Idk how to cope anymore

[nevermind2]

I feel hopeless Almost 20 and khv how can I even cope with this. I miss out on all my life. I am not going anywhere to improve even though I'd wanna improve but im going crazy. I have too many shit failos that fuck me hard. I have n ojob and am poor student fuck with no social circle or anything rotting away day after day. Only cope I have is decent IQ but it doesnt matter shit its literal cope.

 

[Jase]

I know im 19 turning 20 in a few months. Nothing. Might as well kill myself.

 

[Jase]

I feel hopeless Almost 20 and khv how can I even cope with this. I miss out on all my life. I am not going anywhere to improve even though I'd wanna improve but im going crazy. I have too many shit failos that fuck me hard. I have n ojob and am poor student fuck with no social circle or anything rotting away day after day. Only cope I have is decent IQ but it doesnt matter shit its literal cope.

I had a kiss but she was a whore so basically kissing a cum dumpster. Too bad i found out that fact after though. We were both 14.