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I'll try to keep it short. I'm 26F for reference. Basically, I had a very bad, neglectful childhood, and in my years of being left alone I started messing around with my dog (at about age 12). I just had him lick me down there on occasion, nothing abusive. I started watching bestiality porn, I drew dogs fucking girls, I started contemplating having penetrative sex with a dog... until I was 18 when I left for college. I left my terrible family and childhood behind, and my desires left. I had never dated before college, but I started to and in general a lot of the socialization I missed out on earlier got made up for. I'm more or less normal now.
Except that I'm attracted to dogs more than ever now. Over the past year it came back. I'm in a loving relationship with a man I'm attracted to, he tries very hard to please me sexually, yet when we're doing it all I do is fantasize about having sex with dogs. It's all I masturbate to. And it makes me want to commit suicide. I feel disgusting, damaged, deranged, fucked up. I feel mentally ill. I feel like I'll never lose the obsession with having sex with dogs. The guilt is consuming me. I feel like a terrible partner. It's not fair to my boyfriend to fantasize about someone else, but especially not a fucking ANIMAL. Goddamn it.
Sorry if this is typed like shit, I can't think straight. While I'll probably never have sex with a dog, it's the only thing that gets me off sexually in my head. I just want to die.
https://www.reddit.com/r/offmychest...exually_attracted_to_dogs_and_i_want_to_kill/
Except that I'm attracted to dogs more than ever now. Over the past year it came back. I'm in a loving relationship with a man I'm attracted to, he tries very hard to please me sexually, yet when we're doing it all I do is fantasize about having sex with dogs. It's all I masturbate to. And it makes me want to commit suicide. I feel disgusting, damaged, deranged, fucked up. I feel mentally ill. I feel like I'll never lose the obsession with having sex with dogs. The guilt is consuming me. I feel like a terrible partner. It's not fair to my boyfriend to fantasize about someone else, but especially not a fucking ANIMAL. Goddamn it.
Sorry if this is typed like shit, I can't think straight. While I'll probably never have sex with a dog, it's the only thing that gets me off sexually in my head. I just want to die.
https://www.reddit.com/r/offmychest...exually_attracted_to_dogs_and_i_want_to_kill/
