I'm starting to lose myself

[sarmatian]

I got a decent physique and everybody complimented me this summer (even slayed lol)
But because I didn't achieve my goal (slaying my oneitis) I feel less and less motivated to do anything
Also, the prospect of starting planning for surgery in September was pushed by my ortho to at least October/November, so I'm caging rn
I wanted to start gym but I feel like shit mentally and I want to ascend but I find less motivation to do so everyday

I feel lost and without a purpose, my ascension is a distant mirage that I hang onto in hopes to feel happy

I don't know what to do

 

[BigBallsLarry]

just a bad time right now, mainly because of your plans getting ruined

keep going, even when demotivated. gym and self improvement shouldn't need motivation, it should be discipline and routine.

keep your expectations low and you'll be more happy. slaying is already extremely good.

 

[sarmatian]

just a bad time right now, mainly because of your plans getting ruined

keep going, even when demotivated. gym and self improvement shouldn't need motivation, it should be discipline and routine.

keep your expectations low and you'll be more happy. slaying is already extremely good.

I know but I want to ascend badly because I can't get over the fact that I never managed to slay my oneitis (even though she gets slayed by a different low Ltn/subhuman each week)