Areuready
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I need to be medicated up something, because i am overwhelmed with disgust and apathy. Not to sound like an edgy teenager but i'm literally being dragged down in the truest sense of the word. it's my own fault for stumbling upon assloads of videos of people being murdered, I've seen so many video of people at the end of their live i think i gave myself some form of PTSD. I wasn't a sick person that got off to it, but i was morbidly curious, sometimes now i look at meat and start to feel sick, I even feel a slight sense guilt sometimes when playing grand theft auto, and rampaging on it, especially since the physics in gta4 look so close to the real thing, the way people fall down in gun battles or from just being critically wounded, I wonder how many others actually know how weirdly realisic it is.
I found myself looking up and studying serial killers and mass shooters, i keep my doors locked know where exists are and look over my shoulder if i'm in a public place.
But at the same time, i've watched so much porn over the years as a way to cope that i find the human form and shape somewhat disgusting unless sculped.
The never ending beam of social media and loud videos and endless internet "comedians" and tiktok videos and obessession the average person has with vanity and smiling and striking poses into the camera i don't just mean looksmaxxers i mean the average attractive, chad/normie stacy that has no knowlege of our forums that has this social media looksmaxx addiction with out ever being apart of a looksmax community or knowing what it is.
I actually don't know how many viral videos where a woman is just staring into the camera from a side eye and moving her phone up and down and doing head tilts with shitty music and a live laugh love room. holy fuck man, holy fuck. I saw this one video recently that went into detail about how egirls/stacys will go to a park by themselves with some very light photo equipment and spend 5+ hours and 300+ photos just to get one working photo they then touch up in after effects to then post it on instagram. disgusting. People are just disgusting
I found myself looking up and studying serial killers and mass shooters, i keep my doors locked know where exists are and look over my shoulder if i'm in a public place.
But at the same time, i've watched so much porn over the years as a way to cope that i find the human form and shape somewhat disgusting unless sculped.
The never ending beam of social media and loud videos and endless internet "comedians" and tiktok videos and obessession the average person has with vanity and smiling and striking poses into the camera i don't just mean looksmaxxers i mean the average attractive, chad/normie stacy that has no knowlege of our forums that has this social media looksmaxx addiction with out ever being apart of a looksmax community or knowing what it is.
I actually don't know how many viral videos where a woman is just staring into the camera from a side eye and moving her phone up and down and doing head tilts with shitty music and a live laugh love room. holy fuck man, holy fuck. I saw this one video recently that went into detail about how egirls/stacys will go to a park by themselves with some very light photo equipment and spend 5+ hours and 300+ photos just to get one working photo they then touch up in after effects to then post it on instagram. disgusting. People are just disgusting
