I’m so lost.

[Prøphet]

I’m just lost. That’s what’s so fucked up about me. 18 years old but inside I’m still the same weak rotten child I always was. Things are so fucked up I just try to escape and run away. Always. It’s like I can’t tolerate anything that hurts. Even if it would relieve some of this misery crushing my shoulders. I escape my own life by sleeping all day and spending all night on copes to distract me from how fucked up my life is. I used to go through a weed cart every single day to make sure I wouldn’t ever have to think. Haven’t spoken to most of my family in multiple years. At this point I don’t even know what I would tell them. I don’t know if there’s anything I could say to them. I’m the worst son ever. I am such a fucking piece of shit, not only because of everything Ive gone through, but because of how I responded. And the worst part is that it’s my nature, I’m finding the harder I try to push against this self oppression, the stronger it becomes, it’s just who I am. I know I have to face the mistakes Ive made, but I just never do it. So nothing ever changes. And things just get worse and worse and worse, falling into more and more disrepair and neglect as I keep trying to escape from my problems. What the fuck is wrong with me.

 

[Spieldren]

I’m just lost. That’s what’s so fucked up about me. 18 years old but inside I’m still the same weak rotten child I always was. Things are so fucked up I just try to escape and run away. Always. It’s like I can’t tolerate anything that hurts. Even if it would relieve some of this misery crushing my shoulders. I escape my own life by sleeping all day and spending all night on copes to distract me from how fucked up my life is. I used to go through a weed cart every single day to make sure I wouldn’t ever have to think. Haven’t spoken to most of my family in multiple years. I am such a fucking piece of shit, not only because of everything Ive gone through, but because of how I responded. And the worst part is that it’s my nature, I’m finding the harder I try to push against this self oppression, the stronger it becomes, it’s just who I am.

we twinning man i cant seem to find what interesting or valuable to do in this life and it just leads me to ldaring and wasting valuable time on dopamine

everyone seems to have figured their shit out and be solid people but me. i just exist you know

 

[BigJimsWornOutTires]

A job will give you meaning

 

[Incelforeever]

Ur 18 now, if u want to change, this is the last train. Time is gonna move extremely fast now, after 20 it would be over fr.

 

[romanstock]

Buy tonnes of junk food, crank that weed, play games and have fun on the internet all night, sleep all day, this is your party scene, live it brother.

 

[oatmeal]

i'm 22 and have completely lost it. my prospects when i was 18 have been completely flipped on their head and i'm basically screwed forevever in comparison to you.

so do choose wisely what you wish to do right now. althoguh even if you're in the truly over ages, you might as well still change even if you won't have reached the max peak of your potentiality.

 

[Hotline_Seagull]

The time will go by regardless, you'll go from 18 to 21 in no time bro. It's hard but you got the power to change you're life, better to give it your all than nothing.