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I’m a fucking perfectionist. Whenever something isn’t going well in my life, even if it’s not even my fucking fault, I flip shit trying to fix it. I also get anxiety very easy because I think of everything in my life as a big deal, and when something isn’t perfect, I go insane.
Lately I’ve been spending all my money buying shit out of boredom since I have nobody to chill with and I’m fucking bored out of my mind where I’m located.
I want to be financially free and save my money and pay off my car. I need about $9,000 more to pay off my car. I may save for the next few months and just throw whatever money I can at my car. I think that’s a good idea and try and get it paid off in the next 6 months.
I’m also done getting tattoos. I’m a degenerate been covering myself in tattoos. I need to slow down and go to a more quality artist, this guy does good work but he’s really rushed and I don’t want any more rushed artwork on my body permanently.
I need to focus on school. I’m lazy as fuck. On top of this I need to stop thinking about girls. They drive me insane holy fuck.
(info about acne prevention skip if no skin issues otherwise it’s good to educate yourself about it)
My hair is falling out hopefully it stops because hair is unironically my life and entire image. Hopefully retin A saves me from my hormonal acne too. I hope to bump up to max strength over the next 6 months and then after that slowly introduce benzoyl peroxide starting from the lowest percentage IN THE AM MORNINGS to nuke any chance of me getting acne. Acne has 4 causes: lack of exfoliation from dead skin cells that clog pores (retin A removes this issue), too much sebum production from hormones (can’t fix this, only accutane can suppress this, some have used finasteride and it works for them via suppressing DHT, others it doesn’t work as high estrogen can cause acne too, and finasteride increases estrogen slightly), bacteria also contributes to acne, and I will solve this issue HOPEFULLY with benzoyl peroxide if my skin can handle it.
I will be gymcelling this entire time to cope with the stress of life, especially mine. I’ve grown so fucking much mentally over the last 6 months to a year it’s actually staggering. I’m literally mentally growing up and becoming a fucking individual. I don’t feel like a man yet, maybe one day. I’ve completely done away with my mentalcelling though. For me it was just talking with 1 girl that completely solved this issue then getting more girls after her. And let me tell you the dating market is a shit show all the girls I’ve met so far have had literal behavioral or mental health issues. They are fragile insecure unfaithful whorish women who love to use men to get attention, validation, and resources.
(Expanded ranting)
when you realize women who seem squared away need men constantly in their life 24/7 just to keep them mentally sane, that’s when you realize how insecure they are. It’s pathetic as fuck. They are fragile and have no problem leaving you as a man feeling hurt as fuck. They are sort of evil, but it’s not even evil, it’s just brutal because of the amount of selfishness they have. Fuck em though just be good looking and be smooth with your words and know the red pill basics and learn from your mistakes and you’ll be winning with them. They are whores for chad never forget this. Their standards aren’t actually that high, just be tall and above average slightly and you’re in.
I love all of you. My posts are 90% venting as this is therapy for me and I have no family or father figure to help set me straight, but honestly, I’ve recently realized I’m nobody important, I’m just another one of the fucking organisms, one of billions on planet earth. My story isn’t important, my struggles aren’t anything special, my problems only in my head. For this reason we shouldn’t stress, as time will pass and I will grow old before I know it. My life literally is over in like 10 years when I hit 30. When I hit 40 I’ll be a fucking oldcel.
regardless brothers, may we all grow old with a good female by our side, may we have children and live the life of our ancestors. blessings and keep looksmaxxing.
Lately I’ve been spending all my money buying shit out of boredom since I have nobody to chill with and I’m fucking bored out of my mind where I’m located.
I want to be financially free and save my money and pay off my car. I need about $9,000 more to pay off my car. I may save for the next few months and just throw whatever money I can at my car. I think that’s a good idea and try and get it paid off in the next 6 months.
I’m also done getting tattoos. I’m a degenerate been covering myself in tattoos. I need to slow down and go to a more quality artist, this guy does good work but he’s really rushed and I don’t want any more rushed artwork on my body permanently.
I need to focus on school. I’m lazy as fuck. On top of this I need to stop thinking about girls. They drive me insane holy fuck.
(info about acne prevention skip if no skin issues otherwise it’s good to educate yourself about it)
My hair is falling out hopefully it stops because hair is unironically my life and entire image. Hopefully retin A saves me from my hormonal acne too. I hope to bump up to max strength over the next 6 months and then after that slowly introduce benzoyl peroxide starting from the lowest percentage IN THE AM MORNINGS to nuke any chance of me getting acne. Acne has 4 causes: lack of exfoliation from dead skin cells that clog pores (retin A removes this issue), too much sebum production from hormones (can’t fix this, only accutane can suppress this, some have used finasteride and it works for them via suppressing DHT, others it doesn’t work as high estrogen can cause acne too, and finasteride increases estrogen slightly), bacteria also contributes to acne, and I will solve this issue HOPEFULLY with benzoyl peroxide if my skin can handle it.
I will be gymcelling this entire time to cope with the stress of life, especially mine. I’ve grown so fucking much mentally over the last 6 months to a year it’s actually staggering. I’m literally mentally growing up and becoming a fucking individual. I don’t feel like a man yet, maybe one day. I’ve completely done away with my mentalcelling though. For me it was just talking with 1 girl that completely solved this issue then getting more girls after her. And let me tell you the dating market is a shit show all the girls I’ve met so far have had literal behavioral or mental health issues. They are fragile insecure unfaithful whorish women who love to use men to get attention, validation, and resources.
(Expanded ranting)
when you realize women who seem squared away need men constantly in their life 24/7 just to keep them mentally sane, that’s when you realize how insecure they are. It’s pathetic as fuck. They are fragile and have no problem leaving you as a man feeling hurt as fuck. They are sort of evil, but it’s not even evil, it’s just brutal because of the amount of selfishness they have. Fuck em though just be good looking and be smooth with your words and know the red pill basics and learn from your mistakes and you’ll be winning with them. They are whores for chad never forget this. Their standards aren’t actually that high, just be tall and above average slightly and you’re in.
I love all of you. My posts are 90% venting as this is therapy for me and I have no family or father figure to help set me straight, but honestly, I’ve recently realized I’m nobody important, I’m just another one of the fucking organisms, one of billions on planet earth. My story isn’t important, my struggles aren’t anything special, my problems only in my head. For this reason we shouldn’t stress, as time will pass and I will grow old before I know it. My life literally is over in like 10 years when I hit 30. When I hit 40 I’ll be a fucking oldcel.
regardless brothers, may we all grow old with a good female by our side, may we have children and live the life of our ancestors. blessings and keep looksmaxxing.
