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I was completely mentally sound until I was about 11, coincidentally when I got diagnosed with ADHD. For the past 7 years my mental health has been declining at a linear rate.
1.5 months ago I met this girl online. She was pretty, interesting, and a virgin. We talked on the phone and texted everyday. She would text me asking when I could talk to her. It seemed like it was too good to be true. She made me so happy.
Long story short: we had some arguments, I threatened to do unspeakable things to her, she called me “mentally unstable, psycho” and whatnot. We made up but a similar incident happened again, she blocked me on everything.
I was heartbroken (still am). She brought me so much joy, I was planning on meeting her and doing fun things together
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This greatly exacerbated my poor mental health. I started going out of my way to kill bugs, I was looking for stray cats to kill but I didn’t find any. I couldn’t deal with the sadness. One night, about a week ago, I was really upset. There was a box cutter next to my bed, I ran the blade over the back of my hand for about 30 minutes. It made me feel better.
I cope with sadness and stress in unhealthy ways. I’m going crazy, one bad event can make you lose your mind. It will take me while to get over her. I’ve thought about suicide a lot recently.
I’m out of my mind.
Result of cutting myself with the box cutter:
1.5 months ago I met this girl online. She was pretty, interesting, and a virgin. We talked on the phone and texted everyday. She would text me asking when I could talk to her. It seemed like it was too good to be true. She made me so happy.
Long story short: we had some arguments, I threatened to do unspeakable things to her, she called me “mentally unstable, psycho” and whatnot. We made up but a similar incident happened again, she blocked me on everything.
I was heartbroken (still am). She brought me so much joy, I was planning on meeting her and doing fun things together
.This greatly exacerbated my poor mental health. I started going out of my way to kill bugs, I was looking for stray cats to kill but I didn’t find any. I couldn’t deal with the sadness. One night, about a week ago, I was really upset. There was a box cutter next to my bed, I ran the blade over the back of my hand for about 30 minutes. It made me feel better.
I cope with sadness and stress in unhealthy ways. I’m going crazy, one bad event can make you lose your mind. It will take me while to get over her. I’ve thought about suicide a lot recently.
I’m out of my mind.
Result of cutting myself with the box cutter:
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