zerotohero
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I’m done trying to date women. This shit is not for people like me. I’m not good looking enough to carry my fucked up personality. I’m not charming. I’m not loud. I’m not funny. I’m not one of those extroverted dopamine-filled normies who can carry a convo effortlessly and make girls giggle by existing.
I’m non-NT as fuck. I have nothing going for me socially. No social instincts, no smoothness, no charisma. And I’m not attractive enough to compensate. So what the fuck am I even doing trying to date? The whole thing is rigged. You either have looks or personality. I’ve got neither.
I went on a date yesterday with a girl I met on Instagram. Thought maybe this time would be different. Over text I seem interesting, calm, cool. In person I’m a nervous wreck. She saw right through it. I wasn’t some confident, mysterious guy. I was just an awkward, quiet dude trying to act normal. And she checked out. Probably already texting someone else before the date even ended.
I’m too boring. I’m too insecure. I’m too fucking weird. Girls want fun, excitement, stimulation. I can barely make eye contact without overthinking everything. I can’t entertain, I can’t seduce, I can’t even exist properly in social situations.
Fuck this. I’m done chasing something that doesn’t exist for people like me. From now on I’m focusing on studying, getting a good job in finance, and maybe one day I’ll be some chick’s personal ATM. That’s all I’ll ever be. Never loved. Just used.
I will never experience real intimacy or love. That shit is for the genetically gifted and the neurologically normal. Not broken freaks like me.
I’m non-NT as fuck. I have nothing going for me socially. No social instincts, no smoothness, no charisma. And I’m not attractive enough to compensate. So what the fuck am I even doing trying to date? The whole thing is rigged. You either have looks or personality. I’ve got neither.
I went on a date yesterday with a girl I met on Instagram. Thought maybe this time would be different. Over text I seem interesting, calm, cool. In person I’m a nervous wreck. She saw right through it. I wasn’t some confident, mysterious guy. I was just an awkward, quiet dude trying to act normal. And she checked out. Probably already texting someone else before the date even ended.
I’m too boring. I’m too insecure. I’m too fucking weird. Girls want fun, excitement, stimulation. I can barely make eye contact without overthinking everything. I can’t entertain, I can’t seduce, I can’t even exist properly in social situations.
Fuck this. I’m done chasing something that doesn’t exist for people like me. From now on I’m focusing on studying, getting a good job in finance, and maybe one day I’ll be some chick’s personal ATM. That’s all I’ll ever be. Never loved. Just used.
I will never experience real intimacy or love. That shit is for the genetically gifted and the neurologically normal. Not broken freaks like me.
