itssoover0457
sensitive young man
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sometimes i ask myself why am i on this earth? what am i trying so hard to look better for? why am i trying to make more money? for what? im 17, im supposed to be in my prime. we peak in our 20s. i dont have much time left to enjoy my best years. im gonna die eventually and all of my hard work wont matter. i have been feeling very miserable and depressed lately. my mom thinks my life can get better, but it cant. i have insomnia and i cant go outside the house without feeling like people are judging me for my appearance. i feel paranoia constantly. im so scared of love for some reason. like me going out in public and talking to women and just getting to know them, not even sex, is so overwhelming for me. i think deep down, i am nd. i dont know what mental illness i have, but i definitely have something. i think about going 200+ mph in my car and driving into a tree or wall and killing myself. i dont think it wil get better. i never had an ounce of love from my peers in school. my parents loved me but in school i never had any girls interested in me. no boys wanted to hang out with me. idk why. i guess i was a weird kid. in high school last year i was constantly ignored and people treated me like i didnt exist. its just so fucking painful everyday waking up knowing theres nothing to look forward to. its the same shit everyday.
idk what job to choose. idk what path in life to choose. i have no sense of direction. i dont think i can survive in this kind of hostile environment where everyone is out to eat each other alive. life is just so scary for me to look in the eye. i cant handle the pain of being ltn. biology is too brutal. humans are too shallow
idk what job to choose. idk what path in life to choose. i have no sense of direction. i dont think i can survive in this kind of hostile environment where everyone is out to eat each other alive. life is just so scary for me to look in the eye. i cant handle the pain of being ltn. biology is too brutal. humans are too shallow
