Im depressed

[Deleted member 13372]

Ive hit rock bottom tbh.
Jacking off everyday, smoke a pack every two three days (dont smoke much). Dont respond to my friends msgs and dont pick up calls at all. Rotting all day long in my room rarely do i go out to get sun. I havent showered in 2 days and no job even tho im 23 yrs old. Quit my last job a while ago. Ive a driving license but got in a car accident and lost my only car. Almost no money at all. Ive like 3k left in the bank, whichs nothing where i live, 15 yr olds have got more than me. Eveyone of my highschool classmates is either getting richer or married jfl at me rotting on a fuckin incel website rating attractive people on 1-10. Wtf am i doing with my life. Even if i wanted to go out ive severve social anxiety and feel no comfort and calm unless im in my room all day.

absolute rockbottom. im done. If only i looked like James Marsden, id be an actor rn with tons of money and fame, a stacy wife and few kids in a mansion somewhere. Everyday would be a vacation for me.

dont even wanna type anymore. its over

 

[Enfant terrible]

Find a job
and get back in contact with your friends

 

[Deleted member 7044]

be happy bro

 

[Deleted member 2100]

Same ngl

 

[SkinjobCatastrophe]

I have also been in some shitty moments like this. It seems life is a gamble, at some points even if you do everything right it will all fall apart but sometimes you get a lucky break even if you dont work for it. I wish I could say something positive but that would just be nonsense garbage, your life will probably be ok at best even if you do get your shit together and get a job and get back together with your friends and all that

 

[Deleted member 13197]

Dont respond to my friends msgs and dont pick up calls at all.

I relate hard to this, I just stopped talking to them even though they’ve been calling me a lot and I don’t know why

 

[Enfant terrible]

I relate hard to this, I just stopped talking to them even though they’ve been calling me a lot and I don’t know why

you need to stop this
dude

 

[Deleted member 13197]

you need to stop this
dude

I know man I want to do shit with them and talk with them but somethings wrong with me. Ever since quarantine started I just never felt like talking to them even though they’re my boys. Like I just can’t bring myself to FaceTime or anything. And I don’t even know why minds like this

 

[Deleted member 13372]

Its over over. Honestly theres no coming back for me. Ive been obsesed with serial killers lately and was contemplating whther or not i should pursue a career in serial killing jfllllll. Ive been watching tons of documentaries about them and this fucking Luka Magnotta gore vid scarred me for me ig (u can find it on google just type 1 lunatic 1 icepick i so dont recommend watching it tho its fucking disgusting.... im too not NT its honestly over.

 

[JosephGarrot123]

just be happy

 

[Deleted member 13372]

My parents divorced when i was 10 or 11 but wish they did earlier in their marriage cus they caused my social anxiety due to me everyday waking up to loud bangs and noises of them fighting. I seen my dad hit my mom too many times...

I never even had a normal experience thro my school years like other teens did. I always kept to myself and had almost no friends outside of my class and even within class i was only close friends with two three kids that it.

i actually was a gl kid back then and girls kept addding me on FB but sum was wrong with me due to my parents fighting all the time. I even walked in on then once kissing on bed which only added salt to my wounds

fuck

 

[Deleted member 13372]

I need help tbh. Everyday the thought of ending it for real crosses my mind. Im just too pus to go thro with it and my instinct to survives keeps me from doing it.
Where the fuck do people like and us get help? DO PEOPLE OUTSITE EVEN CARE THAT WE GO THROUGH THIS HELL ON A DAILY BASIS? What if i tried to pour my heart out to somebody and they refused to hear me out... nobody cares. Nobody.

 

[lutte]

be happy bro

i sleep at 8 am tbh jfl

 

[Deleted member 4562]

samething here except i have not been messaged by anyone other than my mom for 3 years

 

[Deleted member 13372]

I destroyed my looks, my friends circle, my job, my dreams, my life in general. OVAR

 

[Deleted member 13372]

samething here except i have not been messaged by anyone other than my mom for 3 years

Me either its not like im in 5 different groupchats each with 50 people in. Its only 3 friends that keep calling to check on me every other day. Theyve their lives either so i dont expect much tbh. I get it. Theyve lives and i dont and never will. Fair play

 

[Deleted member 13372]

My fucking nigha of a dad keeps askin me to go and get a JOB after he singlehandedly ruined the little self confidence i had left in me after what he had done when i was little... jfl at the irony. AND IM TOO AFRAID TO INFORM THAT I NEED HELP I FUCKING DEVELOPED ANXIETY CUS OF YOUR PAST ACTIONS YOU RETARD I CANT JUST GO OUT AND FIND A JOB LIKe that... I NEED TO GO GET THERAPY FIRST NIGGA.

 

[Deleted member 13372]

Cant even go out there and have a DECENT convo with a fellow human being due this fuckin anxiety i developed from past childhood traumatic experiences.. wtf.