Allez
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This will be a bit ranty...
Ive probably always been above average looking. Good jawline and athletic physic being my 2 best features(and maybe my eyes idk). In middle and high school, I usually had a girl or 2 lust over me(usually gl girls too) but to tell the truth, I always had an underlying feeling of embarrassment with showing affection. Not only that but i was a porn addict which gave me relatively low desire for irl women. Finally recognizing this fact, I told myself to not let my next opportunity slip away.
FF to now, im 20 and a freshman in community college(i got held back in grade school which is why im starting late). I went to a house show and some stacylite with mogger bone structure wanted my snap and we started sending texts and whatnot. It was pretty obvious she liked me then she told me she thinks im cute and wanted to meet up. We had a date which went really well actually(we walked around town and held hands and I even had my first kiss with her) Then on date #2 we went on a drive at night and I couldnt help but be awkward and quiet. Coupled with my complete lack of sexual experience it was really like I was in the deep end of the pool before I learned how to swim. I make a long story short, I made things awkward and we don't talk anymore. She said she didnt understand me
I just wish I was NT, but Ive always been the awkward type. I dont know if ascension is possible at this point... I guess all I can hope for is to find a girl I find attractive who has the patience to put up with my ineptitude however, and correct me if im wrong, but I get a sneaking suspicion that as girls get older, tolerance for limited sexual experience gets lower.
Fuck, If i could go back Id do so many things differently, at least next semester I wont literally be living in bumfuck rural PNW and be on a college campus. I may need an ascension plan...
Ive probably always been above average looking. Good jawline and athletic physic being my 2 best features(and maybe my eyes idk). In middle and high school, I usually had a girl or 2 lust over me(usually gl girls too) but to tell the truth, I always had an underlying feeling of embarrassment with showing affection. Not only that but i was a porn addict which gave me relatively low desire for irl women. Finally recognizing this fact, I told myself to not let my next opportunity slip away.
FF to now, im 20 and a freshman in community college(i got held back in grade school which is why im starting late). I went to a house show and some stacylite with mogger bone structure wanted my snap and we started sending texts and whatnot. It was pretty obvious she liked me then she told me she thinks im cute and wanted to meet up. We had a date which went really well actually(we walked around town and held hands and I even had my first kiss with her) Then on date #2 we went on a drive at night and I couldnt help but be awkward and quiet. Coupled with my complete lack of sexual experience it was really like I was in the deep end of the pool before I learned how to swim. I make a long story short, I made things awkward and we don't talk anymore. She said she didnt understand me
I just wish I was NT, but Ive always been the awkward type. I dont know if ascension is possible at this point... I guess all I can hope for is to find a girl I find attractive who has the patience to put up with my ineptitude however, and correct me if im wrong, but I get a sneaking suspicion that as girls get older, tolerance for limited sexual experience gets lower.
Fuck, If i could go back Id do so many things differently, at least next semester I wont literally be living in bumfuck rural PNW and be on a college campus. I may need an ascension plan...
