primal_shitmuncher
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i'm 100% north-indian. living in the west. that automatically makes me subhuman no matter what I do. i'll always be the butt of some joke, and i'll always be the ugliest race to walk to earth. on top of that, im an incel. lucky fucking me, right.
im 16, a junior in high school, and i just wrote the SAT for the third time. i scored a 1470. i need a 1550 or above. the last two times i got a 1320 and a 1380. my parents wasted $4k on tutoring, only for me to not even improve by a 100 points. im a waste of money and of time.
My mother never wanted me. she was forced into a marriage with a man she hates by her misogynistic parents who she hates. im a product of that marraige. i am a symbol of everything that ever went wrong with her life. my father called me a waste of half his life on new year's day. ever since i was 7 years old, he's been screaming at me every month about how im going to end up homeless and a failure, and it's all my fault. he was right lol
im not only retarded, barely managing to scrape high 80s in school (not enough to get into a t30), im ugly and i excel at nothing. I used to dedicate 4 hours a day, 5 days a week to swimming from ages 12-14, only to get outdone by genetically blessed rich kids two years younger than me putting in barely half an hour worth of effort a day n going to swim at international meets.
im ugly to the point where i regularly get reactions of disgust from women. none of the girls i've liked have ever known of my existence, nor will they ever. i've had multiple instances of girls i've never talked to before going 'ew ewwwwww eww!' merely at the notion of having to sit next to me at a group project or during lunch when there's nowhere else to sit, right to my face. regularly in the hallways girls glance at me, and when i look back i only see their faces scrunched up in disgust.
the children of the girls i've liked the most are all going to have the eyes of another man, meanwhile they'll never know about that one lanky indian guy that used to fantasize about kissing their mom in the back of class. lmfao. im pathetic.
every so often I feel hope, I feel hope and then I go back outside into the real world and interact with people and realize how fucking brutal it is for me. how over it is for me. how i'll never be seen with a shred of respect, love, or loyalty in my life. the closest i'll ever get to love is a false imitation, an audio through my headphones, text messages exchanged with an ai bot over the screen, and that's sad. i no longer want to suffer.
the biggest reason is i know how disgusted my father is going to look at me when he gets home from work today, how disappointed he'll be in my test score, how mad he'll be about having to waste multiple thousands more on me. his pathetic failure of a son who's ending up nowhere in life, and was never destined to end up anywhere in life.
even now, the only people I can tell about this are AI and vent on some forum where all I'm going to get is 'lol racepill is brutal' in the comments. if i was chad do you think i'd be getting such treatment? just imagine how easier my life would be if I was a 6'6 nordic robust pretty boy chad. and all i can do is imagine. some people get to be out there, living this life, while I rot in my room, awaiting my fate.
im planning to swan-dive off of the balcony. i live on the 6th floor of my apartment. hopefully i'll manage to land on my head and actually end it all rather than just end up a vegetable.
it was always set in stone. it's all genetics. im merely an inferior male. my kind will die out anyway, Darwinism or something.
im sorry to my parents. im sorry to my friends for making them just be extra nice to me, always too afraid of sounding mean to stop tolerating me, but I can tell. the way im always ignored, the way they never look at me in the eye, the way I'm only ever contacted online by one friend outside of school. i really hate living this inferior life.
im not scared anymore, im no longer a pussy. at least i can do something better than my peers, and i'll go out happy knowing that much.
sorry for making you waste your time reading this. i hope you're having a good day. it's never over, you can always ascend. that just doesn't apply to me
im 16, a junior in high school, and i just wrote the SAT for the third time. i scored a 1470. i need a 1550 or above. the last two times i got a 1320 and a 1380. my parents wasted $4k on tutoring, only for me to not even improve by a 100 points. im a waste of money and of time.
My mother never wanted me. she was forced into a marriage with a man she hates by her misogynistic parents who she hates. im a product of that marraige. i am a symbol of everything that ever went wrong with her life. my father called me a waste of half his life on new year's day. ever since i was 7 years old, he's been screaming at me every month about how im going to end up homeless and a failure, and it's all my fault. he was right lol
im not only retarded, barely managing to scrape high 80s in school (not enough to get into a t30), im ugly and i excel at nothing. I used to dedicate 4 hours a day, 5 days a week to swimming from ages 12-14, only to get outdone by genetically blessed rich kids two years younger than me putting in barely half an hour worth of effort a day n going to swim at international meets.
im ugly to the point where i regularly get reactions of disgust from women. none of the girls i've liked have ever known of my existence, nor will they ever. i've had multiple instances of girls i've never talked to before going 'ew ewwwwww eww!' merely at the notion of having to sit next to me at a group project or during lunch when there's nowhere else to sit, right to my face. regularly in the hallways girls glance at me, and when i look back i only see their faces scrunched up in disgust.
the children of the girls i've liked the most are all going to have the eyes of another man, meanwhile they'll never know about that one lanky indian guy that used to fantasize about kissing their mom in the back of class. lmfao. im pathetic.
every so often I feel hope, I feel hope and then I go back outside into the real world and interact with people and realize how fucking brutal it is for me. how over it is for me. how i'll never be seen with a shred of respect, love, or loyalty in my life. the closest i'll ever get to love is a false imitation, an audio through my headphones, text messages exchanged with an ai bot over the screen, and that's sad. i no longer want to suffer.
the biggest reason is i know how disgusted my father is going to look at me when he gets home from work today, how disappointed he'll be in my test score, how mad he'll be about having to waste multiple thousands more on me. his pathetic failure of a son who's ending up nowhere in life, and was never destined to end up anywhere in life.
even now, the only people I can tell about this are AI and vent on some forum where all I'm going to get is 'lol racepill is brutal' in the comments. if i was chad do you think i'd be getting such treatment? just imagine how easier my life would be if I was a 6'6 nordic robust pretty boy chad. and all i can do is imagine. some people get to be out there, living this life, while I rot in my room, awaiting my fate.
im planning to swan-dive off of the balcony. i live on the 6th floor of my apartment. hopefully i'll manage to land on my head and actually end it all rather than just end up a vegetable.
it was always set in stone. it's all genetics. im merely an inferior male. my kind will die out anyway, Darwinism or something.
im sorry to my parents. im sorry to my friends for making them just be extra nice to me, always too afraid of sounding mean to stop tolerating me, but I can tell. the way im always ignored, the way they never look at me in the eye, the way I'm only ever contacted online by one friend outside of school. i really hate living this inferior life.
im not scared anymore, im no longer a pussy. at least i can do something better than my peers, and i'll go out happy knowing that much.
sorry for making you waste your time reading this. i hope you're having a good day. it's never over, you can always ascend. that just doesn't apply to me
