im so bad at motivation

[Prøphet]

Im really bad at getting excited for tomorrow

always been this way too, I remember vividly even at 10 years old there was this palpable sense that there's nothing to look forward to, everything just sucks and forever will remain this way, some kind of cosmic inevitability inextricable from my life

Im not even lying or joking, as a young child I would just look for things that can "pass the time" without leading anywhere.like that was all I did whatsoever.

probably developed from a mix of neurochemistry and family issues and social isolation

this instinct that nothing good could happen to me has led me toward sitting in a chair and jerking off for my entire existence waiting around to die

I seriously could go far if I just was motivated more and could see some kind of light, but it all seems superficial and fleeting to me like an illusion

I feel actual hope and motivation maybe once a week for 5 minutes and then I see the nothingness behind it as the facade drops

I have outsourced any figment of motivation to philosophical works and TikTok edits

 

[Prøphet]

@pexy @tansel

 

[Slavurik]

Just find urself smth to do and how to occupy ur time with smth useful, then u will have motivation

 

[tansel]

well

that is very depressing to hear

did you have a bad day today man

 

[Prøphet]

Just find urself smth to do and how to occupy ur time with smth useful, then u will have motivation

I have man

academics, music, research

none of it was enough to provide something lasting

maybe this is all just an effect of me missing a social life

which seems impossible to fix because of how ND and ugly I am

 

[BatemanNigga]

Motivation is cope it lasts for 30 minutes then you snap back

 

[Prøphet]

well

that is very depressing to hear man

did you have a bad day today man

it wasn't terrible

I just did a lot of school work which is unusual for my lazy ass

trying to ignore and put off making a plan for the future, because that would require me being in my right mind, which I am not and never have been

 

[tansel]

I just did a lot of school work which is unusual for my lazy ass

yeah man i haven’t talked to u all day

missed u boah

maybe this is all just an effect of me missing a social life

dude u don’t even need a social life when u have me man haha

although a girlfriend would be nice obviously

 

[Prøphet]

yeah man i haven’t talked to u all day

missed u boah

dude u don’t even need a social life when u have me man haha

although a girlfriend would be nice obviously

missed you too mayne

was missing the big org no cap

I wish man

I think my social skills will continue to be ass until I fix the physical side

need to do some kind of voice training and body language training

im giga fucked bro I really don't realize how bad off I am until I go in public and just get overwhelmed with a million worries about what everyone thinks

 

[tansel]

I think my social skills will continue to be ass until I fix the physical side

yeah man i understand

need to do some kind of voice training and body language training

or u could just take some pregab lol

im giga fucked bro I really don't realize how bad off I am until I go in public and just get overwhelmed with a million worries about what everyone thinks

well

that is sad to hear man

maybe its just a teenage thing

like a phase

have u tried pregab

was missing the big org no cap

dude did u see hexums cold approaches in nyc lol

with him faking tourettes lmao

 

[Prøphet]

yeah man i understand


or u could just take some pregab lol


well

that is sad to hear man

maybe its just a teenage thing

like a phase

have u tried pregab


dude did u see hexums cold approaches in nyc lol

with him faking tourettes lmao

well I will say I have done certain things that absolutely help and make me look more normal

but the issue is it can't be done all the time and I can't carry the gains with me the day after if it makes sense

idk I don't expect an easy solution this is just my predicament from losing the dice roll

yeah his approaches always make me laugh

I like when he talks about his gonorrhea

 

[tansel]

well I will say I have done certain things that absolutely help and make me look more normal

yeah i remember u mentioned alcohol if im not mistaken

which is obviously very bad for you

idk I don't expect an easy solution this is just my predicament from losing the dice roll

hey hey hey

u didn’t lose anything man

u are only 19

the dice is still in ur hands

& the odds are good

seeing as u have ur buddy tansel by ur side

yeah his approaches always make me laugh

I like when he talks about his gonorrhea

hahah yes dude

now i’m getting fomo of cold approaching

after my pexy i wanna try it

seeing as i always though online dating was extremely weird

 

[pexy]

i think your issue stems in the lack of human connection and life experiences

those of which have been denied to you due to your mental and physical make-up

but thankfully both are positively proportional

increasing your looks will increase your mental health

and one day you’ll get a girlfriend and you’ll have friends

and you’ll laugh about how much your life has changed

 

[ReccesedSlavic]

Im really bad at getting excited for tomorrow

always been this way too, I remember vividly even at 10 years old there was this palpable sense that there's nothing to look forward to, everything just sucks and forever will remain this way, some kind of cosmic inevitability inextricable from my life

Im not even lying or joking, as a young child I would just look for things that can "pass the time" without leading anywhere.like that was all I did whatsoever.

probably developed from a mix of neurochemistry and family issues and social isolation

this instinct that nothing good could happen to me has led me toward sitting in a chair and jerking off for my entire existence waiting around to die

I seriously could go far if I just was motivated more and could see some kind of light, but it all seems superficial and fleeting to me like an illusion

I feel actual hope and motivation maybe once a week for 5 minutes and then I see the nothingness behind it as the facade drops

I have outsourced any figment of motivation to philosophical works and TikTok edits

What’s tomorrow ?

 

[Prøphet]

What’s tomorrow ?

everything

 

[valentine]

i feel most motivated to do things at 2am

don't rely on motivation rely on discipline and routine

motivation is too inconsistent

 

[Prøphet]

i feel most motivated to do things at 2am

don't rely on motivation rely on discipline and routine

motivation is too inconsistent

I guess its hard to get started with discipline when im already living such a shit life

its like the reason I cope by being a dopamine slave, eating sugar, watching porn, scrolling for hours, is to soothe myself from how horrible my life is

but my life won't get any better until I break the cycle, because only I can change anything

 

[valentine]

I guess its hard to get started with discipline when im already living such a shit life

its like the reason I cope by being a dopamine slave, eating sugar, watching porn, scrolling for hours, is to soothe myself from how horrible my life is

but my life won't get any better until I break the cycle, because only I can change anything

yeah i understand i also don't have anything going on which is why i got fat because I'm just doing nothing eating pies all day

you have to force yourself to do the things that are productive even if it feels bad at first. when you start getting first good results it will get easier because it starts a cycle of w's and only then you'll get motivated

it's like that for me