Idk why I rely on my parents so much

[Prøphet]

Im basically 91 backwards at this point, and I still depend on the approval and help of my parents for so much shit. I think its because I never had a strong father figure for a good portion of my life, won't get into that but I spent many years without one, so I don't know what it means to be your own man. Or maybe I do know what it means, I just don't know how to. I still feel like a little boy too afraid to do things by myself in the world. It also sucks because I have no siblings so the only people I truly know and rely on are all above 50

I need to fix this shit fucking yesterday it's keeping me chained down to the life they envision for me, which isn't much of anything at all. But I just had so many bad experiences and social putdowns through high school, I developed this deep seated fear of strangers and people in the world you have to interact with in day to day life. So I came running back to the security of my family, but it costs me my independence, which is really everything.

 

[Prøphet]

@tansel @pexy

 

[howuglyami]

If you like them why not rely on them. It used to be normal.

 

[aeioutoo]

Are you worried about approval or lack of help?
Also, for a father figure there's always church
Go to a community college/TAFE or equivalent in your place. Lets u talk to people your age/circumstances

 

[Prøphet]

If you like them why not rely on them. It used to be normal.

Because if I continue to allow them to guide the path of my life, im gonna end up an ugly lazy old loser

 

[aeioutoo]

If you like them why not rely on them. It used to be normal.

Needs to be reciprocal

 

[thickbitch]

It's the least they owe you for bringing you into this shit world

 

[howuglyami]

Because if I continue to allow them to guide the path of my life, im gonna end up an ugly lazy old loser

Don’t know specifics and you don’t give examples so maybe

 

[Prøphet]

It's the least they owe you for bringing you into this shit world

I mean we can get into the morals and ethics of it all, but that doesn't change the reality of what it entails

 

[Prøphet]

Are you worried about approval or lack of help?
Also, for a father figure there's always church
Go to a community college/TAFE or equivalent in your place. Lets u talk to people your age/circumstances

Both I guess

Im in cc Im almost finished with it actually I took most of my courses online like a dumbass because it felt more comfortable for me I really fucked up

In high school I was super ugly and quiet so I got pushed around and cast out which led to a fear of being in this kind of environment

Maybe I should try church, I would say Im a Christian, but a lot of them seem just out of touch and unrealistic when I used to go as a kid

 

[Sub->CL]

@Prøphet yeah same I don't know how I'm gonna go from full-time rotter to actually doing shit
hopefully after my hardmaxxes I just have life and energy inside of me or something, idk

Also, for a father figure there's always church

hoooly christcuck

 

[aeioutoo]

Both I guess

Im in cc Im almost finished with it actually I took most of my courses online like a dumbass because it felt more comfortable for me I really fucked up

In high school I was super ugly and quiet so I got pushed around and cast out which led to a fear of being in this kind of environment

Maybe I should try church, I would say Im a Christian, but a lot of them seem just out of touch and unrealistic when I used to go as a kid

This isnt high school its the real world, people dont make cliques thats just retarded.
In which way does it feel out of touch and unrealistic? Did you go to a protestant/megachurch as a kid? I reccomend u go to a catholic/orthodox church, its very grounded and slowed.

 

[aeioutoo]

@Prøphet yeah same I don't know how I'm gonna go from full-time rotter to actually doing shit
hopefully after my hardmaxxes I just have life and energy inside of me or something, idk


hoooly christcuck

So is a loving father figure that will always listen 2 u "christcucked"? If so then im Saint Peter

 

[Prøphet]

Don’t know specifics and you don’t give examples so maybe

Well Ive spent years depressed isolating myself for most of the time since I was 13, and they just kinda allowed it and let me bathe in my comfort / misery without saying a word. I kind of wish they had done something, and it's like for some reason even now 6 years later im still waiting for them to come and save me. I know the truth is no one is coming to save me and I should operate accordingly, but there's something deeper in me that wants to be a victim and have them save me.

 

[Sub->CL]

So is a loving father figure that will always listen 2 u "christcucked"?

yes

 

[aeioutoo]

Well Ive spent years depressed isolating myself for most of the time since I was 13, and they just kinda allowed it and let me bathe in my comfort / misery without saying a word. I kind of wish they had done something, and it's like for some reason even now 6 years later im still waiting for them to come and save me. I know the truth is no one is coming to save me and I should operate accordingly, but there's something deeper in me that wants to be a victim and have them save me.

I see, well Christ can always save anyone without nothing in return

 

[The Grinch]

Your dads fault

 

[Prøphet]

This isnt high school its the real world, people dont make cliques thats just retarded.
In which way does it feel out of touch and unrealistic? Did you go to a protestant/megachurch as a kid? I reccomend u go to a catholic/orthodox church, its very grounded and slowed.

I disagree, life is really just one big high school if you look at the core of most social interactions, the whole neurotypical social system thrives off of in groups and out groups

Yeah protestant contemporary style church, catholicism never made that much sense to me with the idea of intercession and giving ultimate authority to the church when they did things like tickets to heaven, dk much about orthodoxy

 

[Prøphet]

Your dads fault

At this point I don't even care about who's fault it is or who's wrong

Well that's a lie I do care deep down but Im willing to overcome all of that I just need to fix my life I lost so many years getting my life on track is priority 1

 

[The Grinch]

Your dads fault

Gotta face reality. I have a weak father too, for some reason my big brother still managed to do everything the opposite as him, he‘s married, supports his children and siblings etc, maybe because he knows how it feels like to be betrayed and not supported by your own father. Just saying just because your dad is a fag you don’t have to be a fag too or identify with that, you can always do better

 

[aeioutoo]

I disagree, life is really just one big high school if you look at the core of most social interactions, the whole neurotypical social system thrives off of in groups and out groups

Yeah protestant contemporary style church, catholicism never made that much sense to me with the idea of intercession and giving ultimate authority to the church when they did things like tickets to heaven, dk much about orthodoxy

In high risk professions, niche groups/hobbies, and support groups, there isnt a place for in or out groups. Are you concerned about intercession regarding praying to saints or praying on the behalf of others?
Also, regarding tickets to heaven, ever since the Council of Trent we stopped that. Furthermore you can charge for baptism and marriage, cant have anyone getting extra pay for holding multiple positions, and deacons, priests, etc cant live in luxury.
Authority is good when it is for the Glory of Christ. And also you dont closer from just a faith in Christ, you get closer by doing as Christ did on earth

 

[tansel]

ur 19 man

not 29 lol

rely on them as much as you want

 

[greycel]

Both I guess

Im in cc Im almost finished with it actually I took most of my courses online like a dumbass because it felt more comfortable for me I really fucked up

In high school I was super ugly and quiet so I got pushed around and cast out which led to a fear of being in this kind of environment

Maybe I should try church, I would say Im a Christian, but a lot of them seem just out of touch and unrealistic when I used to go as a kid

The pillar of support you seek should be the God of the faith you choose to follow (ultimately, there is only One)
Jesus Christ is your pillar

I strongly say if you are willing to walk down the Christian path, don't go into Catholicism. Instead start researching Orthodoxy.
Look into Father Spyridon on YT and look into Saint Paisios

I say this as somebody who isn't strictly Christian
I also recommend you learn about Mysticism from the Eastern faiths