation to continue pursuing it).

It happened a lot in school as well my overall grades were average and nothing to write home about but when we would have state wide exams and I felt stimulated during the exam I would just brute-force the exam and score very high with only the residual knowledge I picked up in class. Tbh this sucked complete ass because it made my parents have very high expectations of me when I only wanted to do the bare minimum, though I understand where they’re coming from since they were both overachievers in school

My inner voice is always on too.

It can get pretty distracting, I can just lose my train of thought and day dream all day and do nothing productive.

 

[Deleted member 20631]

Yeah, I do have to play a character a lot. Lots of the time I say something or start acting more myself and people just get weirded out or ignore me. It's made worse because I only realise until it's too late.

Tbh, I relate with low IQ people more than average people. I don't really need to constantly police my behaviour.

Thanks, you seem like a cool person to talk to.

Yeah the experience of acting like yourself and people instantly changing the way they treat you is so disgusting for me I literally get nauseous thinking about it all the times it’s happened

 

[Deleted member 18361]

different doesn’t mean bad

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Yeah the experience of acting like yourself and people instantly changing the way they treat you is so disgusting for me I literally get nauseous thinking about it all the times it’s happened

Yeah, I guess I am pretty lucky that I haven't been bullied much at all.

 

[Deleted member 23286]

I’m extremely distractable and unless something is very stimulating to me I struggle to put in any effort

The scientific term for such actions is "Hyperfixation". It happens to me as well, but not to such degrees, obviously.

my overall grades were average and nothing to write home about but when we would have state wide exams and I felt stimulated during the exam I would just brute-force the exam and score very high with only the residual knowledge I picked up in class.

That's incredible.

my parents have very high expectations of me when I only wanted to do the bare minimum, though I understand where they’re coming from since they were both overachievers in school

I can relate to the first bit. I wish you the best, fellow ___maxxer

 

[Deleted member 21146]

I can interact but it's not very deep and I feel very lonely not being able to associate properly.

It's like a cultural barrier.

Damn im the same bro but im low iq i can't even concentrate properly on IQ tests its so overr

 

[Deleted member 17791]

Damn im the same bro but im low iq i can't even concentrate properly on IQ tests its so overr

Do you have ADHD?

I have a minor version of it.

 

[Deleted member 20631]

My inner voice is always on too.

It can get pretty distracting, I can just lose my train of thought and day dream all day and do nothing productive.

I’m happy I met you man, even if our relationship is surface level, feeling like you can relate to someone is so comforting.

i genuinely wish you the best, talking to you made my boring ass day a lot better

 

[Deleted member 17791]

I’m happy I met you man, even if our relationship is surface level feeling like you can relate to someone is so comforting.

i genuinely wish you the best, talking to you made my boring ass day a lot better

Yeah, I've actually met quite a lot of people here that I can relate to.

Good to know we aren't alone.