germanlooks
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I'm being cucked (female).
I'm a cuckquean. Having this true fetish since I was hmm probably as early as 12 (not knowing what it meant at the time). *If you're curious I think it stems from starting puberty around that time and entering into high school while being the accidental wingman to my truly platonic male friends.*
Anyways I'm almost 30 now and the fetish part of me is loving that it's finally happening to me. Where I'm sad is because it officially makes my ex of 8 years an ex. We were still FWB up until last night. Last night they made their first official physical contact (cuddling, possible erections, and panty touching). I'm sure he would've done more but he didn't want to creep her out (she's a co-worker tsk tsk) with a raging erection and he's a bit out of practice with dating and such. how do I know all this? Well the true cuck in me wanted to know all the details, so I keep asking him all these questions. I simply can't help myself. I actually do have a reason for wanting to know (can't put that detail here), so even if I didn't I think I'd still be asking because I'm perverse in that way. Yes it's getting me a bit wet. And yet I'm a bit sad as I ask. I feel the line between us being Exes vs FWB is finally being drawn. I don't think I could go back to him knowing he's finally been with someone else.
And yet the perverse side of me still wants daily updates on their physical progression. Now I know how a male cuck feels. I can't really tell anyone this. I feel inadequate. I feel like I failed my ex because of my depression. And I want him to be happy. I don't hate this cuckquean side of myself. It doesn't hurt anybody. But eventually he could possibly make a life with this new person. And for me I'll be alone. 8 years is a lot to just push to the side. For the record, I've always encouraged to add a third party to our sex life, and he wouldn't because he loved me so much and was uncomfortable. I respected that, so it is what it is.
I don't think you and I work together anymore. I'm sorry I have this perversion and I don't want to make you uncomfortable; but if I could be apart of your life without being your life, it'd help me heal. That's how much I love you. I'm learning the psychology behind a cuck and I think I'm starting to get it. Not mad. I just hope I can get over my ex and have a happy life with someone else too.
I'm a cuckquean. Having this true fetish since I was hmm probably as early as 12 (not knowing what it meant at the time). *If you're curious I think it stems from starting puberty around that time and entering into high school while being the accidental wingman to my truly platonic male friends.*
Anyways I'm almost 30 now and the fetish part of me is loving that it's finally happening to me. Where I'm sad is because it officially makes my ex of 8 years an ex. We were still FWB up until last night. Last night they made their first official physical contact (cuddling, possible erections, and panty touching). I'm sure he would've done more but he didn't want to creep her out (she's a co-worker tsk tsk) with a raging erection and he's a bit out of practice with dating and such. how do I know all this? Well the true cuck in me wanted to know all the details, so I keep asking him all these questions. I simply can't help myself. I actually do have a reason for wanting to know (can't put that detail here), so even if I didn't I think I'd still be asking because I'm perverse in that way. Yes it's getting me a bit wet. And yet I'm a bit sad as I ask. I feel the line between us being Exes vs FWB is finally being drawn. I don't think I could go back to him knowing he's finally been with someone else.
And yet the perverse side of me still wants daily updates on their physical progression. Now I know how a male cuck feels. I can't really tell anyone this. I feel inadequate. I feel like I failed my ex because of my depression. And I want him to be happy. I don't hate this cuckquean side of myself. It doesn't hurt anybody. But eventually he could possibly make a life with this new person. And for me I'll be alone. 8 years is a lot to just push to the side. For the record, I've always encouraged to add a third party to our sex life, and he wouldn't because he loved me so much and was uncomfortable. I respected that, so it is what it is.
I don't think you and I work together anymore. I'm sorry I have this perversion and I don't want to make you uncomfortable; but if I could be apart of your life without being your life, it'd help me heal. That's how much I love you. I'm learning the psychology behind a cuck and I think I'm starting to get it. Not mad. I just hope I can get over my ex and have a happy life with someone else too.
