Axton
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A friend I haven't seen in a while invited me to go to a cafe and catch up a couple of days ago for today. At first I was like I'll go why not but then for the days after that I thought about it more and more and I just couldn't because of how ugly even if I fraud. So I had to make some bs excuse saying something came up and I couldn't make it which sucks because I've been isolated for the past 7-8 months and wanted to go do things and get invited to stuff but now that I realized how ugly I am I can't get myself to do everything I even cancel doctor appointments because I can't bear being seen. When I'm in the house I have to walk with my head down so my parents don't have to see what they created. I get anxiety when im out and avoid every event with an excuse so people can't even get close. Some people will see this and say "just be confident" but that's complete cope you can't be confident when there's nothing to be proud about. lifes horrible it's been like this since 13 and has just been getting worse since.