I’m so tired of the pills

[orbitalsofdoom]

ever since I was groomed into anti depressants as a young teen all the way to now, the never ending flow of medications I don’t even know the name of I’m forced to take has fucked who I was as a person beyond repair. Never get emitted to the ward gentlemen, they forced me to take medications that made me hear music and see hallucinations like they were trying to make me crazy so they could just feed me more meds

Every time I try to get off medications for whatever bs diagnosis they gave me, the doctors always take advantage of my quite nature and push more and more meds

It’s been like 10 years since iv lived without taking some kind of daily medications prescribed by some evil psychologist.

 

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Cud be worse

 

[orbitalsofdoom]

Cud be worse

The medication they gave me that’s only for emergencies and anxiety episodes makes me feel so good and relaxed but I can only take it once every 2 weeks because it’s extremely addicting

 

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The medication they gave me that’s only for emergencies and anxiety episodes makes me feel so good and relaxed but I can only take it once every 2 weeks because it’s extremely addicting

Did they give you Xanax? Lucky ass fuck

 

[orbitalsofdoom]

Did they give you Xanax? Lucky ass fuck

I don’t even know the name of the meds I’m on anymore they have changed it so many times trying everything in the book to numb my suicidal thoughts I just don’t understand why they can’t just see all my bad thoughts stem from me being ugly

 

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I don’t even know the name of the meds I’m on anymore they have changed it so many times trying everything in the book to numb my suicidal thoughts I just don’t understand why they can’t just see all my bad thoughts stem from me being ugly

Bro every psychiatrist I see I don’t tell them anything about my true beliefs

I’m scared they will make me end up like u, but in the end I don’t get the real help I need. I don’t think they can help me fr

 

[orbitalsofdoom]

Bro every psychiatrist I see I don’t tell them anything about my true beliefs

I’m scared they will make me end up like u, but in the end I don’t get the real help I need. I don’t think they can help me fr

There is no help for me, there is no such thing as body dysmorphia or any of this shit They’re trying to tell me. I’m just an ugly ass deformed retard with no future that’s why I think this way, but I’m also just very logical and I see there is genuinely is no point in living, it’s a very weird environment when I’m in the psychologist office it’s like we all subconsciously know the real reason why I’m here but it’s just this toxic positivity happy place where they just feed me what I want to hear so I take more of their meds

 

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There is no help for me, there is no such thing as body dysmorphia or any of this shit They’re trying to tell me. I’m just an ugly ass deformed retard with no future that’s why I think this way, but I’m also just very logical and I see there is genuinely is no point in living, it’s a very weird environment when I’m in the psychologist office it’s like we all subconsciously know the real reason why I’m here but it’s just this toxic positivity happy place where they just feed me what I want to hear so I take more of their meds

Did you tell them your true opinion of urself? That you think ur ugly?

 

[orbitalsofdoom]

Did you tell them your true opinion of urself? That you think ur ugly?

Yes, I told them about interpupillary distance and all my bad ratios and it’s worse than talking to a brick wall, I measured my eyes I know they are deformed but they just sit there and lie to me.

 

[5'7" 3/4s]

Yes, I told them about interpupillary distance and all my bad ratios and it’s worse than talking to a brick wall, I measured my eyes I know they are deformed but they just sit there and lie to me.

You see I know I will be put on meds the moment I tell someone about this shit. I literally measured my face with a ruler and know my ratios like this as well…

Idk man, I really don’t know if it’s worth it