I’m forced to keep living

[alpun]

now if I do something wrong please actually give me advice on how to fix it as this is my first forums website. (Btw if you think I’m larping you don’t have to read)

Now even writing this feels wierd and I don’t know if I’m doing the right thing. Getting to topic, I’m religious. I’m not gonna name it because I don’t care about debating or like that. But I genuinely believe in my religion, but in my religion, suicide is not allowed and sends you to hell. For the past year I have been suicidal and thought about ending my life, once trying to strangle myself which resulted in nothing because I’m a dumbass. I’ve also known about bp for the past year (I am a Newgen on TikTok) and that along with social life and family, made me hate humans. Aggressive parents and people being terrible all around me, I just started to dislike humans. I don’t get how so many people are just built this way, just so..wierd. Is the only word I have in my vocabulary. I’m not trying to seek a moral high ground here, I hate myself a bit too. I make mistakes and make some people mad and continue to press on. But along with this, I just didn’t like humans. I want to kms but I can’t. I don’t even know my motivation with this post, it’s like I’m asking for help but there’s nothing to do. I’m just gonna leave it here because I don’t wanna look like a attention seeking asshole.

 

[amp]

self love bro

also expand your mind ima be real no religion is real

and suicide isnt the way out

truly see the world for it is even if youre life sucks theres good things like love, sex, food, laughing, if u cant get laid escorts exist if u dont like those then your hand works, life is what you make it, and you can advance quickly dont let this site depress u its more so fun on here

 

[gpsl]

Do mma