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im locking in now or death because im tired of this shit im sick of it
i wasted my entire years of hs and college focusing on grades and not going out bc i thought my looks were not enough. i was so insecure and had no father figure whatsoever with 0 masculine qualities so i was just a complete weirdo
i was completely autistic even though i was a white 6ft mtn at the time just extremely autistic and my hair was grown like a birds nest. i had 0 clue how life worked and how to navigate it as i grew up as only child w a loving yet most bluepilled mother on the planet.
then all boys school where i was bullied because i didnt know personal hygiene
i was so bpd and ignored everyone and overall wasted these years
i have good genetics too but was fed goyslop from 0-16 my mom only ate bread and cheese while i was in the womb and i didnt have asingle gram of protein for 16 years of my life and idgaf what anyone says that makes a huge fucking difference
i got into 2 ltrs which prob mogs most people in this forum but theyre both gone and idgaf anymore but its just fcked
i dont even want to go clubbing or slay bc i dont even enjoy it
i just want a girl who is innocent and loyal and attractive.
no bodies, will never leave, htb
but this is the rarest thing on the planet and the only way for me to achieve this is if i starve myself to death and blast mt2 being hungry to the point where im 135lbs bc my bone mass is so low.
and by that point my libido drops so bad as i have pelvic floor problems which destroys erection quality.
while working 3 jobs in the middle of my last semester of a school year where i basically made no connections because of how introverted i was.
i have to find a way out. i have to win i have to. i will eat an oz of fucking chicken a day if i have to and talk to every single human being in my vicinity to catch up with the lost time
i miss my mtb i dont enjoy slaying i miss who she was but now shes been w differnet dudes and she says she still loves me but i wouldnt even want her anymore
feb 11 2026. this will be the night i lock in.
I promise I won't fail again
i wasted my entire years of hs and college focusing on grades and not going out bc i thought my looks were not enough. i was so insecure and had no father figure whatsoever with 0 masculine qualities so i was just a complete weirdo
i was completely autistic even though i was a white 6ft mtn at the time just extremely autistic and my hair was grown like a birds nest. i had 0 clue how life worked and how to navigate it as i grew up as only child w a loving yet most bluepilled mother on the planet.
then all boys school where i was bullied because i didnt know personal hygiene
i was so bpd and ignored everyone and overall wasted these years
i have good genetics too but was fed goyslop from 0-16 my mom only ate bread and cheese while i was in the womb and i didnt have asingle gram of protein for 16 years of my life and idgaf what anyone says that makes a huge fucking difference
i got into 2 ltrs which prob mogs most people in this forum but theyre both gone and idgaf anymore but its just fcked
i dont even want to go clubbing or slay bc i dont even enjoy it
i just want a girl who is innocent and loyal and attractive.
no bodies, will never leave, htb
but this is the rarest thing on the planet and the only way for me to achieve this is if i starve myself to death and blast mt2 being hungry to the point where im 135lbs bc my bone mass is so low.
and by that point my libido drops so bad as i have pelvic floor problems which destroys erection quality.
while working 3 jobs in the middle of my last semester of a school year where i basically made no connections because of how introverted i was.
i have to find a way out. i have to win i have to. i will eat an oz of fucking chicken a day if i have to and talk to every single human being in my vicinity to catch up with the lost time
i miss my mtb i dont enjoy slaying i miss who she was but now shes been w differnet dudes and she says she still loves me but i wouldnt even want her anymore
feb 11 2026. this will be the night i lock in.
I promise I won't fail again