IM SUCH A FUCKING AUTISTIC RETARD

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To visit my house, 4 relatives have come, some distant uncle, his wife, their son and their daughter. They are both around my age. MY MOM CALLED ME DOWNSTAIRS TO MEET THEM BUT BECAUSE IM SO ND MY FUCKING ENTIRE HEART STARTED BEATING LIKE FUCKING CRAZY AND MY BODY STARTED SHAKING A BIT. I calmed myself down (tried to) and greeted both of them, I was standing this time. we had a bit of small talk that my parents made and my parents in my ears told me to interact with their son and their daughter as im around their age. NOW TO FUCKING COMPENSATE FOR MY FUCKING LACK OF CONFIDENCE MY FUCKING MIND GOES INTO AN ARROGANT ZONE EVEN THOUGH IM NOT AND I FUCKING SPOKE LOUDLY SAID, "WHAT WOULD I TALK TO THEM ABOUT" I dont remember much but it was overcome by my father talkign about somethng else, then we sat down, talked about my studies and stuff like that for a bit. (this was in the dining hall) after that i went in my hall to play, after sitting for about a min, my father called me outside and told me, "WHY DID I ACT SO RUDE INFRONT OF THEM AND THAT IT SOUNDED VERY BAD (thinking back it must've) NOW THEY ARE GONNA STAY ARE FOR 3 DAYS NOW WHAT THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED DO IM SO FUCKING ND. I WANT TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF HOLY FUCKING FUCK WHY DO I FUCKING MESS UP EVERYTHING

 

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After my father told me that, I went back to the my hall and stood their for a moment, after that they said they are gonna play some games after some time, so because I was so embarrased i just told them that im going back to my room and now theyre gonna call me downstairs after like 10 mins to play with them.

 

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PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO I DON'T WANT TO EVISCERATE MY REPUTATION FURTHER MORE AND BE KNOWN AS A DELUSIONAL OVERCONFIDENT ARROGANT RETARD

 

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IM FUCKING RAGING AT MYSELF

 

[tomahawk]

Just be chill bro just do not care and use the basic social boundaries

 

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Just be chill bro just do not care and use the basic social boundaries

Basic social boundaries like what?

 

[tomahawk]

Basic social boundaries like what?

Be neutral don't degrade don't be arrogant be polite crack BASIC jokes sometimes treat them as close ones but not too close like relative close

 

[voidpursuit]

PLEASE TELL ME WHAT TO DO I DON'T WANT TO EVISCERATE MY REPUTATION FURTHER MORE AND BE KNOWN AS A DELUSIONAL OVERCONFIDENT ARROGANT RETARD

relax firstly and if it helps put the focus on them, ask shit about their lives or what they do for fun and don't put much pressure on the interaction, it's seriously not a big deal so don't treat it like one

 

[tomahawk]

relax firstly and if it helps put the focus on them, ask shit about their lives or what they do for fun and don't put much pressure on the interaction, it's seriously not a big deal so don't treat it like one

Good one

 

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relax firstly and if it helps put the focus on them, ask shit about their lives or what they do for fun and don't put much pressure on the interaction, it's seriously not a big deal so don't treat it like one

So I didn't ruin everything by acting arrogant at first? now I just have to be calm and humble and funny (im not a funny guy at all i dont know how to be funny)

 

[JimmyDreamsOfZygos]

First off you are a bad host because you’d rather worry about yourself and think about yourself rather than the people in front of you. How about you stop thinking about yourself for one fucking second you retard.

 

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Guys they have already called me downstairs I have to go wish me luck

 

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First off you are a bad host because you’d rather worry about yourself and think about yourself rather than the people in front of you. How about you stop thinking about yourself for one fucking second you retard.

I know bro I just get nervous and I am a fucking retard

 

[JimmyDreamsOfZygos]

So I didn't ruin everything by acting arrogant at first? now I just have to be calm and humble and funny (im not a funny guy at all i dont know how to be funny)

Me me me me me, your “anxiety” is just your ego finding new ways to make everything about yourself. Go ask them questions they’re probably interesting.

 

[voidpursuit]

So I didn't ruin everything by acting arrogant at first? now I just have to be calm and humble and funny (im not a funny guy at all i dont know how to be funny)

no dude most thoughts people have are about themselves not about you no one is thinking that deeply about it except you

 

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no dude most thoughts people have are about themselves not about you no one is thinking that deeply about it except you

I hope bro, Thank you