i wish i was as capable in human connection as normies are

[pexy]

i’ve resorted to substances in my last few hangouts just to socialise normally

i can’t complain because it helps

but my brain really goes on one when im sober

@Mansur
@Prøphet
@filthycurrycel

 

[minty]

So does everyone else

The average dude drinks or smokes every time he goes out

It's fine

 

[pexy]

So does everyone else

The average dude drinks or smokes every time he goes out

It's fine

that is true

the difference is

they use it to merely enjoy the experience more

i need it to make up for my social deficit

 

[pexy]

bump

 

[Prøphet]

Yeah real

My gaba levels are too low I am just correcting them to normie levels whenever I have to go out

 

[pexy]

Yeah real

My gaba levels are too low I am just correcting them to normie levels whenever I have to go out

yeah

alcohol and weed only brings me to the normie baseline

no amount of ascension is gonna undo this mental hell

just have to keep pushing forward anyways

 

[Prøphet]

yeah

alcohol and weed only brings me to the normie baseline

no amount of ascension is gonna undo this mental hell

just have to keep pushing forward anyways

It’s not forever man

I believe in this

There is a point where after maxing out everything as far as humanly possible, you can build yourself a life where whenever you fall, you will fall upwards

 

[pexy]

It’s not forever man

I believe in this

There is a point where after maxing out everything as far as humanly possible, you can build yourself a life where whenever you fall, you will fall upwards

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there’s only so far you can go though

i think im genetically capped at MTN

with a few hardmaxes just maybe HTN

but even after all of that effort

i dont think the pain goes away

i think the only cure is a girl who’ll truly love me and stay by my side forever

but to even find a woman like that takes a certain amount of luck outside of even looks

 

[Mansur]

Cant be dependent for life, you have to practice without

 

[Mansur]

weed

Itll permanently damage your brain dude, not worth it at all

 

[britadeirajunior999]

i cant even larp as a NT

i got that ND aura and nobody likes me

 

[segmt]

that is true

the difference is

they use it to merely enjoy the experience more

i need it to make up for my social deficit

it's for most people
and the fact that you can be normie at least on alc, not severely drunk means youre not as nd as you think

tbh, I mean I guess when you find your people man, I understand you would want to be like "normies" but its gotten to the point for me where I could just play off being a normie and also be nd with nd people at the same time, you just learn to do it somehow

what I found though, is a little bit of alc for me (just for a buzz) makes things come very naturally, and i was surprised at myself the first time

at least it feels sort of natural at this point without alc, because I've lived basically all my life "acting" normie or some bs like that, but I experienced how it felt to be socializing naturally with things flowing

it was almost like some suppression (probably inhib) broke off and my thoughts just translated into words instantly, man

but it's fine, a lot of people are like this, and unfortunately you're not one of those people that are as extroverted and have it naturally, and it's still fine because you aren't severely autistic and nd, bro youll feel fine once you find your people.

 

[filthycurrycel]

i’ve resorted to substances in my last few hangouts just to socialise normally

i can’t complain because it helps

but my brain really goes on one when im sober

@Mansur
@Prøphet
@filthycurrycel

Same
I need to drink more because im still mostly nonverbal

 

[pexy]

Cant be dependent for life, you have to practice without

yeah true

it’s hard to make that work currently

just need my looks to pull through first

Itll permanently damage your brain dude, not worth it at all

ive become increasingly using of it over this summer

trying to cut back to once a week

and then eventually stop

 

[pexy]

i cant even larp as a NT

i got that ND aura and nobody likes me

same haha

people can smell it on me from a mile away

Same
I need to drink more because im still mostly nonverbal

fr man

i only speak when spoken to when im sober

 

[pexy]

it's for most people
and the fact that you can be normie at least on alc, not severely drunk means youre not as nd as you think

tbh, I mean I guess when you find your people man, I understand you would want to be like "normies" but its gotten to the point for me where I could just play off being a normie and also be nd with nd people at the same time, you just learn to do it somehow

what I found though, is a little bit of alc for me (just for a buzz) makes things come very naturally, and i was surprised at myself the first time

at least it feels sort of natural at this point without alc, because I've lived basically all my life "acting" normie or some bs like that, but I experienced how it felt to be socializing naturally with things flowing

it was almost like some suppression (probably inhib) broke off and my thoughts just translated into words instantly, man

but it's fine, a lot of people are like this, and unfortunately you're not one of those people that are as extroverted and have it naturally, and it's still fine because you aren't severely autistic and nd, bro youll feel fine once you find your people.

it’s just tough to find your people

when you’re already socially flawed

and don’t look good either

hopefully one day i will

but it doesn’t feel like anytime soon

 

[bigfatuglyc6nt]

Are you like? An incel or something

 

[pexy]

Are you like? An incel or something

jfl

yeah