if you knew everytjing abt me you all would agree

[g4rlic]

this is not a call for sympthy.

i have known since hs.

i SHOULD

I 100% SHOULD.

there is no value in me.

i cant love. i push people away. i have horrible thoughts and i think the least of them.

i cried.but i fully felt nothing at my fathers funeral. in fact i had to force myself to cry. he died alone and mentally ill and sick. i couldve seen him. i didnt.

i dont have to do anything. you can already see the evil in my eyes.everyone can. thats why when ppl see me now who used to know me they pull away when they see my eyes

i have no love for my mother who gave me everything, no love for my brother who has tried to connect with me despite mogging me in every way, he should think he is better than me.

i care not for my friends, i care not for people

i am guiltless. i have thought way worse things than "my dead dad is responsible for my subhumanity"

death doesnt bother me.

my kneitis was the last straw. she has probably made another snap account dming everyone else to follow her. 3 years for nothing. the one person i can say i cared for. and the worst part is is that i took her for granted. i only loved her when she left. when she was there id leave her on read. i had to force love for her.

i have thought way worse thjngs and i will fundamentally hurt everyone i get close to

 

[g4rlic]

I DONT WANT A REASON TO LIVE.

 

[g4rlic]

I DESERVE TO DIE, I DESERVE ALLLL OF THIS.

 

[g4rlic]

what would i live for. to watch my mother pass awsy? i think ive at least instilled change in my sister to do better. and ive made my ineitis understand the depths of my depravity to finally get rid of me

 

[g4rlic]

i want to look better for ppls love but do i deserve it? i would just hurt them. and i would just hurt her as well. i couldnt even apologize.

thats all. ive been like this forever.everyone can see it. everyone can tell. i am evil. i say this not out of sadness but out of pure objective truth and knowledge of myself. I SHOULD FUCKING DIE before i do somethjng actually bad

 

[ANON]

Why just sit in self pity about jt

U don’t choose ur emotions

 

[halabi]

just become a NEAT

 

[g4rlic]

Why just sit in self pity about jt

U don’t choose ur emotions

i want what ppl have. and i cant get it

 

[ANON]

i want what ppl have. and i cant get it

accept it and move on with ur life

 

[peptidehater22]

i cried.but i fully felt nothing at my fathers funeral. in fact i had to force myself to cry. he died alone and mentally ill and sick. i couldve seen him. i didnt.

dude, same. and he was the only person that i actually loved.

sorry for your loss

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[g4rlic]

accept it and move on with ur life

why. that isnt living

 

[slaviccartfiend]

how old are you

 

[g4rlic]

dude, same. and he was the only person that i actually loved.

sorry for your loss

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ptosis this no jaw that. before he got sick he cared. and all i could share was how ill he was and how his genes passed onto me. i wish him the best

 

[g4rlic]

how old are you

22