Idk whats happening

[Jesus_ist_König]

Its all so much. I have been changing my medication very often, my personality and my whole lifestyle were immensely impacted by those changes. Im unable to form relationships (yes this sounds like its coming from a corny guy that talked to 2 ppl, but in reality if you knew all the work, all the effort i put in, you would understand). Im experiencing a lot of episodes. I dont feel good at all. Since yesterday -since I changed my meds again- my life has been bettering. Idk who I am on the inside. Its all so unclear I dont know how to express it. What I can express is that: I feel tired, im sad, im hurt, i cant feel love, im driven by aggression and loss of control, I cant sustain this any longer but I know that I wont kill myself which makes it even worse.

Im just one of 1000th going through this. I think the difference is though that I have God, yet at the same time having God doesnt mean that you have to go through less suffering, Im suffering a lot.

I dont really like .org because its full of users that just read one post for 3 seconds and then go to another post and actually dont give a fuck. But im not different.

 

[miserycel]

Its all so much. I have been changing my medication very often, my personality and my whole lifestyle were immensely impacted by those changes. Im unable to form relationships (yes this sounds like its coming from a corny guy that talked to 2 ppl, but in reality if you knew all the work, all the effort i put in, you would understand). Im experiencing a lot of episodes. I dont feel good at all. Since yesterday -since I changed my meds again- my life has been bettering. Idk who I am on the inside. Its all so unclear I dont know how to express it. What I can express is that: I feel tired, im sad, im hurt, i cant feel love, im driven by aggression and loss of control, I cant sustain this any longer but I know that I wont kill myself which makes it even worse.

Im just one of 1000th going through this. I think the difference is though that I have God, yet at the same time having God doesnt mean that you have to go through less suffering, Im suffering a lot.

I dont really like .org because its full of users that just read one post for 3 seconds and then go to another post and actually dont give a fuck. But im not different.

Sorry to hear man

I’m getting on SSRIs soon and I think the same fate is coming for me also being born ND is brutal

 

[LowTierBateman]

Ye idk either mate

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Sorry to hear man

I’m getting on SSRIs soon and I think the same fate is coming for me also being born ND is brutal

I think they wont better your life. I would never get on them from what i heard they dont better your life. I keep living through God and prayer, its all i have.

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

Ye idk either mate

It just feels like as if some person is toying around with my emotions and my behaviour, i feel liek someone else controls my body and i just have to watch what happens. I dont like getting these episodes, Im in touch with my body and I dont have multiple personalities but smth is just raping my life

 

[miserycel]

I think they wont better your life. I would never get on them from what i heard they dont better your life. I keep living through God and prayer, its all i have.

I mainly want to use them just to boost my life vigor. Nothing pushes me to do anything in life or make anything of myself, I just LDAR all day everyday, so maybe these might do something.

I admire your belief, I’d personally like to believe in God one day but I just cannot, but if you truly believe in God and have him by your side I suppose it’s all you need in this life

 

[LowTierBateman]

It just feels like as if some person is toying around with my emotions and my behaviour, i feel liek someone else controls my body and i just have to watch what happens. I dont like getting these episodes, Im in touch with my body and I dont have multiple personalities but smth is just raping my life

Ye dont know i just play video games

 

[Jesus_ist_König]

I mainly want to use them just to boost my life vigor. Nothing pushes me to do anything in life or make anything of myself, I just LDAR all day everyday, so maybe these might do something.

ADHD Medication, SSRis are shit

I admire your belief, I’d personally like to believe in God one day but I just cannot, but if you truly believe in God and have him by your side I suppose it’s all you need in this life

Believing in God is hard, I cant fulfill the bad desires I get, I have to fight against my own body, im a slave to my mind.

 

[miserycel]

ADHD Medication, SSRis are shit

Believing in God is hard, I cant fulfill the bad desires I get, I have to fight against my own body, im a slave to my mind.

I think my psychological issues run deeper than ADHD, but I can’t certainly know until I get a diagnosis, but whatever it is I am diagnosed with and whatever I get prescribed I just hope it makes me a better person.

Do you mean to say you’re struggling to not sin? Belief is definitely tough but I think that as long as you have faith, even if you doubt it sometimes, and devote yourself to God he will reward you in the end