Frogooboi
Jabba looksmatch
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I first started seeing things about looksmaxing when I was 12. It started simple like many others, watching gym content and trying to get stronger. I was very inconsistent with my workouts but it still made me happy to do pushups in my room. One day I saw a guy called Kshami. It was a video to the song all I want is you by rebzyyx. It started off with him going to the gym, then fixing acne, and then increasing his bone mass, but the video labeled it as “jaw gains”. This is the video that first introduced me to the concept of looks mattering. I always knew that some people are good looking and some people looked closer to me but I never thought far into it. A couple months later I started to get my first growth spurt, growing all the way to 5 foot. I was pretty happy, and not much later I started to get my first bit of pimples, though I don’t think it was from puberty rather just lack of hygiene. The following year I actually started puberty getting my first hormonal acne and trying out skincare. I rediscovered Kshami in December of 2023 seeing a similar video to the first one. I started following him to try and help with my acne. Through following him I slowly started to think about looks, and how they affect your life. I began to look in the mirror and start to feel sad, becoming embarrassed about my face. By summer of 2024 I started to work my first job with my mom. I thought that’d I finally be able to afford the products Kshami shoes and then I’d look normal. My mom gave me a bit over $1000 once the summer ended and now it was September. Near the end of September is where my mom took the money back, because we didn’t have money for groceries. October of 2024 is when I truly became blackpilled. It was my second month of highschool and I saw all these edits on my fyp. I began to truly hate myself. I would scratch at my chest until it bled and cut my thigh with a pocket knife I had. I’d cry myself to sleep some nights, and when I’d walk by someone in the hall all I could think about is how ugly they think I am. They didn’t have to say anything, but I knew they were thinking it. I knew everyone felt grossed out by looking at me. I began to lower my calories, going from 130lbs at 5’7 to 120lbs at 5’9. I’d thumbpull thinking it was helping me because that’s what TikTok showed me and I just wanted to believe it. Now it’s summer and I’m working my first job with an actual employer. And I’m kind of grateful for discovering this even though it’s caused me a lot of self hate. I may still scratch my chest open sometimes, or even rarely cut myself now, but I’m still glad I’m young enough to actually change my looks. With my first paycheck coming up soon I’ll be able to start my cycle and actually change how my face looks. I feel so bad for people who discover this at like 17 or 20 or even later, because at that age you can’t really get results past hardmaxxing. Even though I don’t think I’ll ever be happy with myself, I know that discovering how important looks are was a good thing so my life can be better in the future.
TLDR: I feel bad for people that discover how important looks are later in life, because they can’t make significant changes to their appearance like I can
TLDR: I feel bad for people that discover how important looks are later in life, because they can’t make significant changes to their appearance like I can
