Ritalincell
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I'm not married. I don't have a girlfriend, either, and haven't had one for many years. But I know that she's somewhere out there in the world, very much alive, my true soul mate. Where is she? Where does she live? What does she look like? What is she doing right now? I hope she's happy.
I'm doing NoFap not only for myself, but for the both of us. I understand that porn makes me look at women like objects, mere flesh. It makes me lust in a way that makes me lose control over my own mind. If my girl is in the same restaurant as I am, will I be staring at the other girl wearing a mini skirt, missing my chance to meet my future-wife right then and there? God, I hope not. Every time I lose control of my mind, I may be delaying my meeting with her.
Would my wife want me watching other women have sex? Would she want me to look at her primarily in lust, making her other attributes secondary? Would I love her only for her body? No. It wouldn't be fair for her then, and it's not fair for her now. She's waiting for me now. And she sure as hell won't want to find a man whose eyes stray after every woman he sees. And she won't. She will find someone who loves her for who she is, who is a master over his mind rather than a slave to it.
I don't know who she is, but for her sake and for mine, I cannot allow this to go on any further. This must end. I'm doing this for her, for my soul mate, because I love her.
I'm doing NoFap not only for myself, but for the both of us. I understand that porn makes me look at women like objects, mere flesh. It makes me lust in a way that makes me lose control over my own mind. If my girl is in the same restaurant as I am, will I be staring at the other girl wearing a mini skirt, missing my chance to meet my future-wife right then and there? God, I hope not. Every time I lose control of my mind, I may be delaying my meeting with her.
Would my wife want me watching other women have sex? Would she want me to look at her primarily in lust, making her other attributes secondary? Would I love her only for her body? No. It wouldn't be fair for her then, and it's not fair for her now. She's waiting for me now. And she sure as hell won't want to find a man whose eyes stray after every woman he sees. And she won't. She will find someone who loves her for who she is, who is a master over his mind rather than a slave to it.
I don't know who she is, but for her sake and for mine, I cannot allow this to go on any further. This must end. I'm doing this for her, for my soul mate, because I love her.
