If I had stayed religious life would be totally different

[CupOfCoffee]

I would have been married by now and had a kid or 2. And probably would have had the motivation to work hard every day and pursue a meaningful career. Tbh it's dopamine reset + setting short term + long term goals or rope from here. Life without a meaning isn't even worth it, and my video game/porn/forums/YouTube usage since age 13 has slowly but surely destroyed my dopamine/reward system to the point where nothing brings me pleasure and I'd sometimes just rather think of things in my head than actually go out and pursue them or engage in any hobbies or talk to anyone.

@DoWhatYouCan issue is dopamine. Fix that and your life slowly moves in a better direction.

 

[Deleted member 2756]

sometimes just rather think of things in my head than actually go out and pursue them or engage in any hobbies or talk to anyone.

never related to something harder.

 

[LordNorwood]

What religion were you?
I also feel like I need to dopamine reset and start taking life seriously or it'll be rope time before long. When I turned 24 this year it really hit me that I don't have infinite time to get my shit together. So I'm trying really hard to finish my degree this year and get a plan together for serious improvement.

 

[CupOfCoffee]

never related to something harder.

It wasn't always like this for you though was it?

 

[Deleted member 2756]

It wasn't always like this for you though was it?

no.

 

[CupOfCoffee]

What religion were you?
I also feel like I need to dopamine reset and start taking life seriously or it'll be rope time before long. When I turned 24 this year it really hit me that I don't have infinite time to get my shit together. So I'm trying really hard to finish my degree this year and get a plan together for serious improvement.

Was Muslim and actually really learned, used to consume books like they were candy and spend hours going to ceremonies and obviously online religious forums. But then porn came into the mix and took over...

no.

Was it teenagehood that started it?

 

[jefferson]

Fuck this hit me deep. When I was 14 I loved life and got a boner just by thinking about getting one. Started watching porn and slowly it all went downhill.

Life without a meaning isn't even worth it, and my video game/porn/forums/YouTube usage since age 13 has slowly but surely destroyed my dopamine/reward system to the point where nothing brings me pleasure and I'd sometimes just rather think of things in my head than actually go out and pursue them or engage in any hobbies or talk to anyone.

 

[CupOfCoffee]

Fuck this hit me deep. When I was 14 I loved life and got a boner just by thinking about getting one. Started watching porn and slowly it all went downhill.

We're all victims of this porn and instant gratification culture. I think that those who are more isolated and introverted have it the worst, cuz they just gravitate to the things they have access to, not realizing the cycle of isolation-->depression-->instant reward-->more depression doesn't end. I just want to be able to read a book or watch a movie or learn an instrument in peace without worrying about that other people are doing better things or how life is pointless or checking my phone every 2 mins to see if I got any messages. This shit's unreal, swear only a tough motherfucker can escape it

 

[DoWhatYouCan]

I would have been married by now and had a kid or 2. And probably would have had the motivation to work hard every day and pursue a meaningful career. Tbh it's dopamine reset + setting short term + long term goals or rope from here. Life without a meaning isn't even worth it, and my video game/porn/forums/YouTube usage since age 13 has slowly but surely destroyed my dopamine/reward system to the point where nothing brings me pleasure and I'd sometimes just rather think of things in my head than actually go out and pursue them or engage in any hobbies or talk to anyone.

We've trained ourselves into submission, bound by golden shackles - endless consumption and satiation of dopamine receptors. I remember sex ed class telling us porn and masturbation was normal for middleschoolers, so disgusted thinking about that indoctrination. Can't blame them, media is fucked and were responsible for ourselves. We need to make life individually meaningful, personally my father passed away when I was 10 and I think about how disappointed he'd be in me; masturbating everyday, doing nothing but consuming entertainment, being a social recluse. I know he'd hate me for it, I hate myself for it. Doesn't mean I can't change, one step at a time. Like you said, get rid of the overflow of dopamine, make small improvements.

 

[CupOfCoffee]

We've trained ourselves into submission, bound by golden shackles - endless consumption and satiation of dopamine receptors. I remember sex ed class telling us porn and masturbation was normal for middleschoolers, so disgusted thinking about that indoctrination. Can't blame them, media is fucked and were responsible for ourselves. We need to make life individually meaningful, personally my father passed away when I was 10 and I think about how disappointed he'd be in me; masturbating everyday, doing nothing but consuming entertainment, being a social recluse. I know he'd hate me for it, I hate myself for it. Doesn't mean I can't change, one step at a time. Like you said, get rid of the overflow of dopamine, make small improvements.

Don't forget setting goals to work towards, it's essential. I'm going to get some sleep, won't be eating next 2 days to make up for the massive binge and will continue No Nut November to the end. Might just log-in here 1 hour per day tbqh

 

[LordNorwood]

Don't forget setting goals to work towards, it's essential. I'm going to get some sleep, won't be eating next 2 days to make up for the massive binge and will continue No Nut November to the end. Might just log-in here 1 hour per day tbqh

Good luck bro stick to it

 

[Cali Yuga]

What religion were you?
I also feel like I need to dopamine reset and start taking life seriously or it'll be rope time before long. When I turned 24 this year it really hit me that I don't have infinite time to get my shit together. So I'm trying really hard to finish my degree this year and get a plan together for serious improvement.

bruh are u me

 

[LordNorwood]

bruh are u me

idk what's your norwood level

 

[DoWhatYouCan]

Don't forget setting goals to work towards, it's essential. I'm going to get some sleep, won't be eating next 2 days to make up for the massive binge and will continue No Nut November to the end. Might just log-in here 1 hour per day tbqh

clarity. if you slip up dont fall back into the hole, just move forward.

 

[Cali Yuga]

idk what's your norwood level

1 but its from stress not MPB

 

[LordNorwood]

1 but its from stress not MPB

Then unfortunately we aren't the same but I wish I was you, or at least I wish my scalp was your scalp