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After seeing her sister's bf, a part of me died. I started forgetting about her and her BS. Sometimes, sui fuel can be an eye opener.
Seeing what type of guy her 16yo sister is dating, made me realize how ugly I am and that I never had a chance to begin with. I'm a creepy, rapist looking 23 yo virgin.
This self realization destroyed my feelings. The only thing I feel is unjustified rage. Idk. I feel like I'm dying. Everything is so hopeless now that I see it. I don't have any stength to live anymore. Live and do what? I will never be a 17yo pretty boy. I will never have college sex binges. I will never have a gf.
I feel so empty atm. I can't rope over a girl casue of my pride so I will going. I'm permamently damaged at this point and I will never recover but that's how life is. I guess I will be alone. At least here in Netherlands there isn't any sui fuel since the people here are so drastically different they might as well be considered different species.
Seeing what type of guy her 16yo sister is dating, made me realize how ugly I am and that I never had a chance to begin with. I'm a creepy, rapist looking 23 yo virgin.
This self realization destroyed my feelings. The only thing I feel is unjustified rage. Idk. I feel like I'm dying. Everything is so hopeless now that I see it. I don't have any stength to live anymore. Live and do what? I will never be a 17yo pretty boy. I will never have college sex binges. I will never have a gf.
I feel so empty atm. I can't rope over a girl casue of my pride so I will going. I'm permamently damaged at this point and I will never recover but that's how life is. I guess I will be alone. At least here in Netherlands there isn't any sui fuel since the people here are so drastically different they might as well be considered different species.
