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Im not saying im a genetic failure or a bad roll of a dice, im 6'6 life 16 right now im mtn pretty athletic
After softmaxxing for a while my acne is less active im leaner bones somewhat showing, grew my hair and bought some cool clothes aswell.
Before, regardless of my height i never got any attention i got laughed at for my looks and i never had any girl looking after me. The one that liked me was the one i met online a few years ago but i fumbled because i was ugly as fuck back then, i didnt show myself for like 2 years straight lmao. Im not claiming im some fucking genius but i think i can tell when a girl likes me, looking at me weirdly, acting kinda shy and forcing scenarios where she sees me.This week i heard from a fridge that there is a girl that likes me from the class that the girl i noticed looking at me is so its probably her, of course she said some dumb shit to the girl that likes me and its okay i deserve it im jestering too much in this school so i say some dumb stuff sometimes lmao.
So there it is, i dont have to be lonely anymore, I can have someone who will cheer me up when im feeling bad, but i dont think i can allow myself to feel loved. I know the reason she liked me was the looks, i have never been loved my whole life so i know it will be a crazy sensation to hug cuddle or even hold hand after all those years of being treated like trash my animalistic brain will react but my concious will tell me the same thing over and over, that its only happening because of the way i look.
I realize that im a lucky person, that its a privileged problem but i dont think i will be able to get rid of this mindset. Is there even love for me to be found? I hope i look back to writing this and realize i was overreacting lmao but i think not.
Hope someone read that, sorry for bad writing
After softmaxxing for a while my acne is less active im leaner bones somewhat showing, grew my hair and bought some cool clothes aswell.
Before, regardless of my height i never got any attention i got laughed at for my looks and i never had any girl looking after me. The one that liked me was the one i met online a few years ago but i fumbled because i was ugly as fuck back then, i didnt show myself for like 2 years straight lmao. Im not claiming im some fucking genius but i think i can tell when a girl likes me, looking at me weirdly, acting kinda shy and forcing scenarios where she sees me.This week i heard from a fridge that there is a girl that likes me from the class that the girl i noticed looking at me is so its probably her, of course she said some dumb shit to the girl that likes me and its okay i deserve it im jestering too much in this school so i say some dumb stuff sometimes lmao.
So there it is, i dont have to be lonely anymore, I can have someone who will cheer me up when im feeling bad, but i dont think i can allow myself to feel loved. I know the reason she liked me was the looks, i have never been loved my whole life so i know it will be a crazy sensation to hug cuddle or even hold hand after all those years of being treated like trash my animalistic brain will react but my concious will tell me the same thing over and over, that its only happening because of the way i look.
I realize that im a lucky person, that its a privileged problem but i dont think i will be able to get rid of this mindset. Is there even love for me to be found? I hope i look back to writing this and realize i was overreacting lmao but i think not.
Hope someone read that, sorry for bad writing
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