Im mentally fucked and living in hell

[MrGlutton]

That’s cool man. Also read Mastery by Robert Greene. It gives you a better perspective of how to live and die in this inherently nihilistic animal world. It’s an animal kingdom and evolutionary biologists like Richard Dawkins argue that things like shows of attachment evolved as a means of survival. Basically you cooperate and make friends so you wouldn’t perish. What’s more nihilistic that than, than there is no goodness for the sake of it? These days I’m dark triad ish and always ask so, what does this friendship do for my life. Also explains why more successful people have lesser friends. Like you can only be friends with people on your level of career success or higher. Unless you wanna go down.

everything about mastery by robert greene is good except the 10k hours rule.

good posts

 

[Deleted member 5522]

you told me women like you

Obese women who would reject me on the point of meeting me and I don't have a car to meet them anyway

 

[Deleted member 756]

Obese women who would reject me on the point of meeting me and I don't have a car to meet them anyway

Use Uber then

 

[Mongrelcel]

Temperature of the sun iq tbh, we will never be 100% after missing our youth but with some cope we might be like 80% to give an arbitrary number. The brain never recovers from being isolated so we will be fucked up forever honestly. We can't fool ourselves forever and all copes come to an end. I hate how every interaction I do is like an mma fight with counters and attacks to not fuck up. Such greed.

Not really. I feel like a side character.

My years of inceldom was the cradle of me - as a person. At my very core, I'm a fucking incel.
I don't know how happiness feels like. I don't see any way I could become happy in the future.

I remeber all the things i wanted to do, all the plans I made for the future - none of that shit matters anymore. All I think about is looks all day - and imaging WHAT COULD HAVE BEEN - I imagine all the lifelong experiences people make at 17 and just stare blankly at the wall when the reality hits me. Imagine going on a road trip with your friends lmao

Now my brain is changed - I don't find talking, conversations "fun" - like you said, it's brutal pressure to be NT, to be funny - all the things I cannot be.

So even if I become GL - I will be literally in the same place I am right now. I cannot imagine that someone would want me, as in my company, that they would be sad/dissapointed when I cannot go hang out. I mean, why would they?

 

[Deleted member 5522]

Use Uber then

Im too autistic and they will live too far away anyway because the chances of anyone giving me a chance in my area is 0

 

[Deleted member 756]

Im too autistic and they will live too far away anyway because the chances of anyone giving me a chance in my area is 0

You’re from a capital city

 

[johncruz12345]

Hey hro look up RSD Tyler and his new age shit. Really works. Trust me. Even though I was good looking, I only became a hot guy in my head after I rewired my thinking patterns. Now don’t come at me that you’re not good looking at the moment. That’s not an excuse not to try, right? Look up what made David Goggins, Goggins. Sheer brutal upbringing. My upbringing was shit as well and I grew up in fear. This still affects me to this day to such an extent that I made a career disaster recently, because of what I though mommy and daddy would think. Wtf? But I take Modafinil and tread on. The fuck do we do, right?

Tbh. Even tho, I browse this site, I unironically dont believe in the blackpill. Redpill is legit. I only started gettings girls once I changed my behaviour and start deluding myself thinking that I was extremely attractive.

 

[Deleted member 5522]

You’re from a capital city

Im from Cork which isn't one tbh

 

[Mongrelcel]

I'm slipping - I think about suicide constantly. I cannot force myself to do any work - how will I looksmaxx then?

 

[Deleted member 5522]

I'm slipping - I think about suicide constantly. I cannot force myself to do any work - how will I looksmaxx then?

Anti depressants as they limit the suifuel but at the expense of permanent effects after trying to get off them. I would rather suffer and fight life head on and fail than take them though. But drugs are the key.

 

[Deleted member 756]

Im from Cork which isn't one tbh

I’ve been there! Very nice and full of stacies

 

[johncruz12345]

I'm slipping - I think about suicide constantly. I cannot force myself to do any work - how will I looksmaxx then?

Whats ur psl truthfully.

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

everything about mastery by robert greene is good except the 10k hours rule.

good posts

Appreciate it bro. I was making good mint and feeling empty. Once I had read Mastery, I quit my job and went back to school. Made mistakes. Got fucked. Got up. There is a story. I’m not just someone else. I have a legacy. Remember I’m good looking in almost any room, unless I'm in a room with male models or whatever. But I attract attention at clubs easily and have really tight “game”. But you have to get your purpose right, to have a story about what you lived and fought for. Without that there is no difference between me and another predator.

 

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[Mongrelcel]

Whats ur psl truthfully.

I have extreme BDD - some days I think I look like chico and on others I wear mask + sunglasses so I don't show my subhuman face in public.

So idk. But I never got any attention from a woman my age.

 

[johncruz12345]

I have extreme BDD - some days I think I look like chico and on others I wear mask + sunglasses so I don't show my subhuman face in public.

So idk. But I never got any attention from a woman my age.

Never. Not even from subhumans?

 

[MrGlutton]

Appreciate it bro. I was making good mint and feeling empty. Once I had read Mastery, I quit my job and went back to school. Made mistakes. Got fucked. Got up. There is a story. I’m not just someone else. I have a legacy. Remember I’m good looking in almost any room, unless I'm in a room with male models or whatever. But I attract attention at clubs easily and have really tight “game”. But you have to get your purpose right, to have a story about what you lived and fought for. Without that there is no difference between me and another predator.

that's good.

it's essential to have a "game" with women especially if you want to become a slayer.

 

[Chintuck22]

0 friends
7 years of rotting since puberty begun
experience only hell in this life
everyone wants 0 to do with me and is hostile

Most people have not experienced this so can "looksmax" and get "lifefuel" from a thread of @Salludon but not me

My base is too shitty for any looksmaxxing to ever have any effect.

Its pure hell

I hate how I am told to stop being negative and just looksmax when im too mentally destroyed. I am amazed I can get up in the morning.

Its over.

Right now i'm coping with hobies and shit, i'm thinking of learning a new language, i have already figured out everything i need for ascension, and i wrote that down, i just need the money to do everything.

You know, if you want to be happy, you gotta stop thinking about the problems.. i know this sounds dumb and silly but that's the only way, man.

There was soo many problems that i worried before, like what if economy collapses, what if i don't find a gf, what if i continued to eat standard american diet, and many shit. You need to kill that kinda.

 

[Deleted member 5522]

Right now i'm coping with hobies and shit, i'm thinking of learning a new language, i have already figured out everything i need for ascension, and i wrote that down, i just need the money to do everything.

You know, if you want to be happy, you gotta stop thinking about the problems.. i know this sounds dumb and silly but that's the only way, man.

There was soo many problems that i worried before, like what if economy collapses, what if i don't find a gf, what if i continued to eat standard american diet, and many shit. You need to kill that kinda.

We need to accept that we wont be perfect by our own metric in this lifetime.

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

Tbh. Even tho, I browse this site, I unironically dont believe in the blackpill. Redpill is legit. I only started gettings girls once I changed my behaviour and start deluding myself thinking that I was extremely attractive.

Blackpill sounds like suicide pill to me. You can read my story in my first post. Frat kid. Status max in undergrad along with looks. People want to be with us. Learns game. Gets results. Get fucked over by gf. Didn’t learn lesson. Still acting with the “fat kid in high school” mind. Changes career. Career is fucking cool. In between does RSD Hot Seat and shit. That blow up my game. But makes career mistake due to extreme non attachment. Depression. Then redpill. Redpill is balance. There is game, status, looks, dopamine, nootropics. Hit it from all angles and become invincible.

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

Right now i'm coping with hobies and shit, i'm thinking of learning a new language, i have already figured out everything i need for ascension, and i wrote that down, i just need the money to do everything.

You know, if you want to be happy, you gotta stop thinking about the problems.. i know this sounds dumb and silly but that's the only way, man.

There was soo many problems that i worried before, like what if economy collapses, what if i don't find a gf, what if i continued to eat standard american diet, and many shit. You need to kill that kinda.

I was even worried about xenoestrogens in plastics to such a made extent bro.

 

[Deleted member 5522]

Blackpill sounds like suicide pill to me. You can read my story in my first post. Frat kid. Status max in undergrad along with looks. People want to be with us. Learns game. Gets results. Get fucked over by gf. Didn’t learn lesson. Still acting with the “fat kid in high school” mind. Changes career. Career is fucking cool. In between does RSD Hot Seat and shit. That blow up my game. But makes career mistake due to extreme non attachment. Depression. Then redpill. Redpill is balance. There is game, status, looks, dopamine, nootropics. Hit it from all angles and become invincible.

No redpill for being subhuman

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

No redpill for being subhuman

How “bad” do you look? Can you point to a comparison picture? Like an actor or something?

 

[Mongrelcel]

Never. Not even from subhumans?

I went to a highschool with no women in it - so basically I haven't spoken to a female my age since middleschool

Jfl it's so over

 

[johncruz12345]

No redpill for being subhuman

Tbh. Ive always seen subhuman slayers.

 

[Deusmaximus]

The real reason why you created this thread is despair and wanting people to feel pity about you.
Let me tell you: nobody cares about how bad you feel. Maybe people here will give you a few positive words, but in the end NOBODY cares how much you suffer on this planet.
You need to make one or a couple of very drastic and hardcore changes in your life. Otherwise you will rot like dirt in the corner.

Get on the aggressive side of life.

You have N O T H I N G to loose, always remember this.

 

[johncruz12345]

I went to a highschool with no women in it - so basically I haven't spoken to a female my age since middleschool

Jfl it's so over

Ok. Then u might not be ugly, but fuck going to a school with no girls will legit fuck up ur development.

 

[Chintuck22]

We need to accept that we wont be perfect by our own metric in this lifetime.

I mean there is still that perfectionism in the back of your mind, but chasing it must become exciting and not depressing like we made perception of it.

 

[Deleted member 5522]

The real reason why you created this thread is despair and wanting people to feel pity about you.
Let me tell you: nobody cares about how bad you feel. Maybe people here will give you a few positive words, but in the end NOBODY cares how much you suffer on this planet.
You need to make one or a couple of very drastic and hardcore changes in your life. Otherwise you will rot like dirt in the corner.

No shit nobody cares about anyone. Its not like they are gods and can send me their life force through their computer screens. There is no way I ascend even with drastic hardcore changes. Maybe if I use SARMS or some shit. But that's tricky. In this lifetime I am FUCKED.

 

[Deleted member 5522]

I mean there is still that perfectionism in the back of your mind, but chasing it must become exciting and not depressing like we made perception of it.

Different mindset, same goal. I like it.

 

[Deusmaximus]

No shit nobody cares about anyone. Its not like they are gods and can send me their life force through their computer screens. There is no way I ascend even with drastic hardcore changes. Maybe if I use SARMS or some shit. But that's tricky. In this lifetime I am FUCKED.

So you like to suffer for a couple of decades more?
hahaha sarms are hardcore changes for you???? You must be larping.
People here are planning heavy surgeries, and you are talking about how sarms could ascend you??

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

We need to accept that we wont be perfect by our own metric in this lifetime.

Couldn’t agree more. I don’t know whose voice is in my head. But I just made a sick feat in my career. Normal fucking losers would be jumping up and down and posting on socials. I just keep to myself and plan for the ultimate career thing, because it’s not good enough. I don’t know if that’s insecurity or asking for the best. What the fuck.

 

[Deleted member 5522]

Then why are you still on this planet? You like to suffer for a couple of decades more?

Because of the survival instinct cucking me. I need to get my hands on some helium honestly.

 

[Mongrelcel]

The real reason why you created this thread is despair and wanting people to feel pity about you.
Let me tell you: nobody cares about how bad you feel. Maybe people here will give you a few positive words, but in the end NOBODY cares how much you suffer on this planet.
You need to make one or a couple of very drastic and hardcore changes in your life. Otherwise you will rot like dirt in the corner.

Get on the aggressive side of life.

You have N O T H I N G to loose, always remember this.

How can I completely change my personality my friend? How can i turn myself from an introvert to exrovert? From someone who detests social events to someone who enjoys conversation?

How can you reverse being an incel social reject trought your entire developmental years?

 

[Deleted member 5522]

How can I completely change my personality my friend? How can i turn myself from an introvert to exrovert? From someone who detests social events to someone who enjoys conversation?

How can you reverse being an incel social reject trought your entire developmental years?

Times up

 

[Mongrelcel]

Ok. Then u might not be ugly, but fuck going to a school with no girls will legit fuck up ur development.

It's the biggest mistake of my life. I regret it everyday

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

I went to a highschool with no women in it - so basically I haven't spoken to a female my age since middleschool

Jfl it's so over

How old are you? I went to a biys schools as well. Fucking cunts fucked us up real bad ngl

 

[Mongrelcel]

How old are you? I went to a biys schools as well. Fucking cunts fucked us up real bad ngl

I'm 20. I'm enrolled extremely small uni - no people to meet, no clubs, no dorms nothing.

I literally see no way out of this life

 

[Deleted member 6217]

get surgeries

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

How can I completely change my personality my friend? How can i turn myself from an introvert to exrovert? From someone who detests social events to someone who enjoys conversation?

How can you reverse being an incel social reject trought your entire developmental years?

Neurochemicals bro. Come over to fucking Nootropics on Reddit. And do some research. Because I don’t think you’re gonna change yiur thinking pattern yourself. You seem to be pretty set in it. Atleast exogenous supplementation will manufacture the thinking patterns you need to have to start making change in your personlaity. That will lead to real life changes. This will imprint your patterns and make it permanent. Everyone has a bad day. But get back on the lifetrain ASAP. Don’t let it ruin YOUR life. Remwmber I said YOUR life. Not your moms. Not your dads. YOURS. And for that you have to fight if you care about YOU. Do everything in your power.

 

[Mongrelcel]

Neurochemicals bro. Come over to fucking Nootropics on Reddit. And do some research. Because I don’t think you’re gonna change yiur thinking pattern yourself. You seem to be pretty set in it. Atleast expgenius supplemenstation will manufacture the thinking patterns you need to have to start making change in your personlaity. That will lead to real life changes. This is imprint your patterns and make it permanent. Wveryone has a bad day. But get back on the train ASAP. Don’t let it ruin YOUR life. Remwmber I said YOUR life. Not your moms. Not your dads. YOURS. And for that you have to fight if you care about YOU. Do everything in your power.

I have wasted about 100 dollars on nootropics before giving up - none of that shit works.

Every drug that actually works has brutal side effects.

Imagine having to use drugs just to get yourself to a state normal people are 100% of the time in.
Imagine your social skills dropping by 1000% because the effects are wearing off

 

[Deleted member 8919]

NEVER BEGAN

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

I'm 20. I'm enrolled extremely small uni - no people to meet, no clubs, no dorms nothing.

I literally see no way out of this life

I know bro. Trust me bro. It’s hard to see the good ending. Like right now, look in front of you and you will see that you are looking at many objects, but you’re not “seeing” it. Trust me bro. Situations are here to test us. It’s just a decision away. You make a decision to see. See what else is out there. Elon Musk didn’t give up even when his partner with 40 years of experience in rocket science told him it wasn’t possible and quit the company. The next launch they succeeded. So what is the difference that made the success? It’s just a decision to not give up bro. And only after the success, do YOU and other know that YOU succeeded. He made a decision to try till he succeeded. Help yourself make the decision to succeed bro.

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

I have wasted about 100 dollars on nootropics before giving up - none of that shit works.

Every drug that actually works has brutal side effects.

Imagine having to use drugs just to get yourself to a state normal people are 100% of the time in.
Imagine your social skills dropping by 1000% because the effects are wearing off

That’s not enough. 100 bucks? Jfl. Try something more. Try something else. There’s 100s of chemicals. I went to a super fancy school where we work 14 hours minimum every single fucking day including weekends. You think I’d have got through that without Modafinil? Sure other people did or did not need them, I don’t care because I care about ME and I needed that to mog them because I outdid them in other regards.

 

[Mongrelcel]

I know bro. Trust me bro. It’s hard to see the good ending. Like right now, look in front of you and you will see that you are looking at many objects, but you’re not “seeing” it. Trust me bro. Situations are here to test us. It’s just a decision away. You make a decision to see. See what else is out there. Elon Musk didn’t give up even when his partner with 40 years of experience in rocket science told him it wasn’t possible and quit the company. The next launch they succeeded. So what is the difference that made the success? It’s just a decision to not give up bro. And only after the success, do YOU and other know that YOU succeeded. He made a decision to try till he succeeded. Help yourself make the decision to succeed bro.

I mean, at this point even Chad looks probably wouldn't save me. People already have friend circles, established for years - they just don't make new friends after some point of their life - just acquaintances. Combine that with my stunted/misdeveloped social skills and personality and its a receipt for failure.

I would need regularly hang out with few socially fluent guys for A FEW YEARS, to fix what went wrong in my teens. That's ofc impossible.

I can't just take a xan and go out, sure I have social anxiety, but the problem is who I am - the most defining characteristic about me is that I'm alone - always was. My mind is literally blank when speaking to other people, nor do I enjoy it.

Like I said - I thik about this shit for many hours every single day - and I don't see a way out

 

[TITUS]

Weakness and mental illness are bad combinations.

 

[Danish_Retard]

Tbh. Even tho, I browse this site, I unironically dont believe in the blackpill. Redpill is legit. I only started gettings girls once I changed my behaviour and start deluding myself thinking that I was extremely attractive.

What's your PSL?

No shit nobody cares about anyone. Its not like they are gods and can send me their life force through their computer screens. There is no way I ascend even with drastic hardcore changes. Maybe if I use SARMS or some shit. But that's tricky. In this lifetime I am FUCKED.

How can you say that you won't ascend with hardcore changes but fucking SARMs would ascend you?

 

[Deleted member 5522]

How can you say that you won't ascend with hardcore changes but fucking SARMs would ascend you?

Sarms might not tbh

 

[Deleted member 2214]

Did your face just never develop? Because I used to be ugly and recessed, but I didnt actually begin too look good until my 16th birthday, and I was a cute kid. I guess I just had a "glow down" during the first years of puberty, until my looks came back.

 

[AsGoodAsItGets]

I would need regularly hang out with few socially fluent guys for A FEW YEARS, to fix what went wrong in my teens. That's ofc impossible.

Agree that’s how I learnt game primarily. By hanging with naturals. And people with social status. This is in undergrad. In high school I was a total virgin lmao, being all emo and Sshit. But now my game is in top Listening to RSD and shit, I would mog everyone in my old social circle. Legit sharp game. People who don’t know about the legitimacy of game haven’t been in a nightclub let me tell you.

I can't just take a xan and go out, sure I have social anxiety, but the problem is who I am - the most defining characteristic about me is that I'm alone - always was. My mind is literally blank when speaking to other people, nor do I enjoy it.

Agree bro. I was not suggesting noots for socialing. That is kinda coping behaviour. You have to figure that out with game bro. Trust me I’m a good looking guy but have got mogged by lesser looking high game cunts. Now my game is tight, but there is always someone better. In any case, imagine being hit and still being blank. I was that guy. This is why you should read Mastery. So that you find what to do with your life. What will be your legacy, your field? Bro lemme tell you, I make the things I’m passionate about (I made it my career as well) sound so cool. That chicks wanan be part of my life. Everyone wants to be part of my life. Because I have passion and I do things for a reason. And I take high risks. Sometime I get fucked. But I always have a story. If you read my post about banging some hot bitch walking around the park in my half depressed alcohol fueled 5 day daze, what happened was that when I reach her place, there was a Chad like guy. I mogged him in two seconds. I said “Ah that’s cool haircut. I had that cut while I was in high school” (This is AMOG 101 - Read Old School AMOG archives by RSD Tyler and Blueprint Decoded) Lmao that sent him into his head. It was over for him. Later he excuses himself because the tension was too much for him to handle. When she brings up my manboobs (at this point I was depressed Af and not taking care of myself just being busy af), I say “when I was younger I had all the six pack and the chest. I just don’t care about that anymore. It doesn’t matter to me, its so superficial” Also did a funny bit about why I think women like manboobs (Again RSD tyler material) In any case my point is, looks matter, but BIG BALLS and game (belief in YOUR version of reality - I’m in MY world, my passion, my opinions about myself is me as worthy af) is extremely superior it isn’t even funny.