I'll never truly ascend and I accept that.

[Deleted member 5875]

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I been thinking alot recently about whether or not its over for me and if I'm being completely honest with myself it probably is.
I was never really going to make it anyways I've always been alone.
That's been my whole life and it ruined me.

One of the biggest factors to my social isolation is the fact that I'm blatantly not nt. I've been 90% blackpilled from day one and got fully blackpilled at 13. I never unstood people as a kid and would often ovoid them. I always treated them nice but in return they stepped on me.

The second biggest reason is my abusive childhood but I've already talked about that in past threads so I won't talk about it here.

I tried to get help
I remember asking a therapist's for help in return they gave me redpill bullshit advice. I even tried some of it out to show them it didn't work. When I proved it was bullshit they always got mad and said I had to "trust the process"
they tried to keep me in a cycle of telling me bullshit and it not working then telling me knew bullsht and that not working.
When I broke the cycle and called them out they got pissed.

I'll never understand why normies acted like this they don't question anything about their life walkover people with no care in the world. There's a huge disconnect between and them. I could be in a room with 100 of them and still be alone.

This site is such a cope i didn't even realize how much of a cruch it was before I got banned. I've become overly Reliant it's tricked me into thinking I could change my isolation by changing the way I look the problem isn't how I look it's who I am it's who they are its who you are.

I'm still going to looksmax i can still fuck hoes and have fun after I lookmax. But I'll never truly ascend because I'll always be alone I excepted that now.


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[Deleted member 4430]

please listen to this while reading


I been thinking alot recently about whether or not its over for me and if I'm being completely honest with myself it probably is.
I was never really going to make it anyways I've always been alone.
That's been my whole life and it ruined me.

One of the biggest factors to my social isolation is the fact that I'm blatantly not nt. I've been 90% blackpilled from day one and got fully blackpilled at 13. I never unstood people as a kid and would often ovoid them. I always treated them nice but in return they stepped on me.

The second biggest reason is my abusive childhood but I've already talked about that in past threads so I won't talk about it here.

I tried to get help
I remember asking a therapist's for help in return they gave me redpill bullshit advice. I even tried some of it out to show them it didn't work. When I proved it was bullshit they always got mad and said I had to "trust the process"
they tried to keep me in a cycle of telling me bullshit and it not working then telling me knew bullsht and that not working.
When I broke the cycle and called them out they got pissed.

I'll never understand why normies acted like this they don't question anything about their life walkover people with no care in the world. There's a huge disconnect between and them. I could be in a room with 100 of them and still be alone.

This site is such a cope i didn't even realize how much of a cruch it was before I got banned. I've become overly Reliant it's tricked me into thinking I could change my isolation by changing the way I look the problem isn't how I look it's who I am it's who they are its who you are.

I'm still going to looksmax i can still fuck hoes and have fun after I lookmax. But I'll never truly ascend because I'll always be alone I excepted that now.


@Gorilla @kjsbdfiusdf @Bronze8 @SadnessWYJ @Pubertymaxxingcel @Original @Proex

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Unironically sad

 

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Unironically sad

it is what it is

 

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[justshowerbro]

based and lainpilled

 

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I have the same lifestory except I didnt go to actual therapy.
Some people are born to lose

 

[Deleted member 5875]

I have the same lifestory except I didnt go to actual therapy.
Some people are born to lose

we just weren't made to be happy.

 

[TheChosenChad]

One of the few I will miss.

 

[Deleted member 756]

please listen to this while reading


I been thinking alot recently about whether or not its over for me and if I'm being completely honest with myself it probably is.
I was never really going to make it anyways I've always been alone.
That's been my whole life and it ruined me.

One of the biggest factors to my social isolation is the fact that I'm blatantly not nt. I've been 90% blackpilled from day one and got fully blackpilled at 13. I never unstood people as a kid and would often ovoid them. I always treated them nice but in return they stepped on me.

The second biggest reason is my abusive childhood but I've already talked about that in past threads so I won't talk about it here.

I tried to get help
I remember asking a therapist's for help in return they gave me redpill bullshit advice. I even tried some of it out to show them it didn't work. When I proved it was bullshit they always got mad and said I had to "trust the process"
they tried to keep me in a cycle of telling me bullshit and it not working then telling me knew bullsht and that not working.
When I broke the cycle and called them out they got pissed.

I'll never understand why normies acted like this they don't question anything about their life walkover people with no care in the world. There's a huge disconnect between and them. I could be in a room with 100 of them and still be alone.

This site is such a cope i didn't even realize how much of a cruch it was before I got banned. I've become overly Reliant it's tricked me into thinking I could change my isolation by changing the way I look the problem isn't how I look it's who I am it's who they are its who you are.

I'm still going to looksmax i can still fuck hoes and have fun after I lookmax. But I'll never truly ascend because I'll always be alone I excepted that now.


@Gorilla @kjsbdfiusdf @Bronze8 @SadnessWYJ @Pubertymaxxingcel @Original @Proex

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[AutismMaxing]

My parents were abusive as well, and I was bullied growing up at school, as an adult at work, etc. and am not NT although I don't have any official diagnosis....

You are correct about therapists. They are mostly blue pilled low IQ NTs that can not help you.

You are also correct about still being able to sleep with women, or even date them if you looks max. But like you said, you'll always be alone (most likely). Women will like you because you're nice arm candy to show off to their friends, good for hooking up, and good enough to be around and hang out with.

You are wrong about the implication that this means the emotional quality of your life will generally be bad. When you're good looking enough, socializing with women will still be enjoyable and many (but not all) will tolerate or even enjoy your "awkwardness" because of your looks.

There are two other things I would strongly recommend, meditation as a regular part of your routine and no-orgasm.

Meditation has helped me calm my mind, has gotten me over my PTSD (Not just from my abusive parents but from other events in my life), improved my sleep, improved my emotional wellbeing. When alone I use to get teary eyed and fuzzy brained all the time, with flash backs and just generally feeling like garbage. This only rarely happens now.

The other thing is to cut off your parents if you can. I've cut off my entire family and that's significantly reduced the stress of my life. Even just seeing them periodically would mess me up for weeks, destroy my ability to get a goods nights sleep, cause nightmares, etc.

Oh and no orgasm and lifting heavy weights. The reason is that because you are different (like me) others will never truly accept you. You'll make social mistakes, get fired, get ridiculed, get threatened by NT psychopaths' and murderers, etc. The meta cogitation of NTs see you as a component that doesn't belong, something to be attacked, thrown out and destroyed. You need every once of vitality that you can save, for yourself, to not roll over, to not give up, to keep fighting for your survival. No one is in your corner, no one will fight with you, every one will turn on you when not doing so would be the slightest inconvenience to them... your survival is all up to you.

That's different than NTs who are pack animals. You need to be sharp as hell, all of the time. You can't afford to mess up your mind with alcohol, junk food, bad sleep, orgasm, etc.

Anyways, that's just my advice because we seem to be on similar life paths, I just think I'm probably a little bit further along down the path of life than you.

 

[isis_Bleach]

One of the biggest factors to my social isolation is the fact that I'm blatantly not nt. I've been 90% blackpilled from day one and got fully blackpilled at 13. I never unstood people as a kid and would often ovoid them. I always treated them nice but in return they stepped on me.

yes i can relate i always knew this was true
an intrinsic difference in us somehow, no amount of 'getting out there' would ever fix

 

[Deleted member 5875]

My parents were abusive as well, and I was bullied growing up at school, as an adult at work, etc. and am not NT although I don't have any official diagnosis....

You are correct about therapists. They are mostly blue pilled low IQ NTs that can not help you.

You are also correct about still being able to sleep with women, or even date them if you looks max. But like you said, you'll always be alone (most likely). Women will like you because you're nice arm candy to show off to their friends, good for hooking up, and good enough to be around and hang out with.

You are wrong about the implication that this means the emotional quality of your life will generally be bad. When you're good looking enough, socializing with women will still be enjoyable and many (but not all) will tolerate or even enjoy your "awkwardness" because of your looks.

There are two other things I would strongly recommend, meditation as a regular part of your routine and no-orgasm.

Meditation has helped me calm my mind, has gotten me over my PTSD (Not just from my abusive parents but from other events in my life), improved my sleep, improved my emotional wellbeing. When alone I use to get teary eyed and fuzzy brained all the time, with flash backs and just generally feeling like garbage. This only rarely happens now.

The other thing is to cut off your parents if you can. I've cut off my entire family and that's significantly reduced the stress of my life. Even just seeing them periodically would mess me up for weeks, destroy my ability to get a goods nights sleep, cause nightmares, etc.

Oh and no orgasm and lifting heavy weights. The reason is that because you are different (like me) others will never truly accept you. You'll make social mistakes, get fired, get ridiculed, get threatened by NT psychopaths' and murderers, etc. The meta cogitation of NTs see you as a component that doesn't belong, something to be attacked, thrown out and destroyed. You need every once of vitality that you can save, for yourself, to not roll over, to not give up, to keep fighting for your survival. No one is in your corner, no one will fight with you, every one will turn on you when not doing so would be the slightest inconvenience to them... your survival is all up to you.

That's different than NTs who are pack animals. You need to be sharp as hell, all of the time. You can't afford to mess up your mind with alcohol, junk food, bad sleep, orgasm, etc.

Anyways, that's just my advice because we seem to be on similar life paths, I just think I'm probably a little bit further along down the path of life than you.

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