I'm going to kill myself today

[FutureSlayer]

I can’t bear life anymore. I’ve been stuck in this limbo of isolation, playing offline games throughout my whole childhood, since I always found the retards online unbearable.

Later on, I gained a bit of status in high school because I was tall and jacked, and got a htb girlfriend at 17 by JBF and a lot of luck.

FFW she breaks up with me, and I go straight back into that same purgatory of loneliness. It’s been lasting ever since; years have already passed. I’ve had so few flashes of happiness that I’d probably go through with it if I were brave enough.

I’ve gone from ltn to subhuman at my worst, then to mtn after a downgraft CW bimax, rhinoplasty, and debloating. And I can tell you no amount of surgery will ever fix not having a social circle or being naturally good with people.

I seem to do alright with girls online. I’ve got topics, average intelligence, and I can fake my way through complex language that makes me stand out a bit. They’re genuinely interested at first, but the moment they realize I’m as alone as a 90 years old grandpa, they get the so called ick since they can’t leverage their social status with me.

A neurotypical mtn guy is born with unlimited chances, while a neurodivergent, depressed one has to be a 6’6" Ivan Drago anime caricature with a six-digit follower count just to keep up.

There’s no place left for a romantic man who got lost in the darkness.

A QUESTION FOR YOU GUYS
- Would you drop the ltr pipedream and start slaying low class ugly whores to cope with my void?

Any suggestion is accepted, thanks for your attention.

Clickbait title, obviously.

 

[Mogsgymmaxx]

See you in Valhalla

 

[FutureSlayer]

See you in Valhalla

I'd be glad to

 

[T50ogrecel]

K

 

[sub5mumbaifinalboss]

read every molecule to be clickbaited

 

[FutureSlayer]

read every molecule to be clickbaited

At least you did read unlike those fried attention span fuckers

 

[sub5mumbaifinalboss]

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A QUESTION FOR YOU GUYS
- Would you drop the ltr pipedream and start slaying low class ugly whores to cope with my void?

no

 

[GynoGladiator]

Thanks for the motivation, no offense

 

[FutureSlayer]

no

What do you suggest me

 

[PrettyLights]

holy reference

 

[FutureSlayer]

holy reference

Love that movie

 

[PrettyLights]

Love that movie

its the kind of movie you watch before admitting yourself to a psychiatric hospital

 

[swt]

stream it

 

[4Christ_sake]

I can’t bear life anymore. I’ve been stuck in this limbo of isolation, playing offline games throughout my whole childhood, since I always found the retards online unbearable.

Later on, I gained a bit of status in high school because I was tall and jacked, and got a htb girlfriend at 17 by JBF and a lot of luck.

FFW she breaks up with me, and I go straight back into that same purgatory of loneliness. It’s been lasting ever since; years have already passed. I’ve had so few flashes of happiness that I’d probably go through with it if I were brave enough.

I’ve gone from ltn to subhuman at my worst, then to mtn after a downgraft CW bimax, rhinoplasty, and debloating. And I can tell you no amount of surgery will ever fix not having a social circle or being naturally good with people.

I seem to do alright with girls online. I’ve got topics, average intelligence, and I can fake my way through complex language that makes me stand out a bit. They’re genuinely interested at first, but the moment they realize I’m as alone as a 90 years old grandpa, they get the so called ick since they can’t leverage their social status with me.

A neurotypical mtn guy is born with unlimited chances, while a neurodivergent, depressed one has to be a 6’6" Ivan Drago anime caricature with a six-digit follower count just to keep up.

There’s no place left for a romantic man who got lost in the darkness.

A QUESTION FOR YOU GUYS
- Would you drop the ltr pipedream and start slaying low class ugly whores to cope with my void?

Any suggestion is accepted, thanks for your attention.

Clickbait title, obviously.

It’s okay bro ur welcome to incel paradise

 

[User28823]

 

[GynoGladiator]

- Would you drop the ltr pipedream and start slaying low class ugly whores to cope with my void?

Nah, I always try to do things for long term

 

[FutureSlayer]

its the kind of movie you watch before admitting yourself to a psychiatric hospital

He got killed eventually, not his fault. I hope I die similarly with mind flashes of my ex gf caressing my cheek while I bleed to death sliced in half

 

[FutureSlayer]

Nah, I always try to do things for long term

As in

 

[PrettyLights]

He got killed eventually, not his fault. I hope I die similarly with mind flashes of my ex gf caressing my cheek while I bleed to death sliced in half

your death will be very poetic.

 

[GynoGladiator]

As in

Idk i tried to make it sound knowledgable

First thing comes to mind is I think of it as studying instead of fapping

 

[Lefty Rankin]

I can’t bear life anymore. I’ve been stuck in this limbo of isolation, playing offline games throughout my whole childhood, since I always found the retards online unbearable.

Later on, I gained a bit of status in high school because I was tall and jacked, and got a htb girlfriend at 17 by JBF and a lot of luck.

FFW she breaks up with me, and I go straight back into that same purgatory of loneliness. It’s been lasting ever since; years have already passed. I’ve had so few flashes of happiness that I’d probably go through with it if I were brave enough.

I’ve gone from ltn to subhuman at my worst, then to mtn after a downgraft CW bimax, rhinoplasty, and debloating. And I can tell you no amount of surgery will ever fix not having a social circle or being naturally good with people.

I seem to do alright with girls online. I’ve got topics, average intelligence, and I can fake my way through complex language that makes me stand out a bit. They’re genuinely interested at first, but the moment they realize I’m as alone as a 90 years old grandpa, they get the so called ick since they can’t leverage their social status with me.

A neurotypical mtn guy is born with unlimited chances, while a neurodivergent, depressed one has to be a 6’6" Ivan Drago anime caricature with a six-digit follower count just to keep up.

There’s no place left for a romantic man who got lost in the darkness.

A QUESTION FOR YOU GUYS
- Would you drop the ltr pipedream and start slaying low class ugly whores to cope with my void?

Any suggestion is accepted, thanks for your attention.

Clickbait title, obviously.

That's funny. I've always lived like a 90 year old grandpa with no friends. Never bothered girls a bit.

It's all in your head dude. If they ask why you got no friends just smirk and say you don't like people, "And that includes you."

She'll be on your dick like white on rice.

 

[FutureSlayer]

Idk i tried to make it sound knowledgable

First thing comes to mind is I think of it as studying instead of fapping

Can't study, I'm completely lost, my mind simply refuses to concentrate. Only something 10mln dollars would mitigate my situation

 

[Hagman]

not so future anymore

 

[FutureSlayer]

That's funny. I've always lived like a 90 year old grandpa with no friends. Never bothered girls a bit.

It's all in your head dude. If they ask why you got no friends just smirk and say you don't like people, "And that includes you."

She'll be on your dick like white on rice.

I seem to get life mogged hard, they prefer a guy with a social circle and internal status, I thank you for trying to comfort me but this simply differs from what I see daily. Proximity reigns

 

[Mizi44]

See you in Valhalla

 

[GynoGladiator]

They’re genuinely interested at first, but the moment they realize I’m as alone as a 90 years old grandpa, they get the so called ick since they can’t leverage their social status with me.

I guess start off with trying to make friendships with anyone, which is already hard in itself

I also wanted to find a ltr but it was just the loneliness from not having genuine friends that I was happy to see everyday

 

[Perfectiοn]

i cant rly help since im in the same boat but i wish u good luck and i hope u figure it out

 

[FutureSlayer]

I guess start off with trying to make friendships with anyone, which is already hard in itself

I also wanted to find a ltr but it was just the loneliness from not having genuine friends that I was happy to see everyday

dude you're 15 and still in school it's tutorial mode for you

 

[FutureSlayer]

i cant rly help since im in the same boat but i wish u good luck and i hope u figure it out

Appreciate bud

 

[GynoGladiator]

dude you're 15 and still in school it's tutorial mode for you

Not really, Im still not well due to the high inhibition, apathy, among other things that has been a huge issue for the past few years

Otherwise I wouldn't be here talking about this

 

[FutureSlayer]

Not really, Im still not well due to the high inhibition, apathy, among other things that has been a huge issue for the past few years

Otherwise I wouldn't be here talking about this

I mean you still opportunity-obliterate me to Haiti and back, it's different once you're past your early 20s

 

[jeremyy]

I can’t bear life anymore. I’ve been stuck in this limbo of isolation, playing offline games throughout my whole childhood, since I always found the retards online unbearable.

Later on, I gained a bit of status in high school because I was tall and jacked, and got a htb girlfriend at 17 by JBF and a lot of luck.

FFW she breaks up with me, and I go straight back into that same purgatory of loneliness. It’s been lasting ever since; years have already passed. I’ve had so few flashes of happiness that I’d probably go through with it if I were brave enough.

I’ve gone from ltn to subhuman at my worst, then to mtn after a downgraft CW bimax, rhinoplasty, and debloating. And I can tell you no amount of surgery will ever fix not having a social circle or being naturally good with people.

I seem to do alright with girls online. I’ve got topics, average intelligence, and I can fake my way through complex language that makes me stand out a bit. They’re genuinely interested at first, but the moment they realize I’m as alone as a 90 years old grandpa, they get the so called ick since they can’t leverage their social status with me.

A neurotypical mtn guy is born with unlimited chances, while a neurodivergent, depressed one has to be a 6’6" Ivan Drago anime caricature with a six-digit follower count just to keep up.

There’s no place left for a romantic man who got lost in the darkness.

A QUESTION FOR YOU GUYS
- Would you drop the ltr pipedream and start slaying low class ugly whores to cope with my void?

Any suggestion is accepted, thanks for your attention.

Clickbait title, obviously.

fuck i was actually hoping for you to commit suicide

maybe another day

 

[FutureSlayer]

fuck i was actually hoping for you to commit suicide

maybe another day

Not going to happen, I am nowhere near that brave

 

[GynoGladiator]

I mean you still opportunity-obliterate me to Haiti and back, it's different once you're past your early 20s

Yeah my bad whatever I just said probably just only applies to me, I realize now youre in a whole different circumstance

 

[Samsepioler]

autism is bad tbh

 

[FutureSlayer]

your death will be very poetic.

meager consolation

 

[FutureSlayer]

autism is bad tbh

I'd much rather have simple autism, I would play dnd tournaments and get a long with subhumans at least. I am just a socially stunted sociopath loner instead.

 

[Samsepioler]

I'd much rather have simple autism, I would play dnd tournaments and get a long with subhumans at least. I am just a socially stunted sociopath loner instead.

sad tbh

 

[ikramy]

Would you drop the ltr pipedream and start slaying low class ugly whores to cope with my void?

It only increases the void more, will make you feel even worse it’s like gooning tbh but you might get an std instead

 

[FutureSlayer]

It only increases the void more, will make you feel even worse it’s like gooning tbh but you might get an std instead

So what

 

[ikramy]

So what

How are you goin to cope with something that will increase the void even more ?

 

[rawr]

dnr

 

[FutureSlayer]

How are you goin to cope with something that will increase the void even more ?

I don't know dude, It's been years of not touching a girl at this point, my mind keeps wavering.
I think the best solution for me would be to find a recluse htb with 0 bc and no relationship with her parents to at least partially fill it up by her being obsessed with me but I may as well cope with drugs at this point as it's simply unreachable, especially at my age

 

[BigBoy]

How old are you bhai? I’m in a similar situation, I get no foids tbh

 

[ikramy]

I don't know dude, It's been years of not touching a girl at this point, my mind keeps wavering.
I think the best solution for me would be to find a recluse htb with 0 bc and no relationship with her parents to at least partially fill it up by her being obsessed with me but I may as well cope with drugs at this point as it's simply unreachable, especially at my age

Drugs aren’t gonna do anything, stop chasing an unrealistic fantasy, stop trying to force obsession or intimacy, start building yourself and your social skills incrementally The gap will fill naturally if you focus on controllable growth.

 

[FutureSlayer]

Drugs aren’t gonna do anything, stop chasing an unrealistic fantasy, stop trying to force obsession or intimacy, start building yourself and your social skills incrementally The gap will fill naturally if you focus on controllable growth.

I've been building myself physically for years, I have some procedures in the months ahead but I can't increment my social skills as I am not a retard, I just don't like people, I can't stand them for longer times unless it's a 1:1 contact with a girl I like

 

[FutureSlayer]

How old are you bhai? I’m in a similar situation, I get no foids tbh

23

 

[BigBoy]

23

Damn bro genuinely over for us

 

[ikramy]

I've been building myself physically for years, I have some procedures in the months ahead but I can't increment my social skills as I am not a retard, I just don't like people, I can't stand them for longer times unless it's a 1:1 contact with a girl I like

-I don’t like people
- I’m lonely
Yah no shit
If you wanna just talk to girls then do it but you’ll never experience having a real buddy that always got your back.
Wanting to only have contacts with girls isn’t optimal at all

 

[FutureSlayer]

-I don’t like people
- I’m lonely
Yah no shit
If you wanna just talk to girls then do it but you’ll never experience having a real buddy that always got your back.
Wanting to only have contacts with girls isn’t optimal at all

I have some people I trust but they're nowhere beneficial in building real life status to impress anybody, not talking in absolutes I do have some people but I dislike a big portion of people I meet