chestermador
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the only time a girl ever showed real interest in me was when I was in junior year, she smiled and waved at me multiple times in the car line while I was eagerly waiting to leave that shithole. I usually stare at the floor to avoid looking at people and when I looked up to move my car a couple feet, the girl in the passenger seat of the car in front of me turned around smiled and waved. We made eye contact for probably 3-4 seconds and my stomach turned ice cold before I gave an autistic wave back, hitting the top of my car due to my freakish wingspan. I quickly realized the girl was actually from my 4th and final period of the day and wondered if I should talk to her the next day. It didn’t take me long to decide I would save myself the embarrassment and forget about it, not realizing I would still think about it till this day. I thought that would surely be the end of it as I had already squandered my chance, but she continued to do this sporadically maybe 3 more times. It took me until the end of the school year and after she stopped to realize I had never smiled once to her or talked to her and she probably thought I was pissed off or she was inconveniencing me. The problem is that I’m a complete retard and cannot give a genuine smile even when I’m happy. I realized I already fucked up this extremely rare opportunity as I am nothing special and she quickly moved on. I already liked this girl before she gave me any IOI and despite that I was still unable to talk to her all out of fear she would hear my voice and call me a creep due to my braces giving me a lisp at the time. If I was truly worth anything would she be so quick to move on? How far can you even get without smiling or sharing happiness with each other? There is absolutely no point in me asking this because I will never be above average let alone the guy a girl is obsessed with enough to ignore obvious failos like the inability to look happy
