Im not comfortable doing nothing

[Deleted member 22124]

Cant think of anything meaningful to do and all the things that increase dopamine are things that are ultimately bad for me like nicotine and kratom. I can only sit on my ass for so long before I get up and do something destructive just so the voices will shut up. Voices of judgement, abuse, indifference and inadequacy will creep in and make my existence unbearable.

So dont you at all be surprised if something bad happens. Because its far better to have something bad than to suffer through the intolerable void of a meaningless existence.

 

[mogger123]

get a job

 

[Deleted member 22124]

get a job

Fuk u

 

[Deleted member 22124]

Im hust staring at the wall or at the phone because there are no television shows or movies that interest me. Not sure I even have the attention span to look at one.

 

[Dr. Bludy]

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