Im scared. Need help

[AvgMlad]

Im scared, scared of living on. I was able to calm myself down for the past few months because I was sure of km but now that I'm just chickening out, the fear's back. Idek why but my hearts starts racing just by thinking of living. I'm so tired and scared. My future's doomed. All I see is a failure socially anxious depressed ocd poor cuck disgusting manlet that's being frowned upon by everyone. I can try going full numb, but that'll most likely just break me from inside. I'm already broken anyways. But I'll end up all alone with no friends or anything. Even now I just want to be locked up in a room all by myself. I don't want interact with anybody. Fuck man, I have no idea what to do. I just want to end all this bs. Death is the only thing I want. I'd be free from all the worries and stress. It's literally perfect. Why do I have to keep living?Why? I want die so badly. I have no interest in making money or anything. Im sacred of everything. How do I overcome this fear?
I used to be the popular kid throughout middle school, had friends, was the top student and socialized but now I'm just empty. I don't even know what's the real me. Feels like I'm always putting up an act when being with someone. I don't even know how the real me acted. What the real me wanted. I'm lost, lost and scared. All by myself. How do I overcome this fear? What do I do?
Any advice would be appreciated

 

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[Deleted member 18814]

not reading all this shit

just kys

 

[AvgMlad]

not reading all this shit

just kys

I just wanted genuine advice

 

[Deleted member 18814]

I just wanted genuine advice

then write properly

 

[Deleted member 18814]

You're normal and you're going through silent war like everybody else, there is nothing wrong with you

Modern days are psicological warfare, they want to broke your spirit and they're succeding, it is very hard to fight it but It gets better if you embrace masculinity and nature (I know it sounds cliche and dumb and even somewhat oversimplified, but it is true)

Start going out, fix your own car, fix your TV, learn how to start a fire in the woods even if you're using a lighter, learn how to fight properly, get in shape, do not under any circunstance consume shit from netflix and mainstream media, goes from """news""" to entertainment etc etc...

you don't want to die and you're not scared you just don't want to be in this state of your life and if that is the case nothing better than start the change

 

[Deleted member 18814]

 

[Deleted member 18814]

This trend is not just some bullshit meme, it is a call to action to save other men

Anyone would fall in a spiral of misery if they listen to the mainstream and what society want, just don't be a part of it

 

[Deleted member 18814]

 

[AvgMlad]

You're normal and you're going through silent war like everybody else, there is nothing wrong with you

Modern days are psicological warfare, they want to broke your spirit and they're succeding, it is very hard to fight it but It gets better if you embrace masculinity and nature (I know it sounds cliche and dumb and even somewhat oversimplified, but it is true)

Start going out, fix your own car, fix your TV, learn how to start a fire in the woods even if you're using a lighter, learn how to fight properly, get in shape, do not under any circunstance consume shit from netflix and mainstream media, goes from """news""" to entertainment etc etc...

you don't want to die and you're not scared you just don't want to be in this state of your life and if that is the case nothing better than start the change

I don't quite get what you're trying to say. I'm not a 30 yo. I can't just go outside and fix my car and start doing manual labour. not sure how that would help anyways.

 

[Deleted member 27660]

you need to find some purpose or enjoyment from life. find somewhere to start and if you don’t like your current environment work towards finding and moving to a better place.

my enjoyment was reddit and r/IWantOut

 

[Deleted member 18814]

I don't quite get what you're trying to say. I'm not a 30 yo. I can't just go outside and fix my car and start doing manual labour. not sure how that would help anyways.

Shit .. I thought you at least had a clue, just kys brah, there is no saving retards ... I have no time for arguing with you if you actualy wanted genuine help you would at least say okay I'ma try

 

[Deleted member 23558]

OP first go get in the sun at 8 am or 5 pm bare torso and bask in it. then buy progesterone and take oral 100mg 3x a week for 3 weeks before you sleep. anff start ray peat diet ull be fine in a month.

 

[AvgMlad]

OP first go get in the sun at 8 am or 5 pm bare torso and bask in it. then buy progesterone and take oral 100mg 3x a week for 3 weeks before you sleep. anff start ray peat diet ull be fine in a month.

Thanks. But I don't have access to any medicines. I'm 16. Can't open up to parents. They wouldn't give a shit anyways.
I don't why but I can't calm my self down. I get panic attacks. I thought forcing myself would help but seems like it doesn't make any difference. I'm still the same

 

[Deleted member 23558]

Thanks. But I don't have access to any medicines. I'm 16. Can't open up to parents. They wouldn't give a shit anyways.
I don't why but I can't calm my self down. I get panic attacks. I thought forcing myself would help but seems like it doesn't make any difference. I'm still the same

get the basics right like sun sleep food then search for deeper reasons