BlackFag
Subhumanity is a choice. Blow your brains out
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i just turned 18 yesterday
i am now legally an adult
and with that i can look back and realise how wasted my life has been to this point
i've got an amazing work life, been getting great internships and connections
but those are empty compared to actually knowing someone.
its been officially 9 years since i've had a friend, and during my teenage years i hoped, prayed even that someone
just someone could actually want to look at me, and be kind
but that was to much to ask
i knew since the start i was unlovable, they didn't have to prove it more
they didn't have to slowly deconstruct who i was as a person, breaking any self esteem i had, destroying any love for the world i had
but they did, and they did it with glee.
and now all thats left is genuine bitterness, because i was targetted and now they bitch and moan about empathy when they never showed me empathy
when infact empathy was reserved for others.
infact a small story i remember to this day was when i was in 8th grade
a bee flew into the class and i remember people were demanding that no one kill it
even protecting it from being stomped by a teacher
that same very day, all of those kids pushed me to the ground choked me out and said they wanted me to kill myself
with hindsight i realised that those same very kids valued the life of an insect over mine, and now they talk about empathy?
or how they talk about incels, and how they hate women
but how could i not? when the people who bullied were sad the first people to uplift and support them were women
while i could barely cry in a bathroom in peace (eventually leading to me not crying in school in general past the 9th grade)
those same women accused me of some of the worst in attempts to ruin my life,
and yet when i fought back they reacted like it was an insult to everything they stood for
and with even more hindsight i realised that all of those people who bullied me were
of lower class, and that is why i fully ingratiated myself in elitism
i saw what the lower class is capable of, they are not human
any wrong done to them is acceptable and just
TLDR;
people don't deserve empathy, its a gift, you only recieve it when you show empathy in return
so i am happy
3 of those girls recently were raped
one of those guys got rejected by his dream sports team
and one died from a drug overdose
i am now legally an adult
and with that i can look back and realise how wasted my life has been to this point
i've got an amazing work life, been getting great internships and connections
but those are empty compared to actually knowing someone.
its been officially 9 years since i've had a friend, and during my teenage years i hoped, prayed even that someone
just someone could actually want to look at me, and be kind
but that was to much to ask
i knew since the start i was unlovable, they didn't have to prove it more
they didn't have to slowly deconstruct who i was as a person, breaking any self esteem i had, destroying any love for the world i had
but they did, and they did it with glee.
and now all thats left is genuine bitterness, because i was targetted and now they bitch and moan about empathy when they never showed me empathy
when infact empathy was reserved for others.
infact a small story i remember to this day was when i was in 8th grade
a bee flew into the class and i remember people were demanding that no one kill it
even protecting it from being stomped by a teacher
that same very day, all of those kids pushed me to the ground choked me out and said they wanted me to kill myself
with hindsight i realised that those same very kids valued the life of an insect over mine, and now they talk about empathy?
or how they talk about incels, and how they hate women
but how could i not? when the people who bullied were sad the first people to uplift and support them were women
while i could barely cry in a bathroom in peace (eventually leading to me not crying in school in general past the 9th grade)
those same women accused me of some of the worst in attempts to ruin my life,
and yet when i fought back they reacted like it was an insult to everything they stood for
and with even more hindsight i realised that all of those people who bullied me were
of lower class, and that is why i fully ingratiated myself in elitism
i saw what the lower class is capable of, they are not human
any wrong done to them is acceptable and just
TLDR;
people don't deserve empathy, its a gift, you only recieve it when you show empathy in return
so i am happy
3 of those girls recently were raped
one of those guys got rejected by his dream sports team
and one died from a drug overdose
