wraith4_3
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So since I wanted to know what dying feels like I attempted something truly retarded.
(Off topic,I'm a true retard since I messaged my ex back,cause I felt suicidal and I wish I didn't)
I do this cope routine where I get a bowl of water with ice and put my head in the bowl for like 15sec and then do gua sha and bs
Well since I wanted to replicate what a real attempt looks like I said,this is it and talked myself into thinking that the nothingness I see is now my reality and I simply don't exist anymore
And I stayed until my lungs filled with water and til I almost passed out
(Do not do this at home or replicate what I did)
But what I did made me realize that life is precious and even tho I might rope it still made me feel weird
I had this vivid image in my head where my mother screamed my name as if I was dead
I felt guilty and wanted to apologize but it was too late
Tbh schizo rant, but life is tough men
(Off topic,I'm a true retard since I messaged my ex back,cause I felt suicidal and I wish I didn't)
I do this cope routine where I get a bowl of water with ice and put my head in the bowl for like 15sec and then do gua sha and bs
Well since I wanted to replicate what a real attempt looks like I said,this is it and talked myself into thinking that the nothingness I see is now my reality and I simply don't exist anymore
And I stayed until my lungs filled with water and til I almost passed out
(Do not do this at home or replicate what I did)
But what I did made me realize that life is precious and even tho I might rope it still made me feel weird
I had this vivid image in my head where my mother screamed my name as if I was dead
I felt guilty and wanted to apologize but it was too late
Tbh schizo rant, but life is tough men
