im a textbook sociopath?

[zombi3]

I mean it's funny but kinda not, I check each one out perfectly and I've never cared for anyone besides my mom and cousins but never anyone outside of that(sorry for the edginess in that). I asked my therapist why I struggle with attaching with others and she told me it's cuz I didnt find the right person yet.

if it weren't for me being extremely devot to my God and fearing punishment I would've murdered either my family or someone else or killed myself during extremely intense moments. Like the urge is there but I sorta like suppress it

is there things I could do to check if im a sociopath, I dont want to self diagnose like a fag but I really think this shit is me