I'm in so much pain

[Deleted member 30325]

Every night I'm tired and exhausted yet I struggle to sleep, and every morning I wake up feeling empty, I just sit and blankly stare, I don't feel happiness when I smile I just feel my facial muscles moving.
One thing that doesn't leave my mind is death, what will happen after I die..
Will I go to hell, will I reincarnate or will I just cease to exist.
My emptiness and curiosity are tempting me but I can't end it, I can't kill myself, I've made a promise to find love and I can never break it even if I wanted to.
Some people believe that true love doesn't exist but I know it does I felt it when I was a little boy and someday I hope I get this feeling again.

 

[Okkypras]

Having a hope is a good thing
And you know, when you've done all your best, at the end of the day, you feel better